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ed/mh vent 🪽• 25 • cash and fantasy babe its all the same
its fine its literally fine i can lose it all again and more. do u know how many times this line of thinking has prevented me from offing myself tho lol i Always think im not skinny enough and the prospect of getting skinnier literally stops me which is funny bc ud think i would learn from losing at
December 7, 2025 at 10:53 PM
its fine its literally fine i can lose it all again and more. do u know how many times this line of thinking has prevented me from offing myself tho lol i Always think im not skinny enough and the prospect of getting skinnier literally stops me which is funny bc ud think i would learn from losing at
just feeling (and probably being) fat as FUCK after a binge the pants fittting tighter and everything fucking kill me
December 7, 2025 at 10:46 PM
just feeling (and probably being) fat as FUCK after a binge the pants fittting tighter and everything fucking kill me
was stressed abt today after doing so well (as in i was sober for like three consecutive days lmfao) so i did thr whole drunk binge thing again and surprise now im miserable and had 30min of sleep And im still stressed lmao when will it end 👍😄
December 7, 2025 at 9:59 PM
was stressed abt today after doing so well (as in i was sober for like three consecutive days lmfao) so i did thr whole drunk binge thing again and surprise now im miserable and had 30min of sleep And im still stressed lmao when will it end 👍😄
they should invent a job specifically for me
December 5, 2025 at 9:26 AM
they should invent a job specifically for me
i dont want to ruin our relationship (one of them idgaf abt so next time he fucks up idc if i lose my shit) bc shes nice and we basically only have to get thru december so i just need to Let It Go like usual but im Angry lol and theres no nice diplomatic way to say pls do ur fucking job and ik part
ironically enough im one of the few ppl who know whats going on at work and the amt of hate i have towards certain coworkers is insane im usually apathetic abt ppl but i hate them sm i hate hyperdependent entitled ppl who dont even Try to figure smth out before asking someone bitch im not genie or
December 2, 2025 at 8:35 AM
i dont want to ruin our relationship (one of them idgaf abt so next time he fucks up idc if i lose my shit) bc shes nice and we basically only have to get thru december so i just need to Let It Go like usual but im Angry lol and theres no nice diplomatic way to say pls do ur fucking job and ik part
not sick enough not good at my studies no desire to work and painfully sensitive abt everything what am i supposed to DOOOO
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December 1, 2025 at 8:23 AM
not sick enough not good at my studies no desire to work and painfully sensitive abt everything what am i supposed to DOOOO
mmmmmm biking is one of my fav things to do but i havent biked in so longggggggg
November 24, 2025 at 3:01 PM
mmmmmm biking is one of my fav things to do but i havent biked in so longggggggg
plastic surgery is like… everything i dont believe in plus i dont have money but as a korean living in kr i have fomo lol what Could my face Potentially look like.. we’ll never know
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November 24, 2025 at 2:57 PM
plastic surgery is like… everything i dont believe in plus i dont have money but as a korean living in kr i have fomo lol what Could my face Potentially look like.. we’ll never know
i like learning new things but i dont like not being immediately amazing at them
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November 24, 2025 at 2:46 PM
i like learning new things but i dont like not being immediately amazing at them
been having gi issues for a while now and yesterday i diarrhea’d so hard i woke to my lw but also im too scared to eat rn at work in case i shit my pants
November 24, 2025 at 1:51 AM
been having gi issues for a while now and yesterday i diarrhea’d so hard i woke to my lw but also im too scared to eat rn at work in case i shit my pants
i need to acc end it all some time soon bc i still sob uncontrollably when i think abt my dog and i dont know how i would handle my cat eventually dying too ik its selfish but i need to die before her like just the day before in case she gets sad i cant take anymore tragedy ik its selfish but i cant
November 22, 2025 at 1:32 PM
i need to acc end it all some time soon bc i still sob uncontrollably when i think abt my dog and i dont know how i would handle my cat eventually dying too ik its selfish but i need to die before her like just the day before in case she gets sad i cant take anymore tragedy ik its selfish but i cant
