becky - a tortured poet
@beccalizz.bsky.social
amateur writer | wannabe stand up comedian | 30 | DV survivor | literally always online (she/her) | Lupus | POTS | all views are mine
https://soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/
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ended this week by decorating the house for christmas.
this is what you can see from where i’m sitting 😂 im too tired to get up
this is what you can see from where i’m sitting 😂 im too tired to get up
December 1, 2025 at 1:29 AM
ended this week by decorating the house for christmas.
this is what you can see from where i’m sitting 😂 im too tired to get up
this is what you can see from where i’m sitting 😂 im too tired to get up
taking headshots for my mom’s coworkers.
which also means batch making some content for tiktok bc i both left the house and did my makeup and the last time both those things happened is unknown to me.
which also means batch making some content for tiktok bc i both left the house and did my makeup and the last time both those things happened is unknown to me.
November 3, 2025 at 7:44 PM
taking headshots for my mom’s coworkers.
which also means batch making some content for tiktok bc i both left the house and did my makeup and the last time both those things happened is unknown to me.
which also means batch making some content for tiktok bc i both left the house and did my makeup and the last time both those things happened is unknown to me.
and more!!
like. i’m going insane. this book changed me and you’re telling me that bc jk rowling played a role in creating a universe that inspired the work that inspired this book im transphobic?? absolutely not.
like. i’m going insane. this book changed me and you’re telling me that bc jk rowling played a role in creating a universe that inspired the work that inspired this book im transphobic?? absolutely not.
October 2, 2025 at 6:45 PM
and more!!
like. i’m going insane. this book changed me and you’re telling me that bc jk rowling played a role in creating a universe that inspired the work that inspired this book im transphobic?? absolutely not.
like. i’m going insane. this book changed me and you’re telling me that bc jk rowling played a role in creating a universe that inspired the work that inspired this book im transphobic?? absolutely not.
some quotes (mild spoilers) from the book i’m being attacked for reading by keyboard warriors on tiktok. like. PLEASE. be fucking serious.
October 2, 2025 at 6:45 PM
some quotes (mild spoilers) from the book i’m being attacked for reading by keyboard warriors on tiktok. like. PLEASE. be fucking serious.
it is october 1st which means i will once again be going through this immaculate list of horror films provided by @masmus.bsky.social
i asked him last year what he would recommend for someone who grew up without being allowed horror flicks.
as this is the 2nd year, it is now established tradition
i asked him last year what he would recommend for someone who grew up without being allowed horror flicks.
as this is the 2nd year, it is now established tradition
October 1, 2025 at 10:25 PM
it is october 1st which means i will once again be going through this immaculate list of horror films provided by @masmus.bsky.social
i asked him last year what he would recommend for someone who grew up without being allowed horror flicks.
as this is the 2nd year, it is now established tradition
i asked him last year what he would recommend for someone who grew up without being allowed horror flicks.
as this is the 2nd year, it is now established tradition
going through some extensive medical testing currently - haven’t said much bc honestly it’s overwhelming and i feel miserable.
anyways. thanks to my dad for these moments of levity in the hard stuff 😂😂
anyways. thanks to my dad for these moments of levity in the hard stuff 😂😂
September 14, 2025 at 9:13 PM
going through some extensive medical testing currently - haven’t said much bc honestly it’s overwhelming and i feel miserable.
anyways. thanks to my dad for these moments of levity in the hard stuff 😂😂
anyways. thanks to my dad for these moments of levity in the hard stuff 😂😂
as important as it is for scripture to not be taken out of context and misapplied - i would say the same is true of quotes from classic literature.
one of my favorites comes from Moby Dick
“i know not all that may be coming, but be it what it will, i’ll go to it laughing”
one of my favorites comes from Moby Dick
“i know not all that may be coming, but be it what it will, i’ll go to it laughing”
August 15, 2025 at 2:12 AM
as important as it is for scripture to not be taken out of context and misapplied - i would say the same is true of quotes from classic literature.
one of my favorites comes from Moby Dick
“i know not all that may be coming, but be it what it will, i’ll go to it laughing”
one of my favorites comes from Moby Dick
“i know not all that may be coming, but be it what it will, i’ll go to it laughing”
oh the IG filter is going to dominate my life.
