I’m feeling un-festive myself too. We can wallow together

Sir that sounds like it may be Rona

welcome to piercing logic!

asked for confirmation

he has previously said out loud that his favourite stim of mine is when he cooks for us i & wiggle while eating because he knows i’m enjoying it which
1) makes him happy that i’m happy
2) lets him know he’s a good cook
3) means i’m eating (a big thing for my eating disorder)

felt.

that meant having a conversation with him about how i’m feeling. and it’s super hard for me to open up like that.
this morning i did the washing up and he thanked me. told me i didn’t need to, then thanked me again.
being with him is healing the damage the men before him did to me.

for context: i have an eating disorder. i also had a very shitty ex who would comment on how “much” (see: a normal portion) i was eating.
so to have someone i’m so in love with as part of my healing? yeah that’s healing in itself.
and i booked a therapy appointment online in front of him!

we went out for a late lunch today too. so i tackled 2 fears this weekend, but tackled one of them TWICE. this man looked at me with nothing but adoration when i ate a full meal, and didn’t comment on how much i ate. i have nothing but love for this man. i have the most handsome sunday lunch date

safe travels!

this ain’t no damn park

they lied.

(mmmm complex pasta) which is why we’re meeting on friday. get everything out in the open, discuss boundaries openly, etc. we do have a (potential) long term goal of monogamy but it’s still a fresh relationship so first step is open up to each other fully and get healthy boundaries in place!

and it’s mostly because neither of us have ever really… been able to set boundaries? and we aren’t used to being able to compromise on them. so when one of us does set a boundary the other gets defensive unintentionally. we both have complex pasts (phone keeps trying to correct that to pasta)

well one of my other partners i messaged to say i relapsed nd he’s read it but not replied. he’s been online multiple times since. so i can’t really rely on him 🙃 but i’m trying to take it second by minute by hour by day. there’s a few reasons my partner and i have argued recently (cont)

quite frankly i would like to check out now. but then my cats nd ferrets would be sad cause they wouldn’t understand why i never came home so. got a phone call with a clinical pharmacist on friday about increasing my antidepressant dosage so hopefully that helps!

excuse me i am always a good boy

omg just for me?!