And thinking, angrily, that my mom's biggest complaint about the girl was that she was 13.

"You shouldn't have been left alone with her! She's too old! She has boobs! She's hit puberty! You could have gotten her pregnant!"

Every night. On repeat. For four years.

Also thinking, selfishly, about how my mom outright torturing me into pushing her away, brought the sexual momentum I had been building since I was 4 to a full-stop, with no way to ever get it back again.

I've never had a sexual encounter I wasn't pressured into.

Only pedophiles care about the distinction between pedophilia, ephebophilia, and nepiophilia.

"Um, technically it's ephe-"

*blasts them with my JSL*

I believe your study more.

The other one is a clear case of selection bias.

I would know, it's like 6:30 AM and I haven't slept a wink.

Now I'm imagining an ideal timeline where Sid got Chucky and they were so perfect for one another that they both ended up well-adjusted as a result.

Marjorie figuring out Trump is a pedo is like Jason figuring out he's in The Bad Place.

Mood.

One of the most painfully healing moments I've had as a COCSA victim, was my mom showing me a video of myself at the age I was when it stopped.

I was a very tiny 12yo. Sometimes it takes looking back and realizing just how small you were, and that people wanted you to feel smaller.

He's out of line, but he's right.

[Someone call me?]

No! Go away! Don't look at me! You'll-

[Oops. All grey rock.]

(Don't listen to Rin. She's a total bitch. If you let us out I'll make it worth your while~)

Shut up, Cassandra! I am ~this close~ to gouging your other eye out!

(It doesn't work like that)

I will make it work like that!

(Want me to get Rebus involved?)

Oh God no, anything but him!

I'd talk to Romulus about tightening their security, but he's off catastrophizing about how everything is his fault again.

If you want something done right, I guess. Back in your cages, you two! You can be the villain power couple under lock and key.

TFW "being a sex object" is the only social currency you know how to spend, but it got discontinued when you were twelve.

It still feels like my fault somehow. Like if I had learned to want it sooner it wouldn't have stopped.

Or if I had known I'd never get it back I could have at least "faked" wanting it to keep my foot in the door. Or something.

Oh well, I got to be sexually active for eight years, which is more than some people get.

Still kicking myself for not learning to want it until it stopped though.

That's the one jumping out at me as the most "read me first!" of the bunch.

I should finish reading my friend's copy of Nimona so I can give it back to him, maybe I'll order Ship of Fools to reward myself once I've done that.

I'm gonna consider this a reading list.

Honest question, how many of these are actually 18+ vs. just LGBT? I mean I'm down for both, but if that can mean "both at the same time" it's even better.

Lovin these two dorks. Been waitin for this page to go public, now I can finally post this!

Reps.

They deserve each other <3