for legal reasons this is not about anyone on this site

like would i be discarded if i suddenly couldn't/wouldn't do what they wanted? (the answer is most likely yes)

i wish i could just fucking /help/ people.

maybe i'm just not used to good things WHO FUCKING KNOWS

i feel so fucking miserable.

then we need to get 2 hazardous trees near the house cut this weekend. that alone will be $200.

there's a medical bill i need to pay until the 14th. costs the same as my monthly tax. then there's my medication because i can't not take them anymore because my health is ✨ degrading fast ✨
then i have to pay my accountant next week, get a new monthly pass so i can even travel to the clinic.

i need to help out but i don't have this kind of money. also in the middle of a burnout so the last thing i want is opening c0mms again but that's what i'm gonna have to do. this sucks.

(bad, mostly)

it's also more expensive than a regular appt but idc anymore, it's so hard to book appts so i'll just leave it that way. don't wanna wait until december. also not looking forward to paying $150 (+whatever the extra exams cost) but it is what it is

okay survived the conversation whew lol