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@exraei.bsky.social
xe/he/they • i post all the voices in my head • sometimes draws 🔞
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Need to change my outlook time to believe someone out there will say "I can fix him" when they see me fr fr
Are we even surprised that my sona still circles back to an emo dude with long hair I made in 2019
Raei would still be my mascot tho. I think I just find the comfort of a sona more grounded/based more on how I look irl, but I doubt I'll be drawing my self-insert much
Raei would still be my mascot tho. I think I just find the comfort of a sona more grounded/based more on how I look irl, but I doubt I'll be drawing my self-insert much
December 26, 2025 at 7:19 PM
Are we even surprised that my sona still circles back to an emo dude with long hair I made in 2019
Raei would still be my mascot tho. I think I just find the comfort of a sona more grounded/based more on how I look irl, but I doubt I'll be drawing my self-insert much
Raei would still be my mascot tho. I think I just find the comfort of a sona more grounded/based more on how I look irl, but I doubt I'll be drawing my self-insert much
As an asthmatic, my next fitness goal is to be able to jog to the entirety of Umapyoi Legend while matching the tempo.
Today I managed to get thru half of the entire song. It is inevitable.
Today I managed to get thru half of the entire song. It is inevitable.
December 26, 2025 at 8:32 AM
As an asthmatic, my next fitness goal is to be able to jog to the entirety of Umapyoi Legend while matching the tempo.
Today I managed to get thru half of the entire song. It is inevitable.
Today I managed to get thru half of the entire song. It is inevitable.
I got $200 from my parents for xmas 😂
Pocketing that for my cat's supplies for the next month or two
Pocketing that for my cat's supplies for the next month or two
December 26, 2025 at 12:39 AM
I got $200 from my parents for xmas 😂
Pocketing that for my cat's supplies for the next month or two
Pocketing that for my cat's supplies for the next month or two
Hunting for one shiny female chiko but they're all men
Guess I'll make one of them trans
Guess I'll make one of them trans
December 26, 2025 at 12:09 AM
Hunting for one shiny female chiko but they're all men
Guess I'll make one of them trans
Guess I'll make one of them trans
Pissed at the serebii mega crossword cuz a lot of it is too specific like "it has never appeared in a card before" and the answer is blue flower florges???????
December 24, 2025 at 9:17 PM
Pissed at the serebii mega crossword cuz a lot of it is too specific like "it has never appeared in a card before" and the answer is blue flower florges???????
Shiny hunting today ... So far I got 3 starly's and 2 charcadets 🧡🧡 my next hunt is treecko but I need to keep grinding for sweet berries
December 24, 2025 at 8:35 AM
Shiny hunting today ... So far I got 3 starly's and 2 charcadets 🧡🧡 my next hunt is treecko but I need to keep grinding for sweet berries
😭was anxious the whole day thinking about giving myself my T shots cuz I used to do gel packs and decided to switch to syringe due to money reasons... Even prep on the possible pain by poking a pen on my stomach 🥴🥴 turns out the actual thing didn't hurt at all I was anxious for nothing!!
December 23, 2025 at 12:00 PM
😭was anxious the whole day thinking about giving myself my T shots cuz I used to do gel packs and decided to switch to syringe due to money reasons... Even prep on the possible pain by poking a pen on my stomach 🥴🥴 turns out the actual thing didn't hurt at all I was anxious for nothing!!
wooohoo this adhd medication thing is awesome im actually getting shit done
December 23, 2025 at 5:31 AM
wooohoo this adhd medication thing is awesome im actually getting shit done
Too broke for a cat wheel, no space to put one either, so I made my cat walk 2 laps around the kitchen and she was knocked out for the rest of the night
December 22, 2025 at 6:50 PM
Too broke for a cat wheel, no space to put one either, so I made my cat walk 2 laps around the kitchen and she was knocked out for the rest of the night
Should I... Keep growing my heart or go for a different haircut in a couple months....
I like my hair, but part of me feels like I don't know how to style it the way I like anymore because it's gone too unruly 🥀
I like my hair, but part of me feels like I don't know how to style it the way I like anymore because it's gone too unruly 🥀
December 22, 2025 at 2:24 AM
Should I... Keep growing my heart or go for a different haircut in a couple months....
I like my hair, but part of me feels like I don't know how to style it the way I like anymore because it's gone too unruly 🥀
I like my hair, but part of me feels like I don't know how to style it the way I like anymore because it's gone too unruly 🥀
What a nice day to be a stego fan. I have 3 more yrs to save after saving for Nakayama festa
December 22, 2025 at 2:17 AM
What a nice day to be a stego fan. I have 3 more yrs to save after saving for Nakayama festa
Ok no making a new fallen angel OC wasn't enough. I still want the older sona back.
Which is gonna be a lil complicared cuz that sona feels ME me and not merely a "sona", but I like having Raei as my main mascot
Which is gonna be a lil complicared cuz that sona feels ME me and not merely a "sona", but I like having Raei as my main mascot
December 22, 2025 at 12:43 AM
Ok no making a new fallen angel OC wasn't enough. I still want the older sona back.
