I feel so alone

Getting ready for bed is such an underrated activity. One thing about me is I love getting ready for bed.

Constantly feel like I’m running out of time.

I think I’ve accepted that I’ll always carry this sort of strangeness with me

It always rains the hardest on people who deserve the sun

I should have loved a thunderbird instead.
at least when spring comes, they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
I think I made you up inside my head.

~Sylvia path

my goal for the new year is to make more connections with people who understand my pain and those who will let me understand theirs ❤️‍🩹

I love the Charlie Brown Christmas special. There's an eerie loneliness that hangs over the whole thing. The music, Charlie Brown's depression, the dying little tree, the flatness of the children's voices, the inevitability of death. A Christmas masterpiece.