it was probably kinda reckless and ignorant of me to exect that, after decades of shit posture and a sedentary lifestyle, i can just spawn in the gym and train like a mindless ape without any risk of injury

however, this is fucked... am i going to collect muskoskeletal injuries like pokemons now?

why god whyyyy must i be cursed with the incompetence adhd strain, i can barely hold a job and go to the gym, i wanna draw cocks as well 😭😭

recovery slows down too. 10 years ago, if i got injured while working out, i would be a-ok in 2-3 days. nowadays, i do hip thrusts wrong a couple of times, injure my lumbar disks and deal with debilitating pain 2 weeks after ☠️ a couple months ago i messed up my knees! we gotta take our vitamins...

i personally struggle so much with liking a certain aesthetic (muscle mommies) & working hard to get it vs finding it inappropriate for my frame because i always felt not pretty enough or not feminine enough. but i'm so happy whenever i see progress, i gotta kill that self doubting worm in my brain

cuz dresses no longer look "cute" on me or whatever... but then this dude i'm seeing who's also ripped, got a chub while i was doing push-ups in my underwear in my living room and kept pushing me to do more so idk man i'll take that as a compliment 🥹

sometimes I get massive body dysmorphia when i look in the mirror and see all the muscle development in my shoulders and arms cuz i struggle with seeing myself as traditionally feminine or hot or whatever and i freak out even in the gym mirror when doing upper body cuz what if no one will like me? >

gross ass horseshoe mf

i skipped gym for about 3 weeks while on vacation and recovering from post-vacation depression, i'm happy to see i still have some muscle on me, but these last 2 months have been absolute shit for my progress, with the knees and work and all that. the only muscles that grew were my triceps...

yeeessssss this is exactly why i'm workin on getting these big arms so when i finally get to see you irl i can squish you PROPER (whenever that will be 🥹🥹)

knees are recovering fine, but I had a weird 2-3 weeks where I completely stopped working out and not only did it not help my knees, it surely didn't help my brain either. now i'm doing 2 lower & 2 upper body workouts per week and i started noticing some back development. noyce 👀

especially in my quads, but it's very hard to capture that in photos without Proper Anabolic Lighting which I don't posess...

also, censored my goddam cameltoe and bug bites and bsky still labeled it as nudity ☠️

yeah, i completely get that, i usually go at odd hours when it's mostly empty to avoid the big crowds causing me the big anxieties 🥹

(un)fortunately it's true. after 3 months of gym, i become unbearably grumpy on my rest days because i'm not sweating and pulling and pushing some iron around next to all these hot ppl 😔