Flashback to dropping an Atari 800XL on my foot and somehow catching the cartridge slot with my toes. No blood but gosh it hurt.

(The Atari itself was completely unscathed.)

You have worked hard and you are a good writer. If this isn't enough it's not you, it is this unfair world. This is a particularly hard & painful era for creative people generally and writers specifically. If you're burnt out then that's understandable and okay. I hope you can rest and recover.

As a bonus, if you tell a creator you like something you might get more of it. I have written sequels because a single person told me they liked the first one. Knowing that someone cares is strong motivation.

I think that part of the cleverness of the show--and everyone involved--is that it recognises how life does swerve from comedy to mundanity to violence and horror suddenly, and with no warning or explanation. It's considered to be surreal and weird, and it is, but it's also true.

Back when I suffered severe insomnia Fire Walk With Me came on TV at around 3 in the morning. Watching it in that state of sleep-deprivation, in that soft semi-conscious state, felt like it unlocked new parts of my brain.

I think it might be a reference to the hit 90s/00s sitcom Frasier (a spin-off from the hit 80s/90s sitcom Cheers).

But I'm not an expert in deep Frasier/Cheers lore so I couldn't say for certain.

Between identity stuff and realising I'm probably autistic it's been a bit of a year--your post made me feel less alone so thank you too.

Hi Kerry! I'm BJK, also pan and NB. He/they works pretty well for me. I really get what you mean about that stupid feeling. I mostly blame the lack of options when I was young. I just got an identity stamped on me. Nobody told me there were alternatives. How were we supposed to know?