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· Feb 24
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hello. collective name is seph
don't expect much we mainly throw whatever is in our minds
we're also a system of ~10. we will throw things too system for main.
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hello. collective name is seph
don't expect much we mainly throw whatever is in our minds
we're also a system of ~10. we will throw things too system for main.
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i feel like i am going to go insane trying to talk to people n in groups n almost always getting ignored anyways it makes me feel like i'm not actually genuinely real and like im actually dead n haven't noticed n that's why no one's saying anything back
November 24, 2025 at 8:10 PM
i feel like i am going to go insane trying to talk to people n in groups n almost always getting ignored anyways it makes me feel like i'm not actually genuinely real and like im actually dead n haven't noticed n that's why no one's saying anything back
g&b chat is so awful half the time n full of people complaining n arguing over pointless things. so i like hitting them with a random food question like "do you guys fw brisket" & it instantly snaps them out of it
November 4, 2025 at 3:06 AM
g&b chat is so awful half the time n full of people complaining n arguing over pointless things. so i like hitting them with a random food question like "do you guys fw brisket" & it instantly snaps them out of it
scrolling back on some stuff we wrote in a priv server during a Shitty Period w/ Him a few yrs back n if none of the shit we wrote to ourselves wasn't an early sign of our plurality, then idk what is
October 20, 2025 at 10:19 AM
scrolling back on some stuff we wrote in a priv server during a Shitty Period w/ Him a few yrs back n if none of the shit we wrote to ourselves wasn't an early sign of our plurality, then idk what is
visit yesterday went well despite being so so stressed the entire day n now all i have to do is wait once more until the prescription's in our hands.., we're so fucking close
October 16, 2025 at 3:59 AM
visit yesterday went well despite being so so stressed the entire day n now all i have to do is wait once more until the prescription's in our hands.., we're so fucking close
coping rly hard w the 4 days until our clinic visit by obsessively searching up every little info n random people's hrt timelines as much as we can ( i am really anxious over 50 things )
October 10, 2025 at 10:36 AM
coping rly hard w the 4 days until our clinic visit by obsessively searching up every little info n random people's hrt timelines as much as we can ( i am really anxious over 50 things )
im so sick of having worsened memory
October 10, 2025 at 4:02 AM
im so sick of having worsened memory
when will i make friends who actually like me ( and aren't creeps ) ( and not weird ) ( and aren't willing to let me drown in a cold lake alone )
September 28, 2025 at 8:52 PM
when will i make friends who actually like me ( and aren't creeps ) ( and not weird ) ( and aren't willing to let me drown in a cold lake alone )
we were gonna play little nightmares 3 demo w our partner n was so confused n getting distressed abt why it kept suddenly disappearing whenever i tried to open it. i forgot my kamvas technically counts as a 2nd monitor
i'm never getting used to this shit
i'm never getting used to this shit
September 23, 2025 at 5:37 AM
we were gonna play little nightmares 3 demo w our partner n was so confused n getting distressed abt why it kept suddenly disappearing whenever i tried to open it. i forgot my kamvas technically counts as a 2nd monitor
i'm never getting used to this shit
i'm never getting used to this shit
i am in a dire need for beef veggie kebab in general actually
September 21, 2025 at 10:25 AM
i am in a dire need for beef veggie kebab in general actually
been thinking abt beef kebab with sichuan chili powder for like the past two weeks ever since we went to a bbq i miss her
September 21, 2025 at 9:00 AM
been thinking abt beef kebab with sichuan chili powder for like the past two weeks ever since we went to a bbq i miss her
i don't know if our ex still stalks our socials yrs later and we will continue w our usual anyway even if he still does. but if there's one last thing i can rub in his face, it's now being in a loving T4T relationship w our partner where we genuinely feel safe, personified, & respected.
