Maybe a show about getting past your ex that probably isn't good for you but isn't a bad person was what I needed to see, but man it didn't feel good. It was a good show, but man..

She's an equal opportunity pervert, I just know it

I can't do anything without feeling the same thing over and over and over and over. I'm so sick of it. I'm so sick of being touch-starved, of being unwanted, of spending nights alone. I want to run into the arms of anyone that'll take me, but that's just how I got hurt before..

Like..I spend so much time Masking to please other people and I don't even realize I'm doing it. I don't know how to check in with myself and actually listen to what I feel, I just mask mask mask mask

It's worthless to spend so long pining after something that feels like it just hurts me when I have it..

Sex was alwaus this big symbol to me of my lack of intimacy and love, and in wanting it I pushed myself into situations that hurt me. Now I'm Trying to piece myself back together, trying to love myself, and all I can think about is how no one wants to love me that way

It's like..I guess it makes sense that someone with a fraught sexual history would have such complicated feelings about it, but man it really makes building healthy romantic relationships difficult

We're watching The Shining for Thanksgiving and unrelated to anything I need someone with big deep fuckin shelly duvall-ass eyes to sweep me off my feet

Thank you for making it!

Seriously tho boys and guys can be lesbians, can be girls, and can still be boys! And lesbians that are into them are not any less valid! Mspec lesbians are not going away so fuck you