And late Dec was about redoing everything with January goals in mind. Hoping again the following year would be better for good this time.
youtube.com/shorts/tYtsn...

Mid Dec went by trying to repush through emotional recovery.
Things took time despite advisor still rushing things or getting compared to well functioning undergrads.
Yea man I got it but I decide it's time to give myself grace of choosing action over inaction despite feeling crap.

"they interviewed people who survived after jumping off that cliff. they all said, when you reach two-thirds of the way down the cliff, whatever made you want to kill yourself, didn't feel like nothing anymore."
- My Liberation Notes Ep.9
who knows this would actually be true
(src unknown, in alt)

Changing the implementation and dataset in less than a month before submission was nuts but fuck it.
Month started with cosupervising drama and it's quite sure where I'm at is just fake marketing and naming.
Academic heartbreak it is by ChatGPT and my therapist, and I'm glad I still showed up.

current goals:
- build new routine
starting all over with:
- thesis topic
- literature

Procrastinated but got up again

current goals:
- build new routine
- complete data collection
- finalise thesis topic
- finalize literature review
(- apply for new 💰)