jessie
@brokenthriving.bsky.social
I sucked socially for most of my life. I slowly and consistently improved though. I became actually pretty good around June 2024, and peaked around March 2025. I've slowly gotten worse since then. These last few months I feel like I've been unsuccessfully chasing that success
January 21, 2026 at 7:31 AM
I sucked socially for most of my life. I slowly and consistently improved though. I became actually pretty good around June 2024, and peaked around March 2025. I've slowly gotten worse since then. These last few months I feel like I've been unsuccessfully chasing that success
I've been through this before. My conclusion/plan of action was to make connections and get people to like me, for social protection and impersonal social fun, without forming an emotional attachment to them. I've just been messing up on that last part
January 15, 2026 at 6:02 PM
I've been through this before. My conclusion/plan of action was to make connections and get people to like me, for social protection and impersonal social fun, without forming an emotional attachment to them. I've just been messing up on that last part
It felt like I'd made so much progress over the last five years but now it's just gone
January 15, 2026 at 6:13 AM
It felt like I'd made so much progress over the last five years but now it's just gone
I wanna isolate from everyone
January 15, 2026 at 6:12 AM
I wanna isolate from everyone
I'm high but maybe I'll find something good in this word vomit tomorrow
Everyone fucking sucks and I hate them. I don't wanna say why, cause I can't trust ANYONE with this. Everyone is against me. I hate everyone I hate the world I don't want to interact with people
Everyone fucking sucks and I hate them. I don't wanna say why, cause I can't trust ANYONE with this. Everyone is against me. I hate everyone I hate the world I don't want to interact with people
January 14, 2026 at 4:34 AM
I'm high but maybe I'll find something good in this word vomit tomorrow
Everyone fucking sucks and I hate them. I don't wanna say why, cause I can't trust ANYONE with this. Everyone is against me. I hate everyone I hate the world I don't want to interact with people
Everyone fucking sucks and I hate them. I don't wanna say why, cause I can't trust ANYONE with this. Everyone is against me. I hate everyone I hate the world I don't want to interact with people
I hate everyone. I'm never making a friend again. There's no fucking point. I don't wanna do this I don't wanna be a part of this world
January 14, 2026 at 2:48 AM
I hate everyone. I'm never making a friend again. There's no fucking point. I don't wanna do this I don't wanna be a part of this world
My family is a weird combination of upper-middle-class and frugal
January 4, 2026 at 9:08 PM
My family is a weird combination of upper-middle-class and frugal
I'm so lonely. Everyone is either gone or busy. Worse yet basically all the hangouts I've had recently have been 90% roasting and teasing. Don't get me wrong I love roasting and teasing. But only having those conversations with no sincere conversations is like having icing without cake. Feels empty
January 4, 2026 at 1:26 AM
I'm so lonely. Everyone is either gone or busy. Worse yet basically all the hangouts I've had recently have been 90% roasting and teasing. Don't get me wrong I love roasting and teasing. But only having those conversations with no sincere conversations is like having icing without cake. Feels empty
My favorite new year's eve tradition is to go to bed at 10pm and wake up in the new year feeling well rested 🫶
January 1, 2026 at 5:05 AM
My favorite new year's eve tradition is to go to bed at 10pm and wake up in the new year feeling well rested 🫶
Probably my biggest weakness is that I only really enjoy things if I do them with other people. So if no one's free to hang out, I have very little interest in doing anything
December 31, 2025 at 1:43 AM
Probably my biggest weakness is that I only really enjoy things if I do them with other people. So if no one's free to hang out, I have very little interest in doing anything
Part of me wishes there was a word for men that was as cutting as "slut" or "bitch." If men are allowed to say "bitch" we should at least get some equal opportunity
December 30, 2025 at 9:35 PM
Part of me wishes there was a word for men that was as cutting as "slut" or "bitch." If men are allowed to say "bitch" we should at least get some equal opportunity
I think having low empathy might've helped me be better at supporting people too. Like apparently empathy wears out after a while? And I've heard people saying they can't empathize with someone and then dismiss their experiences because of that
December 27, 2025 at 8:20 AM
I think having low empathy might've helped me be better at supporting people too. Like apparently empathy wears out after a while? And I've heard people saying they can't empathize with someone and then dismiss their experiences because of that
Ironically, caring a lot about other people made me misanthropic. I see everyone NOT caring about other people and it makes me hate them. I still care about them though
December 27, 2025 at 8:05 AM
Ironically, caring a lot about other people made me misanthropic. I see everyone NOT caring about other people and it makes me hate them. I still care about them though
I went from a 2nd grader who does algebra for fun to a barely-functioning autistic adult who will probably never work full time. I don't even know how to put how I feel into words. I had so much potential. I was going to become an engineer. Now I can't even pay my own rent at age 26
December 27, 2025 at 1:48 AM
I went from a 2nd grader who does algebra for fun to a barely-functioning autistic adult who will probably never work full time. I don't even know how to put how I feel into words. I had so much potential. I was going to become an engineer. Now I can't even pay my own rent at age 26
