jonah
@corruptedblood.bsky.social
jonah. 24. it/her.
this is an account for when i'm feeling mental. main is @azjkahet
this is an account for when i'm feeling mental. main is @azjkahet
might cry:( my relationship to sex is soooo different from the rest of my system and it makes me feel so. not great
February 15, 2025 at 7:09 PM
might cry:( my relationship to sex is soooo different from the rest of my system and it makes me feel so. not great
The bathroom floor is cold and I’m cold and I just want to be warm in bed but I can’t. And I have rashes on my thighs because apparently everything has to really suck right now.
February 12, 2025 at 9:55 AM
The bathroom floor is cold and I’m cold and I just want to be warm in bed but I can’t. And I have rashes on my thighs because apparently everything has to really suck right now.
This is really unpleasant. I keep going to the bathroom because I’m sure I’ll puke, the feeling passes, I go back to bed, repeat. It’s really upsetting.
February 12, 2025 at 9:38 AM
This is really unpleasant. I keep going to the bathroom because I’m sure I’ll puke, the feeling passes, I go back to bed, repeat. It’s really upsetting.
Reposted by jonah
🧸 — what if i was soooo so annoying and it made me sad
February 10, 2025 at 10:03 AM
🧸 — what if i was soooo so annoying and it made me sad
i feel. ugh. i don’t know. it’s not good though and it’s making me feel sick. it’s so stupid but for some ungodly reason i keep freaking the fuck out over like, oh god, what if i’ve been wrong for all of the years i’ve been iding as aroace. what a stupid thing to be pressed about lol
February 2, 2025 at 12:08 PM
i feel. ugh. i don’t know. it’s not good though and it’s making me feel sick. it’s so stupid but for some ungodly reason i keep freaking the fuck out over like, oh god, what if i’ve been wrong for all of the years i’ve been iding as aroace. what a stupid thing to be pressed about lol
had a really awful freak out that put me way the fuck on edge so it’s 5am and i’m still up. ugh
January 31, 2025 at 12:01 PM
had a really awful freak out that put me way the fuck on edge so it’s 5am and i’m still up. ugh
🎸 — god this is so fucking weird to say. i know. but i’m glad my grandpa is dead. i’m glad he died before trump’s first presidency, and i’m glad he’s dead for this one. things to reflect on right before clocking in for work i guess
January 25, 2025 at 9:06 PM
🎸 — god this is so fucking weird to say. i know. but i’m glad my grandpa is dead. i’m glad he died before trump’s first presidency, and i’m glad he’s dead for this one. things to reflect on right before clocking in for work i guess
🎸 — i slept sooo badly and it was all just nightmares so now i feel sick and exhausted. i don’t want to go to work but. it’ll be fine!! it’s my last shift before i see my partner sys
January 25, 2025 at 8:31 PM
🎸 — i slept sooo badly and it was all just nightmares so now i feel sick and exhausted. i don’t want to go to work but. it’ll be fine!! it’s my last shift before i see my partner sys
🎸 — i feel. ugh. weird? or something? mostly i just wish i was worth keeping around. i wish i didn’t have to earn being tolerated. i want to be loved for real and if i’m not good enough for that i want there to be ways other than sex to convince people to pretend
January 18, 2025 at 12:12 PM
🎸 — i feel. ugh. weird? or something? mostly i just wish i was worth keeping around. i wish i didn’t have to earn being tolerated. i want to be loved for real and if i’m not good enough for that i want there to be ways other than sex to convince people to pretend
📱 — im hungry & i need to eat before work but i feel so fucking sick bc i didnt sleep enough
January 17, 2025 at 8:08 PM
📱 — im hungry & i need to eat before work but i feel so fucking sick bc i didnt sleep enough
📱 — god im so exhausted im so sleep deprived that alone is abt to make me start crying idk how im supposed to go into work. its also so fucking depressing to realize im at a place in life that im not confident i wont cut at work lol like i WILL go crazy if i dont bring smth to have the option
January 17, 2025 at 7:49 PM
📱 — god im so exhausted im so sleep deprived that alone is abt to make me start crying idk how im supposed to go into work. its also so fucking depressing to realize im at a place in life that im not confident i wont cut at work lol like i WILL go crazy if i dont bring smth to have the option
📱 — its fine. ill work tmrw & im off saturday so its fine ill sleep as much as i want itll be fine i just have to make it thru tmrw its ok its fine
January 17, 2025 at 12:49 PM
📱 — its fine. ill work tmrw & im off saturday so its fine ill sleep as much as i want itll be fine i just have to make it thru tmrw its ok its fine
📱 — its fine. who cares
January 17, 2025 at 12:43 PM
📱 — its fine. who cares
📱 — im THIS fucking close to crying i was supposed to go in at 6 tmrw but tj just texted me that i have to be in at 2 & i just. i cant keep fucking doing this job my hours cant keep being subject to change like this i cant handle it
January 17, 2025 at 12:32 PM
📱 — im THIS fucking close to crying i was supposed to go in at 6 tmrw but tj just texted me that i have to be in at 2 & i just. i cant keep fucking doing this job my hours cant keep being subject to change like this i cant handle it
this job is NOT good for me, we’re not used to just not knowing who’s fronting these days, it’s not a common thing to happen anymore, but the stress of working at ck has made it happen like 3-4 times in the past week. so. i don’t love that
January 16, 2025 at 8:13 PM
this job is NOT good for me, we’re not used to just not knowing who’s fronting these days, it’s not a common thing to happen anymore, but the stress of working at ck has made it happen like 3-4 times in the past week. so. i don’t love that
🔥 — i didn’t sleep enough and im so tired. i do NOT know that i can handle working today i’m already crying over the fact that i have to
January 15, 2025 at 7:45 PM
🔥 — i didn’t sleep enough and im so tired. i do NOT know that i can handle working today i’m already crying over the fact that i have to
🎀 — I guess I’m just spiraling because I feel useless and incompetent, and those things would make me replaceable, and I’ve always been treated as replaceable so it’s probably true.
January 12, 2025 at 8:16 PM
🎀 — I guess I’m just spiraling because I feel useless and incompetent, and those things would make me replaceable, and I’ve always been treated as replaceable so it’s probably true.
🎀 — Immediately upon waking up I started crying. I hate this.
January 12, 2025 at 8:08 PM
🎀 — Immediately upon waking up I started crying. I hate this.
🎀 — Awful impulses to tear the stitches out, too. Get a good angle so I can rip out a few chunks of the gums along with them. I probably shouldn’t do that, but…
January 12, 2025 at 12:43 PM
🎀 — Awful impulses to tear the stitches out, too. Get a good angle so I can rip out a few chunks of the gums along with them. I probably shouldn’t do that, but…
🎀 — I’m still crying. This is really, really fucking annoying.
January 12, 2025 at 12:39 PM
🎀 — I’m still crying. This is really, really fucking annoying.
🎀 — I can’t stop crying. Everything is upsetting me. Everything is making me feel crazy. It’s so annoying.
January 12, 2025 at 10:53 AM
🎀 — I can’t stop crying. Everything is upsetting me. Everything is making me feel crazy. It’s so annoying.