Of course, it's better to be cured.
But if you place too much value on being cured, you will become unhappy in the present.
Since the past is folded into the present, I sometimes think that considering the present conditions as the default is an unbiased way of looking at things.

I suddenly realized that everything has changed so much that it's impossible to return to my original life or self

Rather than thinking about post-recovery wishes, I need to determine where to go from this point on

With the arrival of autumn, this realization became clear

Day 636

I'm trying my best to view the current situation as positively and optimistically as possible.

But that doesn't mean my body feels any better!! (I can say that with certainty)

When chatting (laughing) with healthy people, there are times when I suddenly feel like screaming.

I wish I could stop waking up in the middle of the night

Today, something strange happened. The lid on a hidden part of my heart came loose, and for a brief moment, I caught a glimpse of the me that I've been keeping hidden.

The me inside looked sad. I wondered if it was something I had done.

Hay fever is so annoying.

I remembered something strange that happened last year around this time. My low-grade fever subsided for about a week just when the pollen started to spread. I wondered why.

Yesterday, I felt unwell all day, probably due to the fatigue accumulated over the past week.

I slept relatively well last night, so I feel better this morning, except for the hay fever symptoms.

I am being asked to return to work almost full-time from April.

There are only two months left!

Two months may seem like a long time, but it will be no time at all for recovering from long Covid.

I have no choice but to do it, but I'm not confident. Activate the "Somehow it will be okay" spirit!

My experience with depression treatments:

SNRI ...... like lubricating a rattled, hard to work brain

rTMS...... like rustling off stubborn garbage stuck in the brain

Occupational Therapy ...... practice using your brain in a way that makes it feel good instead of making it labor

*In my case

I woke up
I'm going to laze in bed a little longer

i’m hungry