OwO what’s this? It’s been too long since I did a @pupamp.bsky.social and @mrkristofer.bsky.social video!

i had emergency surgery on Thursday after my organs LITERALLY fell out of my body and i was in agony. and yet i’m sitting here doubting that it was severe enough to go to a&e and thinking i should’ve just powered through at home.

is this just the severity of it all hitting me? or am i weak?

this weekend in order:
1. tackled an eating disorder fear (eating Kokoro in front of someone)
2. went to look at trains again
3. tackled a second eating disorder fear! (eating out at a restaurant)
4. watching my boyfriend work and thinking “this is the man i want to be with for the rest of my life”

going to bed and eating breakfast in the morning without him feels wroooooooong i hate it here

(i don’t, i would just rather be with my boyfriend. and i have to go to bed and wake up and have breakfast without him next weekend too. sigh.)

going 2 the park apparently !!!!!!!!!

my hysterectomy is on sunday hehe

hhhhhhhhhhh arguing w partners is exhausting (all good now, we communicated and are planning to properly talk it through on friday) and also i relapsed last night after 1yr 3mths clean and my meds are no longer working and FUCK i am tired of existence.

i’m on the waiting list for a hysterectomy ! consultant estimates feb/march for surgery. i’m gonna be neutered!

um a chimken for cerb !! thnx @alixwzl.bsky.social best bday gift!!!!!

only 12 days until these are locked on me during a club night and i become helpless puppy i am excited

the worst part of being close to T shot day is my hormones fluctuating.
i’m currently laying in bed, cuddling my cat, crying for no reason.
man this sucks

did you know
uh
that um
bark

cześć i has pawbs