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Elezen and Tiefling enthusiast - Confused New Transfemme - she/her 🏳️⚧️
🧝🏿♀️ Estelle Auberlaint (Balmung) - FFXIV
Steam/Discord - Private, DM me
WARNING: Giant history nerd, will talk for hours about obscure WWII officers.
🧝🏿♀️ Estelle Auberlaint (Balmung) - FFXIV
Steam/Discord - Private, DM me
WARNING: Giant history nerd, will talk for hours about obscure WWII officers.
I can't really add much, besides that you made this world just a little bit brighter with all that you did. Sending you all the love.
November 17, 2025 at 5:22 AM
I can't really add much, besides that you made this world just a little bit brighter with all that you did. Sending you all the love.
yayyyyyyyyyyyy
September 6, 2025 at 6:10 AM
yayyyyyyyyyyyy
extra-extra note: I still can't really fill out most tops like I'd like. But after a couple of months of very little happening, my boobs suddenly jumped in size by, like, a third over ~4 days. Which is cool, but I am getting to the point that I should probably wear a bra. Gender-affirming annoyance!
September 4, 2025 at 7:42 AM
extra-extra note: I still can't really fill out most tops like I'd like. But after a couple of months of very little happening, my boobs suddenly jumped in size by, like, a third over ~4 days. Which is cool, but I am getting to the point that I should probably wear a bra. Gender-affirming annoyance!
extra notes: HRT has also made my shoe size drop by ~0.5 sizes. Which is good, because I can get "normal" women's shoes now.
I really like this whole outfit. The flared shorts are cute (and help offset my lack of hips), the stockings are A+, and those red flats add a bit of flair.
tummy mole good.
I really like this whole outfit. The flared shorts are cute (and help offset my lack of hips), the stockings are A+, and those red flats add a bit of flair.
tummy mole good.
September 4, 2025 at 7:34 AM
extra notes: HRT has also made my shoe size drop by ~0.5 sizes. Which is good, because I can get "normal" women's shoes now.
I really like this whole outfit. The flared shorts are cute (and help offset my lack of hips), the stockings are A+, and those red flats add a bit of flair.
tummy mole good.
I really like this whole outfit. The flared shorts are cute (and help offset my lack of hips), the stockings are A+, and those red flats add a bit of flair.
tummy mole good.
It was kind of like a really annoying background noise had suddenly been silenced. A feeling of everything being nicer, calmer, more correct. Like my body and soul were finally starting to line up a bit. It was just an amazing moment, all from EV making my thighs a bit squeezable. :D
September 4, 2025 at 7:28 AM
It was kind of like a really annoying background noise had suddenly been silenced. A feeling of everything being nicer, calmer, more correct. Like my body and soul were finally starting to line up a bit. It was just an amazing moment, all from EV making my thighs a bit squeezable. :D
I never really thought I had that much physical/body dysphoria: the reason I started transitioning is because my brain HATES T.
Which made it fun when I was trying these on and "huh, my skin is really kinda nice, and when did my thighs have this little bit of jiggle and squeeze to them?"
Which made it fun when I was trying these on and "huh, my skin is really kinda nice, and when did my thighs have this little bit of jiggle and squeeze to them?"
September 4, 2025 at 7:22 AM
I never really thought I had that much physical/body dysphoria: the reason I started transitioning is because my brain HATES T.
Which made it fun when I was trying these on and "huh, my skin is really kinda nice, and when did my thighs have this little bit of jiggle and squeeze to them?"
Which made it fun when I was trying these on and "huh, my skin is really kinda nice, and when did my thighs have this little bit of jiggle and squeeze to them?"
So basically everything kind of sucked for several months, and I'm omitting a few bonus bits of crap. But hey, I'm still alive. And, honestly, if the same shit had happened while I was still hiding in my shell, I'm almost positive I'd have taken myself out, so that's an improvement!
