This is prob why the only romances I like to engage in are fictional. like otome or lads or fanfic. bc at least they won’t betray me. :(

so idk how else I’m supposed to feel about marriage when my immediate example is a dad almost up and leaving after 30+ yrs together bc of resentment built from problems 20yrs ago. I just can’t trust anyone. People can ALWAYS hide things from you

my parents were never that romantic with each other and during college I found out they were this 🤏🏻 close to separating and my dad wanted to leave us and my mom didn’t know what to do with herself bc she didn’t know who she was without him

Genuinely idk what to do with myself now that I’m at the age where people are getting married and wedding planning and incorporating their lives with their SOs. it all seems performative to me and idk how anyone would be worth entrusting my identity to. But ik im projecting…

and 3 other amazing coworkers have left or are leaving and I’m so…I’ve been there for like two months but they made doing food service a bit more fun…SAD

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