I HATE DISSOCIATION I almost never feel Normal

this is about an irl thing i dont' want to elaborate on here for privacy reasons

like so mad i want to cry ngl...

an ex mutual who took me leaving a little too personally apparently?? LMAO

i am horribly depressed for a plethora of reasons! woohoo!

you're very kind, thank you!! i was just in a bad headspace but i'm doing better now

honestly i love that, too. there's never any pressure to respond right away & that's awesome! but yeah i was just in a bad headspace & i'm feeling a bit better now; thank you for the reassurance, though!!

nah it's ok I just found out something that made me really upset. Will be alright shortly most likely 👍

everything is going to shit. it has been for a while. don't know why i fucking bother

2024 was mostly good but spiraled downhill toward the end & i doubt 2025 is gonna be any better so whtever

LIKE WHAT!!!!!!! learned later seroquel has the potential to cause heart conduction problems like that & luckily my psychiatrist told me to stop taking it & when i later on went to the hospital, they ran tests to make sure i wasn't still experiencing it. but like... hello?

he COMPLETELY blew me off when i was describing long qt syndrome caused by seroquel which... had the potential to kill me very suddenly if i had left it untreated. said "yeah seroquel can cause palpitations" & straight up was like "aw you're having side effects ):" when i described everything else

*feels like i'm being possessed & starts acting different* *remembers that is The Point & starts screaming*