September 4, 2025 at 7:14 AM
So basically everything kind of sucked for several months, and I'm omitting a few bonus bits of crap. But hey, I'm still alive. And, honestly, if the same shit had happened while I was still hiding in my shell, I'm almost positive I'd have taken myself out, so that's an improvement!
It took a few months, but I think my body has caught up to where it was before that mess. And, after a rather annoying job search, I got an offer just yesterday! It's only part time retail but, well, gotta (re)start somewhere...
September 4, 2025 at 7:12 AM
It took a few months, but I think my body has caught up to where it was before that mess. And, after a rather annoying job search, I got an offer just yesterday! It's only part time retail but, well, gotta (re)start somewhere...
I did eventually recover, though thanks to that team lead I was annoyingly unemployed. And the hospital really really really didn't want to give me my HRT meds (or Effexor), and I lost like 25 pounds while I was sick. This basically undid everything that hormones had done to that point. My boobs :(
September 4, 2025 at 7:10 AM
I did eventually recover, though thanks to that team lead I was annoyingly unemployed. And the hospital really really really didn't want to give me my HRT meds (or Effexor), and I lost like 25 pounds while I was sick. This basically undid everything that hormones had done to that point. My boobs :(
Because things were going too well, I managed to catch pneumonia in May. Like, extremely bad pneumonia. It wound up being two weeks in the hospital, with the pulmonologist noting that if I'd waited another day I would probably have died. Oh, and my team lead at work didn't inform management.
September 4, 2025 at 7:07 AM
Because things were going too well, I managed to catch pneumonia in May. Like, extremely bad pneumonia. It wound up being two weeks in the hospital, with the pulmonologist noting that if I'd waited another day I would probably have died. Oh, and my team lead at work didn't inform management.
Not that I'm disagreeing with your general statement, the national DNC isn't going to do anything useful. I just want to keep that little sliver of hope that at least some places are going to be okay.
...I've been out and on HRT for a month, so I'm probably just naive, aren't I?
...I've been out and on HRT for a month, so I'm probably just naive, aren't I?
December 11, 2024 at 10:34 AM
Not that I'm disagreeing with your general statement, the national DNC isn't going to do anything useful. I just want to keep that little sliver of hope that at least some places are going to be okay.
...I've been out and on HRT for a month, so I'm probably just naive, aren't I?
...I've been out and on HRT for a month, so I'm probably just naive, aren't I?
National dems are useless, but fwiw, at least some state-level politicians (I know IL and WA at least) actually seem to be doing shit. I'm so incredibly glad to live five minutes from IL (and I'm moving there in the next few months) just because Governor Pritzker seems to take trans stuff seriously.
December 11, 2024 at 10:32 AM
National dems are useless, but fwiw, at least some state-level politicians (I know IL and WA at least) actually seem to be doing shit. I'm so incredibly glad to live five minutes from IL (and I'm moving there in the next few months) just because Governor Pritzker seems to take trans stuff seriously.
And it sucks! Like, fuck, for all our political disagreements and such, I still love my mom. And she's old, not in great health, and I'm afraid that she's going to sever and never get to see me as an actual happy, fulfilled person because of Greg Gutfield or something.
December 11, 2024 at 10:29 AM
And it sucks! Like, fuck, for all our political disagreements and such, I still love my mom. And she's old, not in great health, and I'm afraid that she's going to sever and never get to see me as an actual happy, fulfilled person because of Greg Gutfield or something.
So, I started coming out as trans on...Election Day, go figure. And while the vast majority of my siblings, friends, even co-workers and FB randos have been really supportive of me, I'm pretty sure I'll never get my parents on board because mom is Fox Poisoned and dad is all gun nut websites.
