✨Tia✨
@emotionvalve.bsky.social
29 years old
real-life zombie
very nsfw
real-life zombie
very nsfw
wow anxiety sure is uncomfortable when you stop constantly dissociating
September 13, 2025 at 1:33 PM
wow anxiety sure is uncomfortable when you stop constantly dissociating
it's entirely possible that I truly do have multiple personalities to some degree at least. maybe it's just fueled by weed but in some circumstances it does feel like I'm fighting an actual full mind in my head. it may have something to do with me dissociating from my thoughts since childhood
September 10, 2025 at 7:48 PM
it's entirely possible that I truly do have multiple personalities to some degree at least. maybe it's just fueled by weed but in some circumstances it does feel like I'm fighting an actual full mind in my head. it may have something to do with me dissociating from my thoughts since childhood
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Am I happy? No. But am I living a meaningful life? Also no
September 8, 2025 at 6:44 PM
Am I happy? No. But am I living a meaningful life? Also no
you know, I have a vague memory of when I was getting on anti-anxiety meds that as I started to increase the dosages I felt *worse* in some way. and I dont really remember exactly how but I wonder if it was that I was reaching some threshold where the anxiety was low enough for me to dissociate less
August 29, 2025 at 7:00 AM
you know, I have a vague memory of when I was getting on anti-anxiety meds that as I started to increase the dosages I felt *worse* in some way. and I dont really remember exactly how but I wonder if it was that I was reaching some threshold where the anxiety was low enough for me to dissociate less
an incredibly weed-fueled, and most likely (based on my limited technical understanding of how LLMs work) untrue conspiracy theory, but one that amuses me (and lowkey is kinda fueling my anxiety disorder rn) enough to share nonetheless:
August 29, 2025 at 5:34 AM
an incredibly weed-fueled, and most likely (based on my limited technical understanding of how LLMs work) untrue conspiracy theory, but one that amuses me (and lowkey is kinda fueling my anxiety disorder rn) enough to share nonetheless:
dimming embers fall on oil
but no fire is lit
they waited too long
but no fire is lit
they waited too long
August 24, 2025 at 11:17 AM
dimming embers fall on oil
but no fire is lit
they waited too long
but no fire is lit
they waited too long
you know your hypochondria is bad when you get scared to relax because you're worried that if you relax that you'll somehow will your heart into stopping by accident or leave yourself vulnerable to be surprised by a heart attack or stroke or something and not be ready to deal with it. LMAO
August 23, 2025 at 1:19 AM
you know your hypochondria is bad when you get scared to relax because you're worried that if you relax that you'll somehow will your heart into stopping by accident or leave yourself vulnerable to be surprised by a heart attack or stroke or something and not be ready to deal with it. LMAO
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Man, we as a country have a lot to reckon with but one thing I'd like to nominate is how a bunch of people lost control of mental illnesses they barely had under control in 2020 and now it's all of our problems
August 20, 2025 at 7:44 PM
Man, we as a country have a lot to reckon with but one thing I'd like to nominate is how a bunch of people lost control of mental illnesses they barely had under control in 2020 and now it's all of our problems
though in this moment I do feel like paranoia is just an extension of anxiety and that would perhaps just make schizophrenia an extension of paranoia when it gets so extreme that a person is overwhelmed with those delusions and cannot cope with them or can't regulate them. I should've done psych lol
August 19, 2025 at 4:08 AM
though in this moment I do feel like paranoia is just an extension of anxiety and that would perhaps just make schizophrenia an extension of paranoia when it gets so extreme that a person is overwhelmed with those delusions and cannot cope with them or can't regulate them. I should've done psych lol
in my defense I am very high, so you know. plausible deniability on being completely schizophrenic
August 19, 2025 at 4:06 AM
in my defense I am very high, so you know. plausible deniability on being completely schizophrenic
I wonder how many of my followers are like agents cuz I've been posting like such a crazy person that I've become a person of interest. probably just me being delusionally paranoid while high but whatever, it's fun to let the thoughts out for once in my fucking life lmaoo
August 19, 2025 at 4:03 AM
I wonder how many of my followers are like agents cuz I've been posting like such a crazy person that I've become a person of interest. probably just me being delusionally paranoid while high but whatever, it's fun to let the thoughts out for once in my fucking life lmaoo
I'm afraid the other part of me wants to go so deep into denial to not even acknowledge that there is a reality where I can feel present and ok because that requires confronting death and all of that and I just can't fucking do it without a lot of fucking help and meds feel so arduous to get rn and
