it's really just a matter of changing my mindset. i've been missing out on so much life because i feel like i have to be this idealized version of myself in order to even deserve to be happy. i just need to listen to my body and soul for once instead of stripping away everything that makes me human

day 16

I'm feeling a lot more energetic and even confident? crazy what exercise and a (mostly) clean diet will do for you. right now I'm just working on staying in my calorie deficit and staying consistent with my daily walks. here's to more good days!

day 9

I'm still slightly sick, but my energy levels keep rising each day. Now I need to focus on planning out my meals and sticking to a schedule. I think (I hope) this is what I need. I find that if I don't have at least some semblance of a meal plan then I end up overeating.

I have a little treadmill that I need to use more often. I really only use it on my days off for 40 to 60 min walk sesh and then go about my day. I wish my job allowed for an actual lunch break 😭 we just chill whenever we get the chance

most of my job is just standing in the same spot for hours and I dont live in the city so I don't really have an excuse to walk anywhere either. After work I usually walk up and down my stretch of road which is about 2 miles. I only average between 5k and 7k steps a day 😞

Anyway, rant over. Trying not to stew in what others think of me because their opinions don't mean shit, but also this is just super unfair and idk if I should do something or not. Really tempted to get these mfs fired

All these bitches are just that. Bitches. I've worked so fucking hard to get to where I am today and this is the thanks I get? Are you kidding? They throw me in the middle of everything not knowing WTF is going on and get mad when I mess up. What sense does that make? Maybe show me what's up first?

it's like this though; I've only been at this job for 2 months and everything I have learned is no thanks to them. I trained my damn self. Yeah, I still have room for improvement, but the only way I'm going to improve is by working in places I need to improve in, which they don't allow me to

day 2

i'm sick, but my breakfast kept me full all throughout work. i didn't think about food even once! i was a little antsy before dinner though and had a snack that put me a bit over my limit, but progress is progress.

wasn't that bad actually...

I really couldn't tell you if I had more energy today because I have a sinus infection and I'm on my p e r i o d

gonna try and focus on having multiple small meals a day instead of just one huge one at the end of the day because I always end up over eating. I'm really hoping I'll have more energy and motivation and try to be more active.