YES YOU WORE IT

(Neurotoxins = botox, which I wanted. I hate how grumpy I'm aging, and I kind of wonder if I'll be happier if I can't scrunch my forehead the same way that beta blockers prevent anxiety because my body can't get worked up.)

Rapists have less room to maneuver in a society that doesn't tolerate violence, including rape, in the first place.

We are. Do we want to be like them? I care about what kind of person I want to be, about what I put into the world.

Also you should find a way to get me some contact info so we can chat! And also I can send you wee beastie pictures >.>

YES that is smart. There's a little coop preschool right near me that's tempting precisely because of the community vibe.

I could do worse, I'm sure!

I should probably also tell you about how they grab my face and nuzzle me with their cheek, or how they were learning how to go "awwwww" at the cats tonight and followed them around the living room, cooing softly and trying to pet them as gently as they could while also being really excited

There's a lot of bad stuff in the world, and the twos ARE terrible, just, so much stuff to be frustrated and angered by when you're small and don't understand things or have like. Executive function. But the wee beastie's base temperament still seems to be joyful, and their instincts, kind.

Above and beyond the fact that our kid is. uh. Jewish.

My spouse is the child of a minister, and said minister routinely deplores the plague that is "church people", which probably says enough.

There are so many ways that this whole hideous mess is entirely banal and predictable. This is just how wealthy and powerful men have been abusing the world forever, corrupt and petty and sad in their violence.

And then there's this email and it's just. How. What. What. What am I even reading.