Every time I'm back at my parents' house I remember a new fucked up thing my mom used to do. Like yell at me for deep breathing, because I think she thought it was a passive-aggressive sigh? Or follow me and yell at me when I tried to take space cause I closed the door too loud (never intentionally)
December 25, 2025 at 6:26 PM
Every time I'm back at my parents' house I remember a new fucked up thing my mom used to do. Like yell at me for deep breathing, because I think she thought it was a passive-aggressive sigh? Or follow me and yell at me when I tried to take space cause I closed the door too loud (never intentionally)
My parents are fine now. But growing up constantly in pain and ignored and punished for things outside my control has whittled away my caring and love and respect for them, and for people in general. That caring and love and respect is slowly healing. Emphasis on slow
December 25, 2025 at 4:48 AM
My parents are fine now. But growing up constantly in pain and ignored and punished for things outside my control has whittled away my caring and love and respect for them, and for people in general. That caring and love and respect is slowly healing. Emphasis on slow
Particularly extreme one of these just happened! Texting my friend, reassuring her that I'm not mad at her, thanking and praising her for communicating a boundary, and whisper-singing Eminem's Kill You
Having low empathy but still caring a lot is weird. I'll be comforting a friend crying on my shoulder, feeling absolutely nothing and jamming out to some upbeat song in my head, but still doing everything I can to help them because I want them to feel better
December 22, 2025 at 5:38 AM
Particularly extreme one of these just happened! Texting my friend, reassuring her that I'm not mad at her, thanking and praising her for communicating a boundary, and whisper-singing Eminem's Kill You
I got another one today: Feeling two seemingly contradictory emotions completely normally at the same time. At full normal intensity, not interacting in any noticeable way
I haven't mentioned this, but I sometimes feel emotions that I'm pretty sure most people don't feel. Right now I'm feeling one that I haven't felt in a long time
I feel an underlying sadness, except the sadness doesn't feel bad. ("Negative" emotions that feel good or neutral aren't uncommon for me🧵
I feel an underlying sadness, except the sadness doesn't feel bad. ("Negative" emotions that feel good or neutral aren't uncommon for me🧵
December 20, 2025 at 5:56 AM
I got another one today: Feeling two seemingly contradictory emotions completely normally at the same time. At full normal intensity, not interacting in any noticeable way
In theory I'm a slut. In practice there's only 2 people I trust with my body
December 20, 2025 at 1:54 AM
In theory I'm a slut. In practice there's only 2 people I trust with my body
Random fact: Every best friend I've ever had has been a different race. My first was pacific islander, my 2nd was (southeast) asian, my 3rd was black, my 4th was arab, and my 5th and current is white. I didn't do that intentionally it just happened that way
December 18, 2025 at 8:22 PM
Random fact: Every best friend I've ever had has been a different race. My first was pacific islander, my 2nd was (southeast) asian, my 3rd was black, my 4th was arab, and my 5th and current is white. I didn't do that intentionally it just happened that way
Some people say it's because they care about them, and it hurts to see them like this. You don't care about them. You just have an emotional response to seeing them depressed, and you got rid of that response at their expense.
December 16, 2025 at 12:20 AM
Some people say it's because they care about them, and it hurts to see them like this. You don't care about them. You just have an emotional response to seeing them depressed, and you got rid of that response at their expense.
This is the kinda thing that makes me not wanna have friends.
December 15, 2025 at 7:33 PM
This is the kinda thing that makes me not wanna have friends.
Hot take: If you cut off your best friend or committed partner because they're depressed, and later on they kill themselves, you have no right to go on and on about how much you miss them.
December 15, 2025 at 5:34 PM
Hot take: If you cut off your best friend or committed partner because they're depressed, and later on they kill themselves, you have no right to go on and on about how much you miss them.
I haven't mentioned this, but I sometimes feel emotions that I'm pretty sure most people don't feel. Right now I'm feeling one that I haven't felt in a long time
I feel an underlying sadness, except the sadness doesn't feel bad. ("Negative" emotions that feel good or neutral aren't uncommon for me🧵
I feel an underlying sadness, except the sadness doesn't feel bad. ("Negative" emotions that feel good or neutral aren't uncommon for me🧵
December 14, 2025 at 7:10 PM
I haven't mentioned this, but I sometimes feel emotions that I'm pretty sure most people don't feel. Right now I'm feeling one that I haven't felt in a long time
I feel an underlying sadness, except the sadness doesn't feel bad. ("Negative" emotions that feel good or neutral aren't uncommon for me🧵
I feel an underlying sadness, except the sadness doesn't feel bad. ("Negative" emotions that feel good or neutral aren't uncommon for me🧵
I recently made a huge breakthrough in understanding my trauma. The breakthrough is something I've been trying to understand for years, and I thought it would be really helpful for trauma processing. But so far it's given me nothing. I just feel more sad and helpless and overwhelmed
December 12, 2025 at 4:51 AM
I recently made a huge breakthrough in understanding my trauma. The breakthrough is something I've been trying to understand for years, and I thought it would be really helpful for trauma processing. But so far it's given me nothing. I just feel more sad and helpless and overwhelmed