No matter what I will be on a stage competing at a high level one day, doesn't matter what it is, it will happen

Getting so bad my collegiate teammate was talking to me last night like you gotta stop calling yourself shit its not helping T-T I think genuinely this is the last part of my mental I need to overcome but once I stop I'll literally be better at anything and everything

Its so its easier to take sublingually and keep it under your tongue (I think..)

WWWWW

For realsies though I really do want to start putting time into fighting games again, community to awesome and games too fun for me to just completely ignore them, besides as long as I can keep my schedule consistent I'll always have time for them

Surely this will make me put more time into fight games clueless

Why must I be cursed with this obsession to be good at everything and the want to potentially be the best, why does mediocrity not satisfy me like others, why must I always be hungry to improve at these things constantly

At least I'm not waiting as long this time because its on monday, I pray to whatever deity that may exist this appointment actually happens and doesn't get cancelled last minute 🙏

Pretty sure the front desk lady misgendered me too when she was asking someone a question about my appointment which is insane when not only are you scheduling my hrt appointment but you have my records where I said I was trans female T-T

Anyways we are so back hrt on September 19th :3