i have nothing left on how to continue and get back into form. no ideas at all genuinely

the quality of my creative output has worsened. every social interaction i have online or offline feels like torment. i can study and go at it for hours but i feel like i learn nothing at all. everything in my life is crumbling and i feel like it will only get worse and worse

and its looking like its all exactly going down that road. i wont be able to handle all that pain and stress and depression again for nothing at all. i need to get back into form immediately and im trying so hard but nothing is working for me. i almost cant operate at all.

i feel completely dysfunctional, exhausted and tired. even while loading myself up with caffeine and ritalin i cant focus. nothing works for me and i feel like i cant be fixed. if i cant control myself and everything in relation to university goes exactly like it did a year ago i will commit suicide

you fucking clueless idiot