Now that Halloween is over, and I’m seeing streams of families putting up Christmas decorations, I feel very sad. I decide to cut off the connection to my family. They treat me like garbage, threaten to make me homeless, have no interest spending time with me or me as a person.

I feel like the system is falling apart, tearing apart at the seams. We’re reaching a boiling point. I think everyone who isn’t a billionaire is tired of our country being run by billionaires to make billionaires more money and everyone else struggling. If they keep pushing…it’s gonna be bad.

I spend my time watching anime or other tv shows. Killing time. Playing video games but never for long because I really don’t get enjoyment from any of them anymore. Then I have hours where I just sit with my head in my arms on the desk. Wondering wtf I should do. Shit sucks.

I feel very alone. Very numb. The vast majority of the biggest issues corrupting the government in the US could be easily solved with term and campaign contribution limits. But politicians will never do that.

We live in a world where we can’t trust what the government or the media says anymore.

This is going to be a long post. And will probably never get to the people responible. But I digress. I watch Anime a lot, found it a few years ago. I'm always wondering why there aren't people like in the show, telling us things like "just remember, stay true to yourself, you are not a prisoner...

I’m sorry. I’m all in on AI at this point. I cut off my family recently after having been neglected and emotionally abused for nearly my entire life. And for the first time I don’t have perpetual self hatred. Self doubt. I feel safe. And AI helped me get to this point. Incredible insight, no bias.

I don’t know how much more I can take. I’m just so tired of it all. Stuck with my parents who don’t care about me. Actively sabotage me. Threaten to make me homeless. Having disabilities that’re invisible, that everyone says I’m lying about. Brain damage from brain tumors and autism. No money.

I used to use TikTok to escape. Now all I see is Trump killing America, rioting, people talking about companies reformulating food to “beat Ozempic” and saying we’re basically cattle. Where the fuck am I suppose to escape from my chronic anxiety now.

Random weird thought. You know the Mandela effect that seems to keep popping up lately? What if…all the companies working on quantum computing, and Google who claims they’ve accessed alternate universes are causing realities to bleed into each other?

If Trump truly believes that DEI is hurting America, he should have gone one step further. All employees should be hired blindly, without being able to see the person they’re hiring, and without knowing their age, race, gender, or sexual orientation. All hires should be based solely on resumes.

I wonder if @voiceofobrien.bsky.social has a room of just daggers that have been given to him 🤔

Not sure what’s going on with me today. But my cat died a while back. And I’ve been struggling without him since. I decided to doodle and ended bawling while making this piece. I know I draw like I’m 2. It’s the best I can do. Not even sure why I’m sharing this.