much to say. but the shame and guilt is overwhelming so i cannot

It’s making me feel really fragile and pathetic. I hate this.

#catcrumb

might be kind of dissociating now which is probably why i stopped giving a shit about it. whatever. i’ll get normaller eventually

i’m being normal about it now, who cares, but it keeps occurring and it’s annoying. literally why does it matter. why am i being so weird about experiencing attraction

its also like. so fucking depressing to think the first time i see my fiancé irl i might be still healing from sh but. god. i cant help it im so fucking miserable this job is killing me & its only ever getting worse

its ok. wtv. im crashing so bad so i dont have the energy to do any of the destructive shit im thinking abt. its only 8 hrs tmrw & then i can rest

awesome. im no longer close to crying anymore bc im actively crying i have been for like a couple minutes i think this is so cool

im like. actively super fucking suicidal over this im so exhausted i cant keep doing this job ive never been so miserable at any other job. this one is so uniquely bad i cant keep doing this i really cant

ive been so fucking sleep deprived & i thought id get enough sleep tonight but itll be less than 7 hrs which is NOT enough for me at all i really REALLY cant fucking handle this at all this shit cant keep happening