RIGHT?! I feel sorry for the het purists cause the DRAMA from these subtexts is just... *madly rips into it with their teeth*

WHERE-*goes rabid for a second*

*ahem* Oh how I do so wish I knew where said Mevika fics were... *wipes foam from face*

I am always so in awe of the expression and movement in your work... while at the same time everything still looks so painted and... Idk if smooth is the right word but maybe more like "finished." It's just gorgeous!

Also I was nervous about posting NSFW but saw that a bit back it stemmed from being NSFW so hopefully that's ooookay. *thumbs up*

4-Omfg and it's made worse because on some of these I think we've come to an understanding ("Oh, its like when I watch some guy machine a screw for 4 hours") he'll forget 2 days later and go back to being an ass about my kid watching LDShadowlady or something ("I think she needs a boyfriend")

3-And to get this from everyone because you stand out as "this person is x so I can ask them about x issue"... I understood the concept before but now... ugh the rage I feel at even thinking about the trap conversations I have with my dad where I have to defend... idk... watching "lets plays."

2-Because of the power dynamic I have to weigh every time if I want to engage in this conversation with a dad who I would enjoy having a conversation with but the "trap" conversations can literally enrage/depress me for days... but the risk of not engaging could also make for a pissy dad

And I was told this is a move insurance companies are making across the board... federally...

Ours is through my SOs work... Cigna... but issue is they've just told me, after weeks of trying to get them to move their asses with the prior auth, that next year they will not cover chemical or physical gender affirming care. Thanks to their foot dragging a December surgery is unlikely.

I let myself get hope that I wouldn't have to... live with this anymore. I have support, people who love me, and I know there's still options to chase but... I don't want to live with this anymore after letting myself dream... I... just... can't. And why? Why is it so bad?

I have therapist and doctor support, backed by current day science and psychology, saying T and top surgery are ok and valid and will help me not throw myself off a bridge... that it's medical care. So why? Why do I need to keep these tumors just for someone elses comfort? Their sick satisfaction?