Necessary update is that I’m feeling so much better and get the dressing off tomorrow morning. Still heavily relying on drugs but I can feel the progress and I’m feeling positive.

Yea it’s a crazy feeling. But I’m super helpful that I’ll feel better in a couple weeks.

It’s all we have to look forward to and it’s going to be amazing to see a more harrowing reality than ours for a few minutes ever week.

What absolute asshattery. No we don’t trust you or want you around anymore. Hell I’m still pissed at NPR and their absolute disgrace of “coverage” and weakness journalism this last few years.

I really do think so many millennials and their parents, but have better relationship relationships if they would have allowed the idea of autism and ADHD to be discussed openly and understood the way they are now. It’s really heartbreaking.

It’s a little frustrating because I was always denied any sort of validation of my ADHD and was almost pulled out of school when I counselor had begun, diagnosing me, and mentioned it to my parents.

Especially if they intersected with his in someway, and he made a lot of friends through Toastmasters. But I’m pretty sure my dad would be deeply offended and rather angry. If you ever call him autistic, although looking back at most of my interactions with him, I’m realizing more and more he was.

But it wasn’t just him. There were many other others just like him that would do the same thing. It got to the point where toastmasters itself was one of his special interest, and he would talk about it for hours. He was always very excited to learn about someone else’s special interest.

I remember him being very excited on the weeks where it was his turn to share. And he would joke about how whenever it was his week. Somehow they always went almost an hour to two hours over their time. This was because he would talk about one of his special interests.

I mean, my dad had a captive audience where he learned to talk eloquently, including tone, internation, and other tactics about his special interests. He was always very excited to learn new things about how people might perceive something you say by the way you say it.

The city is so much it’s people and not just what it produces that we all know about and I’m worried that after these fires are gone and property is bought up for pennies on a dollar what will be left. Will city be able to create the same way it had if it’s Heart is gone?

The magical thing about that city isn’t the thing that people know about it’s the parks. It’s the hidden wilderness inside the city. It’s the little restaurant that all the locals go to. It’s a studio for someone who shares their art that you’ve never heard of and may never again

They will rebuild everything. I worry about so many of the interesting small private wonderful parts of LA not surviving though and being brought up by some private equity firm and turned into some popular spot for tourists and trust fund kids we know the city will survive, but will it’s heart?

I was with family just outside San Diego the day before the fire started and so much of me wanted to go back to see things one last time as silly and shallow and horrible as that would be. It would’ve been nice to sort of say goodbye although we know there’s nothing that will keep that city down.

I’m sitting here in the middle of the country looking at all these places, burn fire spreading so far and wide and trying to remember how many scenes were shot in some of those streets how many memories we have of a place only in pictures. It breaks my heart.

Of course, the economic cost of this fire is going to be staggering, and I don’t think people are ready to talk about that and realize what LA is worth to the country and into the world. But besides money, the displacement of so much talent in the people who bring stories to life is horrifying.