August 14, 2025 at 1:15 AM
oh the IG filter is going to dominate my life.
once again here to confirm that i am 99.8% straight - that .2% is taylor alison swift.
August 14, 2025 at 12:12 AM
once again here to confirm that i am 99.8% straight - that .2% is taylor alison swift.
she’s moving on from the manuscript of tortured poets into the life of a showgirl !!!!!
August 12, 2025 at 4:39 AM
she’s moving on from the manuscript of tortured poets into the life of a showgirl !!!!!
being a woman on the internet! a story in 4 photos!
i posted this 20 minutes ago and i actually thought i posted a nude accidentally with how quickly my notifications went off.
i posted this 20 minutes ago and i actually thought i posted a nude accidentally with how quickly my notifications went off.
July 29, 2025 at 12:09 AM
being a woman on the internet! a story in 4 photos!
i posted this 20 minutes ago and i actually thought i posted a nude accidentally with how quickly my notifications went off.
i posted this 20 minutes ago and i actually thought i posted a nude accidentally with how quickly my notifications went off.
we clean up pretty good
July 26, 2025 at 10:33 AM
we clean up pretty good
not me being caught shoeless and with a diet coke 😂😂
July 26, 2025 at 1:02 AM
not me being caught shoeless and with a diet coke 😂😂
another surreal moment is seeing all the decor make it there and actually look put together.
i’m grateful it didn’t look DIY in the end lol
i’m grateful it didn’t look DIY in the end lol
July 25, 2025 at 3:53 AM
another surreal moment is seeing all the decor make it there and actually look put together.
i’m grateful it didn’t look DIY in the end lol
i’m grateful it didn’t look DIY in the end lol
how you know you nailed it at the MOH sister speech.
1- i’m laughing
2- she’s mortified
3- everyone else is laughing while looking at her
1- i’m laughing
2- she’s mortified
3- everyone else is laughing while looking at her
July 25, 2025 at 3:27 AM
how you know you nailed it at the MOH sister speech.
1- i’m laughing
2- she’s mortified
3- everyone else is laughing while looking at her
1- i’m laughing
2- she’s mortified
3- everyone else is laughing while looking at her
the pics came back and i like how i look in them 😭😭😭💜💜💜💜
(posting this here bc it is entirely selfish to go through a 3000+ pic archive and find only the ones with you in it….but i had to know!!!)
(posting this here bc it is entirely selfish to go through a 3000+ pic archive and find only the ones with you in it….but i had to know!!!)
July 25, 2025 at 3:04 AM
the pics came back and i like how i look in them 😭😭😭💜💜💜💜
(posting this here bc it is entirely selfish to go through a 3000+ pic archive and find only the ones with you in it….but i had to know!!!)
(posting this here bc it is entirely selfish to go through a 3000+ pic archive and find only the ones with you in it….but i had to know!!!)
my sweetie boy is SIX today 🫶🏻✨😘
July 18, 2025 at 12:57 AM
my sweetie boy is SIX today 🫶🏻✨😘
have a friend who wants to learn to edit photos himself that people often ask AI to create - so he can sell his services on tiktok as a photographer and editor.
he asked to do a test rub on a pic of me from the wedding and he turned it into this and it’s become my whole personality — WHO IS SHE?!
he asked to do a test rub on a pic of me from the wedding and he turned it into this and it’s become my whole personality — WHO IS SHE?!
