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aeron/mocha
25. he/him. gay
❝ it's not like i'm mentally ill! ❞
vent account + personal rambles
꘎♡━━━━━♡꘎
aeron/mocha
25. he/him. gay
❝ it's not like i'm mentally ill! ❞
vent account + personal rambles
꘎♡━━━━━♡꘎
sometimes it feels like I have no control over my body
January 30, 2025 at 11:19 PM
sometimes it feels like I have no control over my body
never mind :) tip: i am so fucking mad :)
January 25, 2025 at 3:53 AM
never mind :) tip: i am so fucking mad :)
it's kinda weird how it's taken me so long to allow myself to use certain terms to discuss my trauma. even being told i fit the criteria for CPTSD vs anything else was disorienting. i've been in such bad denial for so long that it's hard to accept that i am in fact traumatized
January 25, 2025 at 1:30 AM
it's kinda weird how it's taken me so long to allow myself to use certain terms to discuss my trauma. even being told i fit the criteria for CPTSD vs anything else was disorienting. i've been in such bad denial for so long that it's hard to accept that i am in fact traumatized
i still can't believe i got vagued for saying I'm leaving twt LMAOOO like duh that site fucking sucks why would i force myself to be on it for the sake of other people..? that's bad for me, dude!
January 23, 2025 at 12:20 AM
i still can't believe i got vagued for saying I'm leaving twt LMAOOO like duh that site fucking sucks why would i force myself to be on it for the sake of other people..? that's bad for me, dude!
been SUUUUPER depressed all day + am getting overstimulated super easily... I'm miserable to put it lightly
January 19, 2025 at 12:03 AM
been SUUUUPER depressed all day + am getting overstimulated super easily... I'm miserable to put it lightly
today has been so so bad. between getting waves of being suicidal over how stupid & bad at everything i am and the horrible stress from Everything I'm just... not good right now
January 16, 2025 at 11:14 PM
today has been so so bad. between getting waves of being suicidal over how stupid & bad at everything i am and the horrible stress from Everything I'm just... not good right now
life really sucks
January 14, 2025 at 10:44 PM
life really sucks
literally cannot go on twt without getting angry please let that website explode already 🙏
January 14, 2025 at 8:43 PM
literally cannot go on twt without getting angry please let that website explode already 🙏
mad as fuck about something not gonna lie
December 31, 2024 at 2:06 AM
mad as fuck about something not gonna lie
i genuinely do not think anyone actually likes me i give up
December 31, 2024 at 1:51 AM
i genuinely do not think anyone actually likes me i give up
i've been to like 3 cardiologists over the course of my life due to my arrhythmia & trying to catch it on an ekg & let me tell you... the amount of negligence i had to endure because of the last one is insane
December 16, 2024 at 2:22 AM
i've been to like 3 cardiologists over the course of my life due to my arrhythmia & trying to catch it on an ekg & let me tell you... the amount of negligence i had to endure because of the last one is insane
it's crazy how anytime a very typical OSDD/DID symptom will happen to me, i'm like this because I'm still toeing the line between utter denial & reluctant acceptance
a man with a surprised look on his face holds his hands to his head
ALT: a man with a surprised look on his face holds his hands to his head
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December 16, 2024 at 1:27 AM
it's crazy how anytime a very typical OSDD/DID symptom will happen to me, i'm like this because I'm still toeing the line between utter denial & reluctant acceptance
had a really severe trauma moment on saturday & i'm STILL trying to recover from it ughhhhh been dissociating hard ever since
December 10, 2024 at 3:39 AM
had a really severe trauma moment on saturday & i'm STILL trying to recover from it ughhhhh been dissociating hard ever since
derealization hitting hard tonight
December 9, 2024 at 12:41 AM
derealization hitting hard tonight
what's even funnier is that she said i was more manic on the day i took the test but then said i was depressive type schizoaffective LIKE?!??! DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'RE DOING--
December 8, 2024 at 5:42 AM
what's even funnier is that she said i was more manic on the day i took the test but then said i was depressive type schizoaffective LIKE?!??! DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'RE DOING--
like we /know/ & my therapist has told me she absolutely sees the dissociative disorder in me which is fine because the treatment is gonna be from her anyway so *shrugs* but it will never not make me livid to think about how fucked over i got this year
December 8, 2024 at 5:34 AM
like we /know/ & my therapist has told me she absolutely sees the dissociative disorder in me which is fine because the treatment is gonna be from her anyway so *shrugs* but it will never not make me livid to think about how fucked over i got this year
still so crazy how i spent $850 for dissociative disorder testing then they gave me a comprehensive mental health exam which did not include dissociation & also did not administer the DES to me so i paid for... nothing!
December 8, 2024 at 5:29 AM
still so crazy how i spent $850 for dissociative disorder testing then they gave me a comprehensive mental health exam which did not include dissociation & also did not administer the DES to me so i paid for... nothing!
I feel like garbage
December 4, 2024 at 8:52 PM
I feel like garbage
my brain just runs to dissociation for every little thing. oh our back hurts? time to check out. can you grow up and focus on the situation at hand
November 28, 2024 at 2:12 AM
my brain just runs to dissociation for every little thing. oh our back hurts? time to check out. can you grow up and focus on the situation at hand
I am out of my body and have been since last night
November 23, 2024 at 10:43 PM
I am out of my body and have been since last night
i've sworn off weed for a Long time now because it absolutely fucks me up but looking at how i responded to it last time just has me going huh... like the blacking out, the memories flooding back to me, etc. it's weird & i probably need to sort this out
November 22, 2024 at 2:53 AM
i've sworn off weed for a Long time now because it absolutely fucks me up but looking at how i responded to it last time just has me going huh... like the blacking out, the memories flooding back to me, etc. it's weird & i probably need to sort this out
random traumatic memories keep popping up & i'm realizing just how bad life was when i was a child & AHHHHHH STOP STOP STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!
November 22, 2024 at 2:22 AM
random traumatic memories keep popping up & i'm realizing just how bad life was when i was a child & AHHHHHH STOP STOP STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!
me posting where i am on twitter but remembering no one gaf
November 22, 2024 at 2:19 AM
me posting where i am on twitter but remembering no one gaf
i looove when I go to the discover page and someone's making an ableist joke about schizophrenic people. man shut the fuck up
November 22, 2024 at 12:03 AM
i looove when I go to the discover page and someone's making an ableist joke about schizophrenic people. man shut the fuck up
the way a tokyo ghoul ending song has become my main song for coping with cptsd
November 21, 2024 at 2:34 AM
the way a tokyo ghoul ending song has become my main song for coping with cptsd