@ciciiiiish.bsky.social
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hi i am cici, i like to play video games and write stuff
today, i decide to share my life (not entirely) because i have been a lurker and private person which is a good thing as most people say and i could just talk to someone about whats been going on but i dont have that person anymore and -
today, i decide to share my life (not entirely) because i have been a lurker and private person which is a good thing as most people say and i could just talk to someone about whats been going on but i dont have that person anymore and -
this might be true on how recently we are getting into arguments to push me away-
guys what if someone actually asked him out on a valentines date, ahahahwhabwksnwmBz
February 12, 2026 at 6:25 PM
this might be true on how recently we are getting into arguments to push me away-
but if he sees me saying how lonely i feel, he will say "you're just getting attention"
February 12, 2026 at 6:25 PM
but if he sees me saying how lonely i feel, he will say "you're just getting attention"
this loneliness is getting to me
February 12, 2026 at 6:24 PM
this loneliness is getting to me
i accidentally fucked up ironing my skirt wxvwkbsba
February 12, 2026 at 6:10 PM
i accidentally fucked up ironing my skirt wxvwkbsba
i cant be close to anyone, or else they will start to fall in love with me, i hate this
February 12, 2026 at 9:57 AM
i cant be close to anyone, or else they will start to fall in love with me, i hate this
i feel so alone
February 12, 2026 at 9:49 AM
i feel so alone
he usually sleeps at 2 am now, and wakes up often around 1 pm or earlier when he usually wakes up around 9 or 10 am, did i do this?
February 10, 2026 at 5:34 PM
he usually sleeps at 2 am now, and wakes up often around 1 pm or earlier when he usually wakes up around 9 or 10 am, did i do this?
i think i am making progress, but now i fear on asking him to be my valentines, he might just, decline it or make fun of me saying like "you chose him over our relationship"
February 10, 2026 at 11:18 AM
i think i am making progress, but now i fear on asking him to be my valentines, he might just, decline it or make fun of me saying like "you chose him over our relationship"
how funny, we ended on "would you fall in love with me again"
for i, would continue to love him despite everything, but would he still love me? when I am not the same person anymore?
for i, would continue to love him despite everything, but would he still love me? when I am not the same person anymore?
February 10, 2026 at 11:11 AM
how funny, we ended on "would you fall in love with me again"
for i, would continue to love him despite everything, but would he still love me? when I am not the same person anymore?
for i, would continue to love him despite everything, but would he still love me? when I am not the same person anymore?
does he truly think i dont love him? or he doesnt love me anymore but just want to see me beg?
February 9, 2026 at 12:58 PM
does he truly think i dont love him? or he doesnt love me anymore but just want to see me beg?
jealousy is really getting to me, something i really want to get rid off but he is feeding into it and it's driving me insane, and i am scared that i might end up forgetting myself again
February 9, 2026 at 12:45 PM
jealousy is really getting to me, something i really want to get rid off but he is feeding into it and it's driving me insane, and i am scared that i might end up forgetting myself again
another update, me and him seem to be more okayish? every time he tries to bring up the topic, i automatically decline, try not to bring it up at all cost and shut it down as fast as i can
it feels like he is coming back to me but he still feels incredibly distant, whenever he tries to interpret
it feels like he is coming back to me but he still feels incredibly distant, whenever he tries to interpret
February 9, 2026 at 12:41 PM
another update, me and him seem to be more okayish? every time he tries to bring up the topic, i automatically decline, try not to bring it up at all cost and shut it down as fast as i can
it feels like he is coming back to me but he still feels incredibly distant, whenever he tries to interpret
it feels like he is coming back to me but he still feels incredibly distant, whenever he tries to interpret
yesterday, M's best friend sent a question to my "ask me anything!" but it's really not a question but more like apologizing about M
of course I messaged, asked how M is, he told me that M reached enlightenment but the grief of leaving me still stays
of course I messaged, asked how M is, he told me that M reached enlightenment but the grief of leaving me still stays
February 9, 2026 at 12:31 PM
yesterday, M's best friend sent a question to my "ask me anything!" but it's really not a question but more like apologizing about M
of course I messaged, asked how M is, he told me that M reached enlightenment but the grief of leaving me still stays
of course I messaged, asked how M is, he told me that M reached enlightenment but the grief of leaving me still stays
i am not ready for the moment when he declines to be my valentines, i know i will make a fool of myself
February 8, 2026 at 4:17 AM
i am not ready for the moment when he declines to be my valentines, i know i will make a fool of myself
i miss hearing his laughter, looking at his face, and his kisses, wearing his hoodie and our ring is not enough, i want to be around him and cling on him
February 8, 2026 at 4:16 AM
i miss hearing his laughter, looking at his face, and his kisses, wearing his hoodie and our ring is not enough, i want to be around him and cling on him
i dont deserve happiness
February 8, 2026 at 1:55 AM
i dont deserve happiness
i wont be ever enough
February 8, 2026 at 1:54 AM
i wont be ever enough
will things get better?
February 8, 2026 at 1:23 AM
will things get better?
i really miss M, but he has all the right to leave especially in my state of things. i will remember the friendship fondly
February 7, 2026 at 9:45 AM
i really miss M, but he has all the right to leave especially in my state of things. i will remember the friendship fondly
i cant ever leave. i just can't.
February 6, 2026 at 2:29 PM
i cant ever leave. i just can't.
i love him. and i will never leave.
February 6, 2026 at 2:08 AM
i love him. and i will never leave.
guys what if someone actually asked him out on a valentines date, ahahahwhabwksnwmBz
February 5, 2026 at 11:33 PM
guys what if someone actually asked him out on a valentines date, ahahahwhabwksnwmBz
this day has been chaotic
- changing how schedules
- ends up being a classmate with my year batch
- my long time frend compliments
- my professor compliments me
- lost my friend M.
- changing how schedules
- ends up being a classmate with my year batch
- my long time frend compliments
- my professor compliments me
- lost my friend M.
February 5, 2026 at 3:32 PM
this day has been chaotic
- changing how schedules
- ends up being a classmate with my year batch
- my long time frend compliments
- my professor compliments me
- lost my friend M.
- changing how schedules
- ends up being a classmate with my year batch
- my long time frend compliments
- my professor compliments me
- lost my friend M.
he drives me into complete insanity- what if he already found someone interesting? thats why he told me that? he found someone in real life who told him i love you and started to doubt her love for him? i dont know
February 5, 2026 at 3:30 PM
he drives me into complete insanity- what if he already found someone interesting? thats why he told me that? he found someone in real life who told him i love you and started to doubt her love for him? i dont know
he said
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find it strange that the ones who “love” me are generally people who can’t even see me
and the people who can see me and say they “love” me eventually come to no longer love me
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find it strange that the ones who “love” me are generally people who can’t even see me
and the people who can see me and say they “love” me eventually come to no longer love me
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February 5, 2026 at 3:28 PM
he said
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find it strange that the ones who “love” me are generally people who can’t even see me
and the people who can see me and say they “love” me eventually come to no longer love me
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find it strange that the ones who “love” me are generally people who can’t even see me
and the people who can see me and say they “love” me eventually come to no longer love me
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