does he have someone else now? just like how he fell in love with me in the same month where he broke up with his ex? is there even love for me? just a little? from him? or am i being delusional that there is?

but of course i will leave if he disrespects me, insult me endlessly, and so far he havent- i think, he doesn't want to let go of me, and i like to think he still loves me deep inside but of course the anger is still there

i dont have anyone to talk about this situation anymore, they expected me to already cut him off because he is not good for me. but i didnt because i want to prove to him that i will stay and be that exception, that i love everything about him, the good, bad, and worst ones

into a big issue again" and i dont want us to argue anymore, especially with that topic.

my words like when i said "i dont love anyone" and he would go like "so you dont love me? ok, congrats on moving on" which he obviously knew i meant that i only love him and him only

i think, i would've been easily ticked off but i stayed calm and patient or else he will go "you're making things-

i still dont know what words to say, i am afraid that i might rope him in with my words or make the pain more lasting

he offered me a message relay since i couldnt message him on discord, possibly blocked, i thank him for the offer though i know i could still reach M through reddit