no, yeah, i appreciate it, but it was a weird topic for dinner!

one day when i was 14 tops my father sat me down and said to me "carolina, today i paid for my cremation"

this has to have been made by a 15 year old

i miss my friends from uruguay with whom we had a very pleasant system of just dropping by and sitting independently from each other for hours in a very harmonious coexistence

i am not lonely and don't project romantic availability so everything takes a lot more effort!!!!

on one side some people approach or hang out because they think they're interested in you romantically and then they're not and become friends. on the other side if you feel a bit lonely you are more likely to go to places and meet people maybe you wouldn't have otherwise, and possibly make friends

all this to say for me rejecting the robot was not a big thought out decision but an instinct: i refuse the pathetic hand holding. i am smart and enjoy proving it. i cannot imagine not having this self preserving arrogance which multiple times in my life has kept me from this kind of shit

for me it's been a very sad development because i am a very social person and would love being there and hanging out and working together but this has become impossible. any question asked results in "let me ask chatgpt", every attempt at team work ends up being me + 3 human interfaces for an LLM

i complain about it incessantly and everyone finds me insufferable and a luddite; i am sometimes slower than them in completing certain tasks but i can confidently say that i can figure out most things on my own with some time and patience, and they simply cannot do that any more

sice i emigrated everyone suggests to me to start going to poetry stuff to replicate the social networks i had back home, but they fail to consider that poetry type communities are insufferable and i have plenty obnoxious poets in my life as it is (one: myself)

i'm hanging on to death cab for cutie which i think is way more embarrassing

i remember one time the 2 non playing friends of the group came to my place and i cast my screen to the tv so they could watch as they ate cake while we killed garrosh

i am also a pathological nostalgic (~depressive) and already in 2013 i was taking a new friend (level 4, account created ad hoc) on tours of northrend (via obsidian nightwing) to show him where i spent time with my friends the year before

world of warcraft in like 2010 - 2013 was an absolutely fundamental part of my life, i tear up listening to the soundtrack of wotlk and i can tear up seeing a shitty screenshot of like borean tundra

when i talk about it to people who never played i always end up talking about it in precisely those terms: a place

this looks awesome