Anyway I'm suffering. I just want to be able to clean my house on my own and finish art. Is that too much to ask for? (I'm going to bed)

You get worse. And worse. And worse. And now you have to get tested for so many different things so you can find the right treatments because you can barely do the absolute minimum now and you just need to get better because the guilt is consuming you

You rest. You wake up feeling worse than yesterday. You stay in bed as long as possible. Someone online says "people on social support programs should work". You drag yourself out of bed, because maybe if you work you'll feel better and you'll be able to work like people insist you should be able to

Because laundry has to be done, and other house keeping. But your body is so heavy, you're so tired, you just want to sit down and give yourself a little treat because you feel like garbage. But the day is over. You're sick, you're tired, you need to rest to get better. You lay down

So you do it. Your legs buckle, over and over again. You drink water. You drink a sports drink. You make yourself eat. It doesn't help. You lay down, that person comes back to hover at your bedside and snarl at you about how lazy you're being. An hour. That's all you let yourself have

--life doesn't stop just because you 'don't feel good'" and they keep on like that until you drag yourself out of bed, you shove your feet under yourself. The world sways like you're on a boat, but the dishes have to be done, errands have to be run. No one will do it for you

And why is there no wind trace?? You're going to have a mini game gallery but you're not going to include wind trace??

Hey so, I had trouble doing *any* of the single player games in MW, and I can't figure out a way that would allow me to report that as a big, so I'm saying it here. Your party game style co-op events are always fun, so this, in theory, should be too. Why's it so dang frustrating, instead?

Is there even a country that would take in a disabled, unemployable queer person and his cat, that would help me get care?

Or should I just focus on lamenting my Hoyo days and yearning for the mines?

And thinking about that is giving me serious anxiety. So I'm going to be over here reading and playing Minecraft and gatcha games and finding flaws in my favorite TV shows, because I just can't handle too much heavy thoughts right now. I'm so tired of this nonsense

And my medication costs hundreds a month without insurance, which i would likely lose. But my SSI barely covers rent and bills. So my sensitive AF stomach is going to have to process beans because I can't afford to buy protein because rich people want to be richer

I live in the PNW, it's the same here, but you'd think with all the rain, drivers would know better

Like the weird plot hole in Wednesday. And mihoyo trying to weedle money out of me. And idk .. a debate on pasta shapes in comparison to sauce carrying. Or Minecraft mods. Because life is too much right now for my disabled brain

I don't even want to finish the fan art I was working on. I will because I made promises, but damn. Can we get some actual attention paid to consumer surveys??

that's not even counting how much time and effort I've put into Star Rail since day one...

My point is I know I'm not a whale by any means, I barely ever have money to spend on the games, but I've loved them. And between MW and the AI announcement, I feel betrayed

I've spent several hours a day on Genshin in the three years I've been playing, 100% nearly the entire map, done almost every single character quest and hang out, played the TCG and rhythm game, bought one skin, a bp or two, and some welkins