July 14, 2025 at 4:46 PM
have a friend who wants to learn to edit photos himself that people often ask AI to create - so he can sell his services on tiktok as a photographer and editor.
he asked to do a test rub on a pic of me from the wedding and he turned it into this and it’s become my whole personality — WHO IS SHE?!
he asked to do a test rub on a pic of me from the wedding and he turned it into this and it’s become my whole personality — WHO IS SHE?!
i will not begrudge anyone their right to shop amazon on prime day. times are tough and things are expensive and we do what we need to.
but this is my annual warning that amazon often hikes the prices to make the sales look better.
for example:
i had been considering these
but this is my annual warning that amazon often hikes the prices to make the sales look better.
for example:
i had been considering these
July 8, 2025 at 2:25 PM
i will not begrudge anyone their right to shop amazon on prime day. times are tough and things are expensive and we do what we need to.
but this is my annual warning that amazon often hikes the prices to make the sales look better.
for example:
i had been considering these
but this is my annual warning that amazon often hikes the prices to make the sales look better.
for example:
i had been considering these
the new betrayal
not like the brazen giant once we praised,
with outstretched torch and welcome in her gaze;
now stands a gate, encircled, set ablaze—
its hinges rusted, golden dreams erased.
no more the mother of exiles, disgraced,
her lamp extinguished in the border haze.
not like the brazen giant once we praised,
with outstretched torch and welcome in her gaze;
now stands a gate, encircled, set ablaze—
its hinges rusted, golden dreams erased.
no more the mother of exiles, disgraced,
her lamp extinguished in the border haze.
July 4, 2025 at 2:49 PM
the new betrayal
not like the brazen giant once we praised,
with outstretched torch and welcome in her gaze;
now stands a gate, encircled, set ablaze—
its hinges rusted, golden dreams erased.
no more the mother of exiles, disgraced,
her lamp extinguished in the border haze.
not like the brazen giant once we praised,
with outstretched torch and welcome in her gaze;
now stands a gate, encircled, set ablaze—
its hinges rusted, golden dreams erased.
no more the mother of exiles, disgraced,
her lamp extinguished in the border haze.
joy is hard to come by and harder to grasp.
so today my joy is that the moka pot my parents got me came in 😍
do i need more caffeine at this moment in history? no.
but now i can make my fave latte at home. and i’m glad.
so today my joy is that the moka pot my parents got me came in 😍
do i need more caffeine at this moment in history? no.
but now i can make my fave latte at home. and i’m glad.
July 4, 2025 at 12:15 AM
joy is hard to come by and harder to grasp.
so today my joy is that the moka pot my parents got me came in 😍
do i need more caffeine at this moment in history? no.
but now i can make my fave latte at home. and i’m glad.
so today my joy is that the moka pot my parents got me came in 😍
do i need more caffeine at this moment in history? no.
but now i can make my fave latte at home. and i’m glad.
i’ve created what i like to call my “summertime kitchen sink pasta salad”
where i take whatever i have leftover in my fridge, whatever pasta i have on hand, and some dressing and call it dinner.
tortellini, mozzarella pearls, leftover diced bell pepper, leftover diced red onion, leftover salami
where i take whatever i have leftover in my fridge, whatever pasta i have on hand, and some dressing and call it dinner.
tortellini, mozzarella pearls, leftover diced bell pepper, leftover diced red onion, leftover salami
June 30, 2025 at 10:08 PM
i’ve created what i like to call my “summertime kitchen sink pasta salad”
where i take whatever i have leftover in my fridge, whatever pasta i have on hand, and some dressing and call it dinner.
tortellini, mozzarella pearls, leftover diced bell pepper, leftover diced red onion, leftover salami
where i take whatever i have leftover in my fridge, whatever pasta i have on hand, and some dressing and call it dinner.
tortellini, mozzarella pearls, leftover diced bell pepper, leftover diced red onion, leftover salami
new hair has dropped !! i love !!
June 29, 2025 at 2:50 AM
new hair has dropped !! i love !!
still need to go over the darker spots again and then do the tips but so far it’s paying off 😍
June 28, 2025 at 8:45 PM
still need to go over the darker spots again and then do the tips but so far it’s paying off 😍