Which is gonna be a lil complicared cuz that sona feels ME me and not merely a "sona", but I like having Raei as my main mascot
Which is gonna be a lil complicared cuz that sona feels ME me and not merely a "sona", but I like having Raei as my main mascot
I was planning to bath my cat today but Ong she looks so cute and snug and warm sleeping on my unfixed bedsheets rn..... Do I dare bother the queen on her nap...
December 22, 2025 at 12:16 AM
I was planning to bath my cat today but Ong she looks so cute and snug and warm sleeping on my unfixed bedsheets rn..... Do I dare bother the queen on her nap...
WHAT IS STAY GOLD'S CASUAL OUTFIT ong she looks like an unc😭😭😭😭 never beating the deadbeat dad allegations 🥀🥀🥀
December 21, 2025 at 7:17 PM
WHAT IS STAY GOLD'S CASUAL OUTFIT ong she looks like an unc😭😭😭😭 never beating the deadbeat dad allegations 🥀🥀🥀
Ok Hmm ... Finally started my ADHD medication and I'm not sure if there's any difference yet besides the suppress appetite side effect
I do notice the many thoughts & bg mind noise seem quieter now 😳 fragments of music still play in my head but I def feel my mind isn't jumping everywhere today
I do notice the many thoughts & bg mind noise seem quieter now 😳 fragments of music still play in my head but I def feel my mind isn't jumping everywhere today
December 21, 2025 at 6:55 AM
Ok Hmm ... Finally started my ADHD medication and I'm not sure if there's any difference yet besides the suppress appetite side effect
I do notice the many thoughts & bg mind noise seem quieter now 😳 fragments of music still play in my head but I def feel my mind isn't jumping everywhere today
I do notice the many thoughts & bg mind noise seem quieter now 😳 fragments of music still play in my head but I def feel my mind isn't jumping everywhere today
As much as cygames try to really sell the game as a silly little dating sim my heart will always see the umamusume the same way pet owners see their pets: my child
Riko Kashimoto has my heart tho 😍😍
Riko Kashimoto has my heart tho 😍😍
December 21, 2025 at 6:37 AM
As much as cygames try to really sell the game as a silly little dating sim my heart will always see the umamusume the same way pet owners see their pets: my child
Riko Kashimoto has my heart tho 😍😍
Riko Kashimoto has my heart tho 😍😍
Ok well. I think some things haven't been easy for the past couple days and I'm surprised I haven't broke down yet
I know I will tonight tho!!
I know I will tonight tho!!
December 19, 2025 at 11:58 PM
Ok well. I think some things haven't been easy for the past couple days and I'm surprised I haven't broke down yet
I know I will tonight tho!!
I know I will tonight tho!!
In theory I would like to have partner to "queen out" with. But despite being afab and forced to be feminine my entire childhood I am like as dense and got rocks for brains like a typical cis dude. I say hell yeah and call everyone dude regardless of gender
December 19, 2025 at 11:12 PM
In theory I would like to have partner to "queen out" with. But despite being afab and forced to be feminine my entire childhood I am like as dense and got rocks for brains like a typical cis dude. I say hell yeah and call everyone dude regardless of gender
I should be taking a shower and go to sleep but brain decided it's picrew hours
December 19, 2025 at 10:02 AM
I should be taking a shower and go to sleep but brain decided it's picrew hours
OTL I drew them so pretty
December 19, 2025 at 8:02 AM
OTL I drew them so pretty
Tired and hungry shopping for gifts. The bus has a small leak and I'm sitting right below it. FML fr
December 18, 2025 at 11:03 PM
Tired and hungry shopping for gifts. The bus has a small leak and I'm sitting right below it. FML fr
Today on: what kind of Xmas gift should I get for my friends and why can't I find a single umamusume or hololive merch in any of these hobby stores!!!!
December 18, 2025 at 10:10 PM
Today on: what kind of Xmas gift should I get for my friends and why can't I find a single umamusume or hololive merch in any of these hobby stores!!!!
Technically I *should* be using nonbinary for myself but today I'm feeling very he/him guy that is comfortable saying I'm a trans man but I know by tomorrow or in 2 days I'm gonna start feeling like Just A Creature: I Do Not Identify With The Concept of Gender
December 18, 2025 at 9:16 PM
Technically I *should* be using nonbinary for myself but today I'm feeling very he/him guy that is comfortable saying I'm a trans man but I know by tomorrow or in 2 days I'm gonna start feeling like Just A Creature: I Do Not Identify With The Concept of Gender
When I want my hair to look like this but it means I gotta actually spend several minutes to style it while crying bc it's not fluffing up and be 30mins late to appointments
December 18, 2025 at 9:06 PM
When I want my hair to look like this but it means I gotta actually spend several minutes to style it while crying bc it's not fluffing up and be 30mins late to appointments
feeling conflicted rn... i wanna eat the leftovers from yesterday but i also want waffles😔i need to watch how much im eating considering ive been working out less properly these days cuz of the weather
December 18, 2025 at 3:37 AM
feeling conflicted rn... i wanna eat the leftovers from yesterday but i also want waffles😔i need to watch how much im eating considering ive been working out less properly these days cuz of the weather