becky - a tortured poet
@beccalizz.bsky.social
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laughing at the boot
on how satire, jokes, and late-night fury have tried — again and again — to keep power honest
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i’ve had this half drafted for about a week but it took a tweet from a friend to give my mind that creative push to get it finished off.
and then i bought internet on a cruise to send it.
read it here:
and then i bought internet on a cruise to send it.
read it here:
i’m in a family of passive know-it-alls and i cannot explain to you how much hell i’m in now that we are trialing a monthly game night to hang out more since gramps died.
November 29, 2025 at 9:53 PM
i’m in a family of passive know-it-alls and i cannot explain to you how much hell i’m in now that we are trialing a monthly game night to hang out more since gramps died.
i managed to go my whole life and through the promo for two films without spoiling the plot and character connections in Wicked.
my mother spoiled the movie for me in under two minutes from the opening scene. she just leaned over and spilled the tea. like ???? help 😂
my mother spoiled the movie for me in under two minutes from the opening scene. she just leaned over and spilled the tea. like ???? help 😂
November 22, 2025 at 10:11 PM
i managed to go my whole life and through the promo for two films without spoiling the plot and character connections in Wicked.
my mother spoiled the movie for me in under two minutes from the opening scene. she just leaned over and spilled the tea. like ???? help 😂
my mother spoiled the movie for me in under two minutes from the opening scene. she just leaned over and spilled the tea. like ???? help 😂
my parents are having a spirited conversation about a hypothetical business where you rate landlords so tenants don’t get scammed.
they have had a mortgage since 1990. bought and sold 2 homes before the one they are in now.
why are they weighing pros and cons of this. i am going to die.
they have had a mortgage since 1990. bought and sold 2 homes before the one they are in now.
why are they weighing pros and cons of this. i am going to die.
November 17, 2025 at 12:25 AM
my parents are having a spirited conversation about a hypothetical business where you rate landlords so tenants don’t get scammed.
they have had a mortgage since 1990. bought and sold 2 homes before the one they are in now.
why are they weighing pros and cons of this. i am going to die.
they have had a mortgage since 1990. bought and sold 2 homes before the one they are in now.
why are they weighing pros and cons of this. i am going to die.
i am convinced the discourse about these emails is being algorithm suppressed bc how the fuck does it feel like no one is talking about it.
BUBBA BILL?? HE IS THE WORST PERSON EPSTEIN KNEW??
my brain is malfunctioning
BUBBA BILL?? HE IS THE WORST PERSON EPSTEIN KNEW??
my brain is malfunctioning
November 14, 2025 at 11:04 PM
i am convinced the discourse about these emails is being algorithm suppressed bc how the fuck does it feel like no one is talking about it.
BUBBA BILL?? HE IS THE WORST PERSON EPSTEIN KNEW??
my brain is malfunctioning
BUBBA BILL?? HE IS THE WORST PERSON EPSTEIN KNEW??
my brain is malfunctioning
“if liberals are so fucking smart how come they lose so goddamn always” - will mcavoy s1:e1 of the newsroom. the most evergreen quote of all time.
“we are reopening the govt on the PROMISE we will be allowed to vote about healthcare”
fucking morons. the lot of them.
“we are reopening the govt on the PROMISE we will be allowed to vote about healthcare”
fucking morons. the lot of them.
November 10, 2025 at 12:46 AM
“if liberals are so fucking smart how come they lose so goddamn always” - will mcavoy s1:e1 of the newsroom. the most evergreen quote of all time.
“we are reopening the govt on the PROMISE we will be allowed to vote about healthcare”
fucking morons. the lot of them.
“we are reopening the govt on the PROMISE we will be allowed to vote about healthcare”
fucking morons. the lot of them.
i will say that it feels profoundly difficult to emotionally process the hope of last year being absolutely railroaded to celebrating this year.
i’m glad for any win. any movement. but goddamnit where were you all last year.
why are we now cursed to celebrate with an asterisk of profound failure
i’m glad for any win. any movement. but goddamnit where were you all last year.
why are we now cursed to celebrate with an asterisk of profound failure
November 5, 2025 at 3:27 AM
i will say that it feels profoundly difficult to emotionally process the hope of last year being absolutely railroaded to celebrating this year.
i’m glad for any win. any movement. but goddamnit where were you all last year.
why are we now cursed to celebrate with an asterisk of profound failure
i’m glad for any win. any movement. but goddamnit where were you all last year.
why are we now cursed to celebrate with an asterisk of profound failure
look. i am the last person people look to for optimism or pollyanna perspectives.
but i have been shocked, in very good ways, by the outcomes tonight. and it goes past these very large races like VA or NYC.
my small (and VERY red town for the past 12 years) just elected a democratic mayor.
but i have been shocked, in very good ways, by the outcomes tonight. and it goes past these very large races like VA or NYC.
my small (and VERY red town for the past 12 years) just elected a democratic mayor.
November 5, 2025 at 2:56 AM
look. i am the last person people look to for optimism or pollyanna perspectives.
but i have been shocked, in very good ways, by the outcomes tonight. and it goes past these very large races like VA or NYC.
my small (and VERY red town for the past 12 years) just elected a democratic mayor.
but i have been shocked, in very good ways, by the outcomes tonight. and it goes past these very large races like VA or NYC.
my small (and VERY red town for the past 12 years) just elected a democratic mayor.
god the fact that we’ve gotten all these wins on the day dick cheney died is honestly incredible.
like he will enter that grave rolling over. he deserves every second of his legacy being overlooked.
like he will enter that grave rolling over. he deserves every second of his legacy being overlooked.
November 5, 2025 at 2:50 AM
god the fact that we’ve gotten all these wins on the day dick cheney died is honestly incredible.
like he will enter that grave rolling over. he deserves every second of his legacy being overlooked.
like he will enter that grave rolling over. he deserves every second of his legacy being overlooked.
do you know why today is a phenomenal day? it’s because the man who abused me for the better part of a decade now lives in a state run by a democrat, female governor and he can’t say shit about it without blowing his misogynistic identities he hides behind narcissism 🫶🏻😇
November 5, 2025 at 1:09 AM
do you know why today is a phenomenal day? it’s because the man who abused me for the better part of a decade now lives in a state run by a democrat, female governor and he can’t say shit about it without blowing his misogynistic identities he hides behind narcissism 🫶🏻😇
VIRGINIA MY HOME SWEET HOME I WANNA GIVE YOU A KISS
November 5, 2025 at 1:00 AM
VIRGINIA MY HOME SWEET HOME I WANNA GIVE YOU A KISS
taking headshots for my mom’