And this 3 part series :) www.sheppardpratt.org/news-views/s...

Oh I found a couple actually! Here’s one I just finished reading embrace-autism.com/moral-scrupu...

Ooooh wow I actually never heard of moral OCD/Moral Scrupulosity as an OCD symptom before seeing this post and after reading more I not only experience this, it’s The Thing that’s always made it fucking impossible to have a good relationship with myself. 😳 So helpful to know about thank you!

I really hope this shit doesn’t kill me. I’ve got things I still wanna do. Hard enough to do them while constantly sleep deprived and racked with pain.

“Once my buddy gets it together enough to stop assaulting women we’ll finally be able to prove that he’s not the violent misogynist all those bitches keep saying he is. But how is he supposed to do that when they keep being so mean to him??”

Or access to a medical procedure with a surgeon who couldn’t be bothered to talk to you for longer than 5 minutes at a stretch, but who you’re just supposed to trust with your unconscious body and it’s open tissues, bones, organs. In exchange for your hours of labor and thousands in medical debt.

“The privilege” for the patient here mostly being access to an enclosed room alone with people (roll of the dice on how much they despise you) who have every incentive to keep your visit to a tight 10min with minimal paperwork. Where you beg them to do some harder work to help you instead.

Doctors offload that administrative labor to their staff, who dutifully pass that labor onto patients: who are not only doing unpaid labor to enrich all of the above, but are having to pay more and more out of our own pockets for the privilege.

Insurance companies continue to up premiums as they increase the administrative burden required to get care, that burden being doctors and hospitals being paid per their demands (these bills frequently being full of false charges is a whole other topic).

whenever I see ableds rolling their carts around while I'm shopping, my first thought is "accessibility benefits literally everyone"

my second thought is "infrastructure designers who don't give a shit about disabled folks don't give a shit about anyone"

“Wow it’s never been so easy to turn around.” “Wow the floors are so level and smooth” “Woah it seems like even the people are more mindful of me wheeling around?” Oh it’s because it’s a space where even the able bodied people are operating something wide and wheeled. 😵‍💫😤

If I survive the next decade of my life and don’t lose too many of my capacities/faculties I think I could be a formidable creative triple-threat 🎨 ✍️ 🎶
There’s a lot riding on that “if” though eep 😬 whatever, it’s fun while I get to do it now! Even if it also hurts a lot.

I watched a video on sheet music last night, then printed out a composition of Bobby Timmon’s Dat Dere (which I am currently obsessed with) and was like, alright let’s see if I can decode this. And not only could I, but I learned the intro of Dat Dere (played verry slowwwly) in like 40 min omg 🤩😍

I’ve recently set my goals for myself pretty high I wanna learn how to play improvisational jazz. It’ll be a while obviously but I’ve been listening to it constantly and making strides in my theory understanding. If my body doesn’t break in a new way doing it, maybe I could accomplish it one day!

I have to take long breaks laying face down on the floor to be able to play the piano at all, but wow am i enamored with this instrument!