Morning thoughts... Idk what i wanna do with my life. Like i wanna do something but whenever i am asked what i wanna do, i just come up blank. I envy people that have the drive to do stuff and have fun doing it. I wish i wasn't as depressing and just mentally done so that i can do shit.

I am scared that when my mom dies that i will feel....nothing/ Idk how i will react if that happens cause i love her alot and that would make me feel like the worst person in the world. This happend when my brother passed, i was told he was gone and...nothing. no emotions just "well damn" and i was

Morning thoughts- I am sorry if my thoughts make me sound like a record but this is really how i be feeling sometimes, it just fluctuates between being sad about being alone, shamefull that im not streaming anymore, wanting to end it all, and just feeling....lonely. i havent really felt.. happy -

I wish that i was like other people. I want to have a hyperfixation on something, i want to be very knowledge able on a certain topics, hell i would love to be addicted to trains. But i dont have any of those things. i dont have special knowledge on stuff, i barely even like most things -

Morning thoughts- Idk how to make more friends, especially in the vtuber space, I dont think i am scared of talking to people (I mean i am but not the point) i think its cause the space is so toxic and it feels like people backstab eachother so i would rather just stay in my group but i want more!!

Morning thoughts- Friends are hard to keep, talking is hard for me so i take breaks from it. its not that i dont care its just that i dont like talking for too long, like i can but everyday gets tiresome not cause of you but cause my energy isnt really that high.

Morning thoughts.....I really wanna stream again but i am just nervous about starting for some reason. I dont thjink i am burnt out i just think i am too scared to start again and idk why.i dont wanna force myself cause then it wont be fun but i dont wanna quit either

I wish i knew where to start....finding myself. Idk what that means or how to start, it seems like everyone's journey to self-discovery is different, but idk what I am looking for

I dont feel good enough for anyone! I see all my friends growing as streamers and making new friends and here i am just....living but not really. i just dont wanna do anything and that sucks cause i do wanna vtube and do wanna grow my community but....idk i just dont feel like people need me

Hey hey!! this is just my Venting account just to have my thoughts in the wild!! i think this is better then just keeping them inside