I do remember doing this once or twice.. but I just took a Valium chaser when that happened... I'm also not a doctor and probably wouldn't recommend anything beyond keeping an eye on your heart rate and nausea :/ slow deep breaths, hopefully you'll be okay 💜

I saw an article a week or so ago saying the pay is like $150k a year so why wouldn't someone do it as a career. I just inferred as being propaganda since that income amount just seems so low for *that* stressful of a job and responsibility 😬

thank you so much for your kindness 💜

okay I don't feel so weird about it now. it's now Day 16 since exposure, and the sweetness is now day 3. I gotta take this one day at a time I think. Pedialyte gets salty then it doesn't, which is also bizarre. Thank you for sharing your experience with me! Always helps to know I'm not alone 💜

oh and playing music.

One of my acoustic guitars is going into the living room. No more of this shyness shit. No more excuses. It's in my genes to play and sing, and not doing it is a waste. That's the only regret I'll allow myself to wear.

the sweetness happened to you too?! I thought it was probably due to my my vape, even though that's a strange thing to suddenly happen but lungs were built for air so anything's possible? 🤷🏼‍♀️😂 but that's probably the standout, hacking up strawberries wtfffff XD

I did everything I could to not be like my mother, but it still happened anyway.. now that's someone's head I never want to get back into again - that much I do know. Could kiss the ground it was just nurture and not nature, and I was able to get out of those thought loops while I could 💜

I'll take all the strength I can get 💜 this is where some painful things may happen and might become final, but I'd rather do it while my parents are still walking the earth, and love them all more than I hate the situation... I don't excuse the bad behavior, but my dad and brothers are victims too

you poor thing :/ I'm hoping the Sudafed and Flonase will keep any possible sinus infections away from me, but that's where all fingers and toes are crossed. I'm glad my cats haven't been sick most of all tbh

Yesterday I just stayed in bed all day, today I'm a bit more energetic but I don't want to overdo it. At least I can taste things! Even if hacking up phlegm has a sweetness to it? wtf? it's even grosser like that IMHO 😂 my immune system is already pretty bad, so I'm being pretty ginger with things

I needed that off my chest. I think that when it comes to forgiveness, it's not about others; I think it's about forgiving yourself - anything someone else has done doesn't feel as heavy anymore. I can't get that time back, but I can use what time I have left to love a bit harder & break this curse

I'll be 40 next birthday, so I just want to have this divide and deception put to bed, some truth on the table, and be able to share my story. My narrative has been told by others since I was 5, and that's a horrific reality to realize and face. It's cost my home, my identity, my name, and my life

My entire existence has been an illusion - it wasn't my violent marriage, it wasn't my brother's temper, it wasn't my dad leaving... it was a mentally unwell mother who had my blind spots well and truly covered. I think today or tomorrow will be when I find out how a discussion with my Dad goes 💜😬

once impossible are reaching a healing point. I never thought I'd be able to speak with BOTH brothers again, and currently waiting on possibly speaking with my dad again - another situation I never thought would be possible. I'm possibly opening up a new can of hurt with this, but I have to try

Ah thank you 😩 yes the sinus pressure and headaches have been next level. I'm so glad my throat isn't feeling like Caesar's back anymore more than anything. It seems if I light a match I can smell the sulfur, not sure if that's a safe measure 😂 but it tells me I've got some nose fight left lol

oh god, that's alarming 😱 my taste/smell skyrocketed to superhuman strength after my weightloss surgery, so I'm hoping it balances out to what it used to be :/ maybe? idk, this is just a disgustingly insidious illness 😩

damnit XD