XR. Thinking about getting switched though, it’s been keeping me up until 2 or 3am. Side effects are already fading out other than that though. Efficacy feels like it’s dropped too though. I guess just tolerance being built up.

Wide awake at 2:30am again, sigh*

Day 3: Had to take 2 days off to catch up on sleep. Felt completely mentally out of cantor until the 2nd afternoon. Back on the horse today and feeling much better. Hoping side-effects will decline over exposures. Also looked up some tips to combat Adderall induced insomnia.

Maybe if I had a few drinks

Adderall Day 2: It kept me awake until 2:45 last night. Also noticing odd behavior like lining things up on the table and an odd kind of zoning out that seems to skip time. Less than 60secs though and has only happened once. Still excited because the benefits seem huge, hoping side effects level out

Still Day 1, but now it’s 1:25am and I’m still wide awake. Perhaps this is going to have a few trade offs 🙃

Ok fr I’m scared of taking pills, somebody give me context that isn’t going to freak me out like googling it would.

When I was accepted into the cult of humanities PhD programs. Felt like I had been chosen by the Toy Story claw. I got quickly disillusioned but for a minute there it made me feel special (I think that’s mostly the point of the whole enterprise).

In Georgia Ive heard “pop a uey” but never bang.

Just become an addict. Easy dopamine hits, social sympathy, plus opportunity to hit a recovery/relapse arc when the novelty starts to fade.