September 14, 2025 at 8:31 AM
i don't know if our ex still stalks our socials yrs later and we will continue w our usual anyway even if he still does. but if there's one last thing i can rub in his face, it's now being in a loving T4T relationship w our partner where we genuinely feel safe, personified, & respected.
been frontstuck for so long and it's taking a toll on me but i cant do anything about it because i'm always needed n expected to be there for something
but no one else wants to front bc they're not comfortable talking around our friends yet but there's nowhere else to speak in
but no one else wants to front bc they're not comfortable talking around our friends yet but there's nowhere else to speak in
September 1, 2025 at 8:23 PM
been frontstuck for so long and it's taking a toll on me but i cant do anything about it because i'm always needed n expected to be there for something
but no one else wants to front bc they're not comfortable talking around our friends yet but there's nowhere else to speak in
but no one else wants to front bc they're not comfortable talking around our friends yet but there's nowhere else to speak in
we’re boutta see a whole wave of people putting “homestuck fans dni” on their strawpage
August 10, 2025 at 7:05 PM
we’re boutta see a whole wave of people putting “homestuck fans dni” on their strawpage
having some savings and calling it "emergency money" has kinda fucked us over because now we can't even define what an actual emergency counts as in the sense that we could be at risk of homelessness rn and we'd STILL think that's not enough good reason to dig into our savings
August 3, 2025 at 5:54 AM
having some savings and calling it "emergency money" has kinda fucked us over because now we can't even define what an actual emergency counts as in the sense that we could be at risk of homelessness rn and we'd STILL think that's not enough good reason to dig into our savings
we keep thinking abt reopening comms now that we're looking for something to properly replace this laptop for good since it's been degrading heavily this year.. but that'd mean setting up info and figuring out new prices n all that and we just can't be bothered
July 30, 2025 at 2:17 AM
we keep thinking abt reopening comms now that we're looking for something to properly replace this laptop for good since it's been degrading heavily this year.. but that'd mean setting up info and figuring out new prices n all that and we just can't be bothered
somewhat unrelated note though if you assume all of us are gonna be friendly bestie sunshine n rainbow headmates or that we are gonna act like our source we are going to fucking kill you sorry. i've already played these games before :broken_jeart:
July 14, 2025 at 7:09 AM
somewhat unrelated note though if you assume all of us are gonna be friendly bestie sunshine n rainbow headmates or that we are gonna act like our source we are going to fucking kill you sorry. i've already played these games before :broken_jeart:
everytime a popular post talking abt plurality or DID in general pops up n my tl, i have to restrain myself to not look at the post or even its replies bc then i'll get reminded abt why a lot of systems generally mask / hide n it makes me sad
July 14, 2025 at 6:59 AM
everytime a popular post talking abt plurality or DID in general pops up n my tl, i have to restrain myself to not look at the post or even its replies bc then i'll get reminded abt why a lot of systems generally mask / hide n it makes me sad
ive been a lot more irritated n pissed off lately i think that means it's time to leave front
July 13, 2025 at 6:47 AM
ive been a lot more irritated n pissed off lately i think that means it's time to leave front
who knew an oc that used to give us so much joy to talk about has now ended up giving us so much suffering and conflict internally even now. lol
July 1, 2025 at 9:00 AM
who knew an oc that used to give us so much joy to talk about has now ended up giving us so much suffering and conflict internally even now. lol
i never thought abt ranch was made of but i never expected it to just be sour cream n mayo
June 28, 2025 at 4:19 AM
i never thought abt ranch was made of but i never expected it to just be sour cream n mayo
i hate being frontstuck as the default front / host no matter how blurry everything gets, bc i just end up never giving anyone else time to front enough to talk to people or figure themselves out so they just end up going quiet for a long time
June 26, 2025 at 8:21 AM
i hate being frontstuck as the default front / host no matter how blurry everything gets, bc i just end up never giving anyone else time to front enough to talk to people or figure themselves out so they just end up going quiet for a long time
out of literally every single character to introject from after playing n replaying deltarune i did not expect it to just be a kris fuckin dreemur n nobody else
June 14, 2025 at 11:15 AM
out of literally every single character to introject from after playing n replaying deltarune i did not expect it to just be a kris fuckin dreemur n nobody else
"i can't tell if i'm new or this is just temporary so lets just do nothing to see if the feeling goes away"
"it's been 3 days now. why is that feeling still here"
"it's been 3 days now. why is that feeling still here"
June 8, 2025 at 9:48 AM
"i can't tell if i'm new or this is just temporary so lets just do nothing to see if the feeling goes away"
"it's been 3 days now. why is that feeling still here"
"it's been 3 days now. why is that feeling still here"
so alienated n unperceivable from everyone that don't even know if we're real anymore
June 4, 2025 at 4:33 AM
so alienated n unperceivable from everyone that don't even know if we're real anymore