August 19, 2025 at 4:01 AM
I'm afraid the other part of me wants to go so deep into denial to not even acknowledge that there is a reality where I can feel present and ok because that requires confronting death and all of that and I just can't fucking do it without a lot of fucking help and meds feel so arduous to get rn and
when it comes down to it, I feel like my mental health issues can all be summed up in a cliche but also really fucking painful realization. I never learned to cope with the idea of death except by shoving it down and trying not to think about it, and that became a black hole that absorbed all of me
August 19, 2025 at 3:56 AM
when it comes down to it, I feel like my mental health issues can all be summed up in a cliche but also really fucking painful realization. I never learned to cope with the idea of death except by shoving it down and trying not to think about it, and that became a black hole that absorbed all of me
from the moment I was born I have been alone
behind the walls and masks I am unseen
should I die in my sleep my existence will have never been
dreaming of a savior that can only be a goddess
behind the walls and masks I am unseen
should I die in my sleep my existence will have never been
dreaming of a savior that can only be a goddess
August 16, 2025 at 7:15 AM
from the moment I was born I have been alone
behind the walls and masks I am unseen
should I die in my sleep my existence will have never been
dreaming of a savior that can only be a goddess
behind the walls and masks I am unseen
should I die in my sleep my existence will have never been
dreaming of a savior that can only be a goddess
every time I feel like the dissociative haze is lifting I see only the overwhelming emptiness of existence, the utter loneliness and a life composed solely of regrets and I can't imagine a day where it's something I can actually bear without hiding again. and yet it's happening more and more often
August 16, 2025 at 6:45 AM
every time I feel like the dissociative haze is lifting I see only the overwhelming emptiness of existence, the utter loneliness and a life composed solely of regrets and I can't imagine a day where it's something I can actually bear without hiding again. and yet it's happening more and more often
gender is a performance but I've always had stage fright
Gender is a performance so I'm organizing the production staff
Moreover, ICE must be destroyed
Moreover, ICE must be destroyed
gender is a performance and i'm out here doing improv prop comedy
August 6, 2025 at 6:55 PM
gender is a performance but I've always had stage fright
you know, I think the whole trying to put an objective biological marker on emotional or mental maturity (like the whole brain developing @ 25 yrs old thing) is inherently flawed, because there really is no such thing as "full" emotional maturity, just a point at which you stop bothering to mature
August 1, 2025 at 3:49 AM
you know, I think the whole trying to put an objective biological marker on emotional or mental maturity (like the whole brain developing @ 25 yrs old thing) is inherently flawed, because there really is no such thing as "full" emotional maturity, just a point at which you stop bothering to mature
I wonder if any VPN companies are quietly supporting these porn ID laws, would be the perfect conspiracy to get them more business dodging them
July 25, 2025 at 11:49 PM
I wonder if any VPN companies are quietly supporting these porn ID laws, would be the perfect conspiracy to get them more business dodging them
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Sometimes it does get lonely feeling like you have no person you can trust or any close connections in general even with your family or friends and it’s all bc of paranoia and trauma
July 22, 2025 at 4:45 PM
Sometimes it does get lonely feeling like you have no person you can trust or any close connections in general even with your family or friends and it’s all bc of paranoia and trauma
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A 207 meter tall elf~
I say that's pretty big, hehe~ 💙
But let's get her even bigger, shall we? 🙏
#SizeSky #giantess #elf #sizedifference #sfwgt
I say that's pretty big, hehe~ 💙
But let's get her even bigger, shall we? 🙏
#SizeSky #giantess #elf #sizedifference #sfwgt
July 19, 2025 at 5:58 PM
A 207 meter tall elf~
I say that's pretty big, hehe~ 💙
But let's get her even bigger, shall we? 🙏
#SizeSky #giantess #elf #sizedifference #sfwgt
I say that's pretty big, hehe~ 💙
But let's get her even bigger, shall we? 🙏
#SizeSky #giantess #elf #sizedifference #sfwgt
finally told my boss it ain't working out and I need to negotiate my separation let's see how this shit goes
June 16, 2025 at 7:27 PM
finally told my boss it ain't working out and I need to negotiate my separation let's see how this shit goes
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i think ill just commit to dissociating for the rest of my life. I dont think I have the strength to actually deal with my problems
June 4, 2025 at 6:42 PM
i think ill just commit to dissociating for the rest of my life. I dont think I have the strength to actually deal with my problems