December 11, 2024 at 10:27 AM
So, I started coming out as trans on...Election Day, go figure. And while the vast majority of my siblings, friends, even co-workers and FB randos have been really supportive of me, I'm pretty sure I'll never get my parents on board because mom is Fox Poisoned and dad is all gun nut websites.
and as long as we're going fuck it we ball, here's proof that I do exist (and really need to figure out my hair, dear god)
December 11, 2024 at 7:35 AM
and as long as we're going fuck it we ball, here's proof that I do exist (and really need to figure out my hair, dear god)
That's funny, I already have...booblets? A bosom watch? after, like, a month on HRT. I punched myself in one of them getting in my car, that HURT.
That's not even touching on the psychological side, which has been a new dawn for me.
That's not even touching on the psychological side, which has been a new dawn for me.
December 11, 2024 at 7:32 AM
That's funny, I already have...booblets? A bosom watch? after, like, a month on HRT. I punched myself in one of them getting in my car, that HURT.
That's not even touching on the psychological side, which has been a new dawn for me.
That's not even touching on the psychological side, which has been a new dawn for me.
Ha, I already have a paranoid streak so it's kind of hard for me to *not* see a violent transphobe in everyone.
...except, oddly enough, that's gotten way better since I came out and put my little trans pride pin on my work uniform and actually have some reason to be nervous. Go figure.
...except, oddly enough, that's gotten way better since I came out and put my little trans pride pin on my work uniform and actually have some reason to be nervous. Go figure.
December 11, 2024 at 7:30 AM
Ha, I already have a paranoid streak so it's kind of hard for me to *not* see a violent transphobe in everyone.
...except, oddly enough, that's gotten way better since I came out and put my little trans pride pin on my work uniform and actually have some reason to be nervous. Go figure.
...except, oddly enough, that's gotten way better since I came out and put my little trans pride pin on my work uniform and actually have some reason to be nervous. Go figure.
I'm pretty newly-cracked, have gotten love and support from 95% of the people I've come out too...and I still get that feeling quite a bit more than I'd like.
And why does fate always loop around like that, anyways?
And why does fate always loop around like that, anyways?
December 10, 2024 at 6:46 AM
I'm pretty newly-cracked, have gotten love and support from 95% of the people I've come out too...and I still get that feeling quite a bit more than I'd like.
And why does fate always loop around like that, anyways?
And why does fate always loop around like that, anyways?
After that, things progressed incredibly fast. I Started coming out on Election Day (lol), started DIY HRT, found a support group, got a therapist I work great with, got a proper HRT source, reconnected to friends I'd lost to dysphoria and depression, made a few new friends at work...yeah, busy.
December 10, 2024 at 6:06 AM
After that, things progressed incredibly fast. I Started coming out on Election Day (lol), started DIY HRT, found a support group, got a therapist I work great with, got a proper HRT source, reconnected to friends I'd lost to dysphoria and depression, made a few new friends at work...yeah, busy.
Part of that memory was, well, 2006. I'd silenced that part of my mind through, uh, alcohol abuse and some moderate brain damage...but those were gone. I had to finally, finally acknowledge what I really am, US politics be damned.
Transwoman. Transfemme. Evil Child Corrupter. Take your pick.
Transwoman. Transfemme. Evil Child Corrupter. Take your pick.
December 10, 2024 at 6:04 AM
Part of that memory was, well, 2006. I'd silenced that part of my mind through, uh, alcohol abuse and some moderate brain damage...but those were gone. I had to finally, finally acknowledge what I really am, US politics be damned.
Transwoman. Transfemme. Evil Child Corrupter. Take your pick.
Transwoman. Transfemme. Evil Child Corrupter. Take your pick.
Long story short, I played BG3 earlier this year, and something about the Dark Urge quest made me want to Do Better. This led to eating better and ADs and lion's mane, with the latter bringing huge chunks of "lost" memories coming back into my mind. It was almost traumatic!
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December 10, 2024 at 6:01 AM
Long story short, I played BG3 earlier this year, and something about the Dark Urge quest made me want to Do Better. This led to eating better and ADs and lion's mane, with the latter bringing huge chunks of "lost" memories coming back into my mind. It was almost traumatic!
4/?
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