rapid wl would be the only thing that helps rn im afraid
November 22, 2025 at 10:48 AM
rapid wl would be the only thing that helps rn im afraid
man these deadlines just keep coming im so tiredddddd
November 21, 2025 at 3:52 PM
man these deadlines just keep coming im so tiredddddd
actually i need the degree my ego needs it. ill die trying (not bc i work hard but bc im jist suicidal as default) whi cares. its not like im gonna look for jobs rn so. part of me wishes this december will be like the dec from two yrs ago bc i finally was insane enough to lose control and i was just
November 18, 2025 at 7:08 PM
actually i need the degree my ego needs it. ill die trying (not bc i work hard but bc im jist suicidal as default) whi cares. its not like im gonna look for jobs rn so. part of me wishes this december will be like the dec from two yrs ago bc i finally was insane enough to lose control and i was just
im so depressed i might finally drop out (ik i say this every week im sorry) and itd be kind of nice bc i could watch the films ive been wanting to and i just know the self hatred would help me starve (in theory. could go the other way bc im a fuckup) so the relapse would be 💯
November 18, 2025 at 12:28 PM
im so depressed i might finally drop out (ik i say this every week im sorry) and itd be kind of nice bc i could watch the films ive been wanting to and i just know the self hatred would help me starve (in theory. could go the other way bc im a fuckup) so the relapse would be 💯
can i just die without kms i dont need all that i dont wanna be that dramatic just take me out in my sleep ive been begging for yrs
November 17, 2025 at 1:44 PM
can i just die without kms i dont need all that i dont wanna be that dramatic just take me out in my sleep ive been begging for yrs
life is beautiful i realized that today just like i do everday but i get drunk and think abt my dead dog and man is this all worthless what i would give to have a moment with you
November 17, 2025 at 10:00 AM
life is beautiful i realized that today just like i do everday but i get drunk and think abt my dead dog and man is this all worthless what i would give to have a moment with you
ok but what if i only think abt piercings and tattoos when im drunk also i literally had a biopsy once while still drunk help i bled abit more than normal but i didnt die so ?
November 17, 2025 at 9:14 AM
ok but what if i only think abt piercings and tattoos when im drunk also i literally had a biopsy once while still drunk help i bled abit more than normal but i didnt die so ?
they should invent a state of being between I Must Kms NOW and Life is SO Beautiful
November 14, 2025 at 9:38 AM
they should invent a state of being between I Must Kms NOW and Life is SO Beautiful
never the smartest or the most successful or the prettiest or the skinniest and skinniest should be easiest to do yet i “cant” even do that so
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November 13, 2025 at 8:45 AM
never the smartest or the most successful or the prettiest or the skinniest and skinniest should be easiest to do yet i “cant” even do that so
she put crack in the lines i thought you were gonna catch me i never stopped falling for you
November 13, 2025 at 8:43 AM
she put crack in the lines i thought you were gonna catch me i never stopped falling for you
ppl i went to hs w look… older now? we’re no longer fifteen sixteen oh my god its been literally ten years
November 12, 2025 at 7:00 PM
ppl i went to hs w look… older now? we’re no longer fifteen sixteen oh my god its been literally ten years
why does my stomach hurt more often than not. somethings Not Right but what would i even say to the dr help i have a tummyache?
November 12, 2025 at 4:03 PM
why does my stomach hurt more often than not. somethings Not Right but what would i even say to the dr help i have a tummyache?
went to the function had some beer didnt crash out ate more than i should have but i didnt go to another bar afterwards and i think i acted normal but now im on the subway and the emptiness™️ is creeping in again plus a bunch of emotions i cant name when will i know peace
November 12, 2025 at 2:03 PM
went to the function had some beer didnt crash out ate more than i should have but i didnt go to another bar afterwards and i think i acted normal but now im on the subway and the emptiness™️ is creeping in again plus a bunch of emotions i cant name when will i know peace
i feel bad for k@fka it seems like he really hated himself sm. just like me fr
November 12, 2025 at 3:19 AM
i feel bad for k@fka it seems like he really hated himself sm. just like me fr