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♡ diagnosed anxiety and depression.
— my outlet for poetic musings, mental health reflections, and overall ramblings about the world; and all that exists in it.
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♡ diagnosed anxiety and depression.
— my outlet for poetic musings, mental health reflections, and overall ramblings about the world; and all that exists in it.
warm welcome! ♡
i actually read some of my old threads on this account and i can’t believe i felt like that! and i wrote them only 2 months ago! i can’t believe it’s the same person. i should do a life update.
about what i said about “finding belonging in people”—
about what i said about “finding belonging in people”—
August 19, 2025 at 7:58 PM
i actually read some of my old threads on this account and i can’t believe i felt like that! and i wrote them only 2 months ago! i can’t believe it’s the same person. i should do a life update.
about what i said about “finding belonging in people”—
about what i said about “finding belonging in people”—
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no, i really don’t think you’d known
what once was is forever gone
and i have reclaimed my throne
while you’re doomed to be alone
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.💍 . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.
no, i really don’t think you’d known
what once was is forever gone
and i have reclaimed my throne
while you’re doomed to be alone
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.💍 . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.
August 19, 2025 at 7:40 PM
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.👑 . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.
no, i really don’t think you’d known
what once was is forever gone
and i have reclaimed my throne
while you’re doomed to be alone
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.💍 . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.
no, i really don’t think you’d known
what once was is forever gone
and i have reclaimed my throne
while you’re doomed to be alone
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.💍 . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.
i used to love fall 🍂
it’s true. i dreaded summer. while listening to the self-proclaimed king of the fall i would save and reblog pictures of orange forests on tumblr. it wasn’t until i got a sweet taste of summer that i started dreading the arrival of fall, like now…
it’s true. i dreaded summer. while listening to the self-proclaimed king of the fall i would save and reblog pictures of orange forests on tumblr. it wasn’t until i got a sweet taste of summer that i started dreading the arrival of fall, like now…
August 19, 2025 at 7:37 PM
i used to love fall 🍂
it’s true. i dreaded summer. while listening to the self-proclaimed king of the fall i would save and reblog pictures of orange forests on tumblr. it wasn’t until i got a sweet taste of summer that i started dreading the arrival of fall, like now…
it’s true. i dreaded summer. while listening to the self-proclaimed king of the fall i would save and reblog pictures of orange forests on tumblr. it wasn’t until i got a sweet taste of summer that i started dreading the arrival of fall, like now…
im in general very skeptical of people who try to weasel themselves into my friend GROUP these are people i have known since i was a kid its just so odddd man im a very protective person and i feel easily put off
August 3, 2025 at 10:25 PM
im in general very skeptical of people who try to weasel themselves into my friend GROUP these are people i have known since i was a kid its just so odddd man im a very protective person and i feel easily put off
a quick update and some thoughts
for the first half of the summer i was really into dating, but to this day i still don’t understand just why. maybe i just liked the attention. then i went away, and away again, and again, and now i’m too preoccupied with my studies to care—
for the first half of the summer i was really into dating, but to this day i still don’t understand just why. maybe i just liked the attention. then i went away, and away again, and again, and now i’m too preoccupied with my studies to care—
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July 30, 2025 at 9:21 PM
a quick update and some thoughts
for the first half of the summer i was really into dating, but to this day i still don’t understand just why. maybe i just liked the attention. then i went away, and away again, and again, and now i’m too preoccupied with my studies to care—
for the first half of the summer i was really into dating, but to this day i still don’t understand just why. maybe i just liked the attention. then i went away, and away again, and again, and now i’m too preoccupied with my studies to care—
i accomplished some things despite my mental health, it wouldn’t have been possible before, sertraline friends and family i thank you so much. world is so kind and hugs me
July 17, 2025 at 10:04 PM
i accomplished some things despite my mental health, it wouldn’t have been possible before, sertraline friends and family i thank you so much. world is so kind and hugs me
i did the unthinkable, although it took me some years… i finished the task, and the day came much sooner than i thought. it’s done. it’s finished. all that’s left is a seminar. and then, i can say, i’ve done and finished it. 1/
July 17, 2025 at 10:03 PM
i did the unthinkable, although it took me some years… i finished the task, and the day came much sooner than i thought. it’s done. it’s finished. all that’s left is a seminar. and then, i can say, i’ve done and finished it. 1/
my paternal grandmother was born in the 1920s and she received the name which is hard to translate but something along the lines of unwanted/God forbid.
she was born during an era where sons were greatly preferred, because of the strong patriarchal structures in villages back then—
she was born during an era where sons were greatly preferred, because of the strong patriarchal structures in villages back then—
June 30, 2025 at 8:59 AM
my paternal grandmother was born in the 1920s and she received the name which is hard to translate but something along the lines of unwanted/God forbid.
she was born during an era where sons were greatly preferred, because of the strong patriarchal structures in villages back then—
she was born during an era where sons were greatly preferred, because of the strong patriarchal structures in villages back then—
in this city where briefly touched love
strolled around kungsholmen and i walked the entire götgatan; i took the bus to the middle of south, i took the bus to the north of town. shoulders briefly nudged against each others, and i thought it was my chance now,
strolled around kungsholmen and i walked the entire götgatan; i took the bus to the middle of south, i took the bus to the north of town. shoulders briefly nudged against each others, and i thought it was my chance now,
June 29, 2025 at 7:58 PM
in this city where briefly touched love
strolled around kungsholmen and i walked the entire götgatan; i took the bus to the middle of south, i took the bus to the north of town. shoulders briefly nudged against each others, and i thought it was my chance now,
strolled around kungsholmen and i walked the entire götgatan; i took the bus to the middle of south, i took the bus to the north of town. shoulders briefly nudged against each others, and i thought it was my chance now,
i envy people when i shouldn’t because i know everyone’s got their own flaws, but it’s impossible not to, especially when i feel like i’ve accomplished nothing during my three years at uni. not even a degree. and besides that, i envy people who have found their belonging in form of people.
June 15, 2025 at 10:41 PM
i envy people when i shouldn’t because i know everyone’s got their own flaws, but it’s impossible not to, especially when i feel like i’ve accomplished nothing during my three years at uni. not even a degree. and besides that, i envy people who have found their belonging in form of people.
it’s like this town is its own world. the sky closes in on me and i can slowly feel myself withering away. i must get out of here; this town isn’t what it used to be. as lovely as the hues in the sky are, the sight alone can’t fill the void in my chest. i must get out of here, out of here…
June 7, 2025 at 8:02 PM
it’s like this town is its own world. the sky closes in on me and i can slowly feel myself withering away. i must get out of here; this town isn’t what it used to be. as lovely as the hues in the sky are, the sight alone can’t fill the void in my chest. i must get out of here, out of here…
all that could’ve been
if you’d let me
if you’d give us a chance
all we could’ve been
if you’d just felt it
if you’d just embraced it
if you’d let me
if you’d give us a chance
all we could’ve been
if you’d just felt it
if you’d just embraced it
June 5, 2025 at 9:37 PM
all that could’ve been
if you’d let me
if you’d give us a chance
all we could’ve been
if you’d just felt it
if you’d just embraced it
if you’d let me
if you’d give us a chance
all we could’ve been
if you’d just felt it
if you’d just embraced it
i can tell when someone is a shallow being with no sense of self. the things i like and the way i do things, have meaning to ME. the books i read, the music and anime i like, the way i simply live… mimicking my lifestyle won’t save you from your lack of self.
May 29, 2025 at 4:25 PM
i can tell when someone is a shallow being with no sense of self. the things i like and the way i do things, have meaning to ME. the books i read, the music and anime i like, the way i simply live… mimicking my lifestyle won’t save you from your lack of self.
u don’t wanna go down the same route again
i read on my broken iphone screen
i get it
you don’t wanna go through the same route again
that’s why you message me first so much
your speciality is leading me on and
i am starting to hate you
i read on my broken iphone screen
i get it
you don’t wanna go through the same route again
that’s why you message me first so much
your speciality is leading me on and
i am starting to hate you
May 23, 2025 at 10:22 PM
u don’t wanna go down the same route again
i read on my broken iphone screen
i get it
you don’t wanna go through the same route again
that’s why you message me first so much
your speciality is leading me on and
i am starting to hate you
i read on my broken iphone screen
i get it
you don’t wanna go through the same route again
that’s why you message me first so much
your speciality is leading me on and
i am starting to hate you
childhood blues
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like a heavy cloud on a rainy day
always the fool in someone’s play
yet who was i to ever say
that i could be a sunshine ray
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ 🌙 ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.
like a heavy cloud on a rainy day
always the fool in someone’s play
yet who was i to ever say
that i could be a sunshine ray
May 22, 2025 at 10:46 PM
childhood blues
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ 🌙 ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.
like a heavy cloud on a rainy day
always the fool in someone’s play
yet who was i to ever say
that i could be a sunshine ray
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ 🌙 ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.
like a heavy cloud on a rainy day
always the fool in someone’s play
yet who was i to ever say
that i could be a sunshine ray
im actually a devil on my period
May 22, 2025 at 8:02 PM
im actually a devil on my period
men think they can speak to me however they like! if ur not gonna dm me to worship me then get off my dms i don’t have time for this
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May 22, 2025 at 4:43 PM
men think they can speak to me however they like! if ur not gonna dm me to worship me then get off my dms i don’t have time for this
sign of life
the hallway connects the living room and my room on opposite sides. a few hours ago i didn’t mind my door being open while i took a nap as i didn’t mind the noise. i actually cherished it; sounds from the tv and my brothers reels-scrolling. it just felt so lively.
the hallway connects the living room and my room on opposite sides. a few hours ago i didn’t mind my door being open while i took a nap as i didn’t mind the noise. i actually cherished it; sounds from the tv and my brothers reels-scrolling. it just felt so lively.
May 18, 2025 at 3:14 PM
sign of life
the hallway connects the living room and my room on opposite sides. a few hours ago i didn’t mind my door being open while i took a nap as i didn’t mind the noise. i actually cherished it; sounds from the tv and my brothers reels-scrolling. it just felt so lively.
the hallway connects the living room and my room on opposite sides. a few hours ago i didn’t mind my door being open while i took a nap as i didn’t mind the noise. i actually cherished it; sounds from the tv and my brothers reels-scrolling. it just felt so lively.
neither light nor dark,
neither home nor away,
neither belonging nor estranged.
i find myself in the painful blurs between contrasts. i find myself with one leg in each direction; to the north, and to the east, and i am defined by standards don’t fit me, and standards that could.
neither home nor away,
neither belonging nor estranged.
i find myself in the painful blurs between contrasts. i find myself with one leg in each direction; to the north, and to the east, and i am defined by standards don’t fit me, and standards that could.
May 16, 2025 at 10:12 AM
neither light nor dark,
neither home nor away,
neither belonging nor estranged.
i find myself in the painful blurs between contrasts. i find myself with one leg in each direction; to the north, and to the east, and i am defined by standards don’t fit me, and standards that could.
neither home nor away,
neither belonging nor estranged.
i find myself in the painful blurs between contrasts. i find myself with one leg in each direction; to the north, and to the east, and i am defined by standards don’t fit me, and standards that could.
my rawest thoughts. may not be sane. but i don’t want to subdue my feelings even more on this matter
i feel like even after i’ve set clear boundaries to leave me alone some start picking up my interests which makes me uncomfortable to be frank. is that irrational? probably.—
i feel like even after i’ve set clear boundaries to leave me alone some start picking up my interests which makes me uncomfortable to be frank. is that irrational? probably.—
May 9, 2025 at 9:11 AM
my rawest thoughts. may not be sane. but i don’t want to subdue my feelings even more on this matter
i feel like even after i’ve set clear boundaries to leave me alone some start picking up my interests which makes me uncomfortable to be frank. is that irrational? probably.—
i feel like even after i’ve set clear boundaries to leave me alone some start picking up my interests which makes me uncomfortable to be frank. is that irrational? probably.—
i talked about how difficult it is for me to allow myself to rest after being productive for a long time, with the counsellor
i feel guilty, hopeless, stressed. and it stems from my childhood. because my parents never liked it… they wanted me to be doing something, always—
i feel guilty, hopeless, stressed. and it stems from my childhood. because my parents never liked it… they wanted me to be doing something, always—
May 7, 2025 at 6:01 PM
i talked about how difficult it is for me to allow myself to rest after being productive for a long time, with the counsellor
i feel guilty, hopeless, stressed. and it stems from my childhood. because my parents never liked it… they wanted me to be doing something, always—
i feel guilty, hopeless, stressed. and it stems from my childhood. because my parents never liked it… they wanted me to be doing something, always—
main @espeonie.bsky.social
♡ diagnosed anxiety and depression.
— my outlet for poetic musings, mental health reflections, and overall ramblings about the world; and all that exists in it.
warm welcome! ♡
♡ diagnosed anxiety and depression.
— my outlet for poetic musings, mental health reflections, and overall ramblings about the world; and all that exists in it.
warm welcome! ♡
May 7, 2025 at 5:48 PM
main @espeonie.bsky.social
♡ diagnosed anxiety and depression.
— my outlet for poetic musings, mental health reflections, and overall ramblings about the world; and all that exists in it.
warm welcome! ♡
♡ diagnosed anxiety and depression.
— my outlet for poetic musings, mental health reflections, and overall ramblings about the world; and all that exists in it.
warm welcome! ♡
CW: ED ELEMENTS
the thought of eating makes me so indescribably sad right, and my heart sinks. i had some comfort food today but other than that, i really don’t want to go into the kitchen. i really don’t feel like eating, but i must, and the cycle of guilt repeats itself. endlessly, eternally.
the thought of eating makes me so indescribably sad right, and my heart sinks. i had some comfort food today but other than that, i really don’t want to go into the kitchen. i really don’t feel like eating, but i must, and the cycle of guilt repeats itself. endlessly, eternally.
May 6, 2025 at 5:05 PM
CW: ED ELEMENTS
the thought of eating makes me so indescribably sad right, and my heart sinks. i had some comfort food today but other than that, i really don’t want to go into the kitchen. i really don’t feel like eating, but i must, and the cycle of guilt repeats itself. endlessly, eternally.
the thought of eating makes me so indescribably sad right, and my heart sinks. i had some comfort food today but other than that, i really don’t want to go into the kitchen. i really don’t feel like eating, but i must, and the cycle of guilt repeats itself. endlessly, eternally.