Gibs
@giffs.bsky.social
Don't follow me. I just vent here so when I go, people will have an idea of the descending spiral that's slowly dragging me in.
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It's depressing to say at least to see how few people I consider important to me, care about my presence and what I do for them. In the end, I'm just the option for those I see as a priority.
Maybe I should just stop trying. Stop caring. And realize it's just me and myself all this time.
Maybe I should just stop trying. Stop caring. And realize it's just me and myself all this time.
November 29, 2025 at 1:28 PM
It's depressing to say at least to see how few people I consider important to me, care about my presence and what I do for them. In the end, I'm just the option for those I see as a priority.
Maybe I should just stop trying. Stop caring. And realize it's just me and myself all this time.
Maybe I should just stop trying. Stop caring. And realize it's just me and myself all this time.
I'm still alive, not that anyone would care tbh.
The more time passes, the more I see how I simply don't fit anywhere. How no one truly gets me. I wish I could cry right now, given lots of things happening but I can't, I simply need to keep pushing forward for those who rely on me.
It is what it is.
The more time passes, the more I see how I simply don't fit anywhere. How no one truly gets me. I wish I could cry right now, given lots of things happening but I can't, I simply need to keep pushing forward for those who rely on me.
It is what it is.
November 25, 2025 at 4:30 PM
I'm still alive, not that anyone would care tbh.
The more time passes, the more I see how I simply don't fit anywhere. How no one truly gets me. I wish I could cry right now, given lots of things happening but I can't, I simply need to keep pushing forward for those who rely on me.
It is what it is.
The more time passes, the more I see how I simply don't fit anywhere. How no one truly gets me. I wish I could cry right now, given lots of things happening but I can't, I simply need to keep pushing forward for those who rely on me.
It is what it is.
God knows I just wanted to end it all today
August 28, 2025 at 4:01 PM
God knows I just wanted to end it all today
Another day of saying the words I wanted to hear.
August 27, 2025 at 8:59 PM
Another day of saying the words I wanted to hear.
Seems I just can't do anything right
August 22, 2025 at 7:26 PM
Seems I just can't do anything right
The sinking feeling that I'll never make anyone happy or feel appreciated to end the night like the icing on the shit cake.
August 19, 2025 at 4:15 AM
The sinking feeling that I'll never make anyone happy or feel appreciated to end the night like the icing on the shit cake.
Still in pain. Not a single soul to at least offer company when I need the most. My friend had some really bad news, so I get it, but I still feel like shit just thinking about everyone I considered close and my priority now being aware of how I am and not even saying a fucking "hey how are you"
Fml
Fml
August 11, 2025 at 12:44 AM
Still in pain. Not a single soul to at least offer company when I need the most. My friend had some really bad news, so I get it, but I still feel like shit just thinking about everyone I considered close and my priority now being aware of how I am and not even saying a fucking "hey how are you"
Fml
Fml
Physical pain hurt a lot (and I say this as someone who barely slept last night bc of 4 different kinds of it), but what saved was a friend of all people to choose to stay up with me until I could actually sleep. It's crazy how such spontaneous and kind acts come from the most unexpected places.
August 10, 2025 at 12:13 AM
Physical pain hurt a lot (and I say this as someone who barely slept last night bc of 4 different kinds of it), but what saved was a friend of all people to choose to stay up with me until I could actually sleep. It's crazy how such spontaneous and kind acts come from the most unexpected places.
You know what, being ignored in general isn't even bad. What actually hurts is being ignored by people you'd never do that to.
Hopefully I'll put this on my thick head and learn once and for all, to not treat as priority who treats me as nothing.
Hopefully I'll put this on my thick head and learn once and for all, to not treat as priority who treats me as nothing.
June 25, 2025 at 8:23 PM
You know what, being ignored in general isn't even bad. What actually hurts is being ignored by people you'd never do that to.
Hopefully I'll put this on my thick head and learn once and for all, to not treat as priority who treats me as nothing.
Hopefully I'll put this on my thick head and learn once and for all, to not treat as priority who treats me as nothing.
Legit feeling on one of my lowest lows right now.
June 19, 2025 at 12:49 AM
Legit feeling on one of my lowest lows right now.
Had some good news for once, but no one cares to celebrate with me so it feels.... weird?
June 18, 2025 at 11:56 PM
Had some good news for once, but no one cares to celebrate with me so it feels.... weird?
There's nothing more disheartening than knowing if I never come back home the only ones who'll ever miss me are the ones who rely on me.
June 18, 2025 at 12:28 AM
There's nothing more disheartening than knowing if I never come back home the only ones who'll ever miss me are the ones who rely on me.
Had a few good days, and I'm grateful for that. These days are so few and far between, so I need to enjoy them while they last. Now I'm sick, got beaten up, and all I wanted was some supporting words or a hug, but that's a luxury I simply can't afford.
June 9, 2025 at 9:02 AM
Had a few good days, and I'm grateful for that. These days are so few and far between, so I need to enjoy them while they last. Now I'm sick, got beaten up, and all I wanted was some supporting words or a hug, but that's a luxury I simply can't afford.
That's just not for me anymore.
May 26, 2025 at 10:34 PM
That's just not for me anymore.
The more time passes, the more I realize I need to kill that part of me who cares and longs to be cared about.
May 20, 2025 at 12:30 AM
The more time passes, the more I realize I need to kill that part of me who cares and longs to be cared about.
I was hoping to come back here and post something happy or share some good news but clearly this isn't the day.
May 17, 2025 at 3:03 PM
I was hoping to come back here and post something happy or share some good news but clearly this isn't the day.
Hate to be left with my own thoughts and no one to talk with.
May 1, 2025 at 8:05 PM
Hate to be left with my own thoughts and no one to talk with.
It's hard for me to admit this, but while I believe (almost) everything can be fixed, a part of me broken almost a decade ago will never be. The worse my life gets the more visible the cracks become. I was never fixed, I was just unaware of the damage. Idk why I post all these, but it helps I guess.
April 24, 2025 at 11:53 AM
It's hard for me to admit this, but while I believe (almost) everything can be fixed, a part of me broken almost a decade ago will never be. The worse my life gets the more visible the cracks become. I was never fixed, I was just unaware of the damage. Idk why I post all these, but it helps I guess.
Not me realizing today that I was always the option to the people I treat as priority.
April 23, 2025 at 2:45 PM
Not me realizing today that I was always the option to the people I treat as priority.
I really miss being able to talk about stuff without being constantly shut down or simply ignored tbh. The more I realize that, makes me think I should never put myself in the position of needing anyone for anything, but that'll be a long way to unlearn all that.
April 17, 2025 at 11:35 PM
I really miss being able to talk about stuff without being constantly shut down or simply ignored tbh. The more I realize that, makes me think I should never put myself in the position of needing anyone for anything, but that'll be a long way to unlearn all that.