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I am very mentally ill on here, as a place to voice thoughts in a way that suits me. I may not mean what I say, it's a place to get it out.
Since you can't remove followers, I block those who follow me that I do not want viewing my posts.
Since you can't remove followers, I block those who follow me that I do not want viewing my posts.
almost 4am and I'm screaming crying throwing up about the future
December 10, 2025 at 3:50 AM
almost 4am and I'm screaming crying throwing up about the future
I can't sleep I'm like stressing that I'm going to fail and then get kicked out and then die
December 10, 2025 at 3:49 AM
I can't sleep I'm like stressing that I'm going to fail and then get kicked out and then die
you should be able to bakugo voice and tell people to take a swan dive off a roof
November 26, 2025 at 12:26 AM
you should be able to bakugo voice and tell people to take a swan dive off a roof
I got pissed off and chewed my lip raw
November 26, 2025 at 12:25 AM
I got pissed off and chewed my lip raw
stupid lump in mouth again
November 25, 2025 at 2:16 AM
stupid lump in mouth again
I feel scared to sleep because a lot of my dreams I keep trying to kms in them which sounds funny and is in part a manifestation of my mental state I suppose but last night was pretty bad
November 25, 2025 at 1:48 AM
I feel scared to sleep because a lot of my dreams I keep trying to kms in them which sounds funny and is in part a manifestation of my mental state I suppose but last night was pretty bad
can I be honest real quick. I'm joking about it when mentioning it but passing out at concert was scary I've never passed out before
November 20, 2025 at 12:06 AM
can I be honest real quick. I'm joking about it when mentioning it but passing out at concert was scary I've never passed out before
i fucke up everythign and i cant even do aythign right and i jsut fukc up all the fucking time i shykd fucking kill myself what useless fucking human am i if i cant even rememebr that i apparently preivously fucked up on this stufff too
November 17, 2025 at 2:55 PM
i fucke up everythign and i cant even do aythign right and i jsut fukc up all the fucking time i shykd fucking kill myself what useless fucking human am i if i cant even rememebr that i apparently preivously fucked up on this stufff too
I feel like a baby wanting reassurance for things how Is everyone not sick of me and wanting me drad
November 16, 2025 at 2:26 AM
I feel like a baby wanting reassurance for things how Is everyone not sick of me and wanting me drad
I wish I could just be normal and not a stupid sensitive crazy freak lol
November 16, 2025 at 2:26 AM
I wish I could just be normal and not a stupid sensitive crazy freak lol
wow I love to wake up because of a nightmare and have a panic attack happy 4am
November 14, 2025 at 4:44 AM
wow I love to wake up because of a nightmare and have a panic attack happy 4am
i see something and I'm like omg what if I'm evil and everyone wants me dead
November 13, 2025 at 12:12 AM
i see something and I'm like omg what if I'm evil and everyone wants me dead
having to hold myself back from saying something diabolical because it would in fact not make me win this inernet argument but it woulld be funny
November 1, 2025 at 7:01 PM
having to hold myself back from saying something diabolical because it would in fact not make me win this inernet argument but it woulld be funny
I said I wouldn't read back but I'm like. cycling around on it so it's hard not to
October 30, 2025 at 12:53 AM
I said I wouldn't read back but I'm like. cycling around on it so it's hard not to
girl. I realised part of me tweaking out is because in a couple months it'd be almost a year of finding out 🌊 secretly saw me and all my friends as a pet project all this time and not an actual human being and thought I should be okay with it 😂😂
October 30, 2025 at 12:46 AM
girl. I realised part of me tweaking out is because in a couple months it'd be almost a year of finding out 🌊 secretly saw me and all my friends as a pet project all this time and not an actual human being and thought I should be okay with it 😂😂
there's certain things I want to scream about but I feel insane and it's literally nothing and I feel like my account is being watched so I haven't been venting about things that matter
October 30, 2025 at 12:38 AM
there's certain things I want to scream about but I feel insane and it's literally nothing and I feel like my account is being watched so I haven't been venting about things that matter
moisturiser doesn't feel like it was worth it. I want to buy perfume. so I feel less bad about myself but I hate shopping. after class I'm in for another peach riot blind box and then I'll go home and eat. food. ig
October 30, 2025 at 12:36 AM
moisturiser doesn't feel like it was worth it. I want to buy perfume. so I feel less bad about myself but I hate shopping. after class I'm in for another peach riot blind box and then I'll go home and eat. food. ig
*guy who plans to buy things tomorrow* I am feeling the repercussions of spending today
October 30, 2025 at 12:26 AM
*guy who plans to buy things tomorrow* I am feeling the repercussions of spending today
it feels like a continuous stream of things being bad if i dont check things. but checking doesnt help anymore i just feel more sick. and i relly dont know how to deal with it
October 26, 2025 at 12:15 AM
it feels like a continuous stream of things being bad if i dont check things. but checking doesnt help anymore i just feel more sick. and i relly dont know how to deal with it
ill delete everything when i have energy to do. i feel like deactivating tbh but i hate worrying people i care about and the idea of doing so makes me feel like something bad will happen
October 26, 2025 at 12:14 AM
ill delete everything when i have energy to do. i feel like deactivating tbh but i hate worrying people i care about and the idea of doing so makes me feel like something bad will happen
i just feel guilty and like im not good enough and its probably nothing but im unsure why everything is plaguing me so much now haha
October 26, 2025 at 12:13 AM
i just feel guilty and like im not good enough and its probably nothing but im unsure why everything is plaguing me so much now haha
It's probably just thoughts talking btu please lmk if you need me to try and talk to you more or anything. ikk ive been very very quiet on here lately because i forget to open bsky and im bad at being active in multiple discord servers so ive been kinda quiet everywhere else too. most of my time has
October 26, 2025 at 12:11 AM
It's probably just thoughts talking btu please lmk if you need me to try and talk to you more or anything. ikk ive been very very quiet on here lately because i forget to open bsky and im bad at being active in multiple discord servers so ive been kinda quiet everywhere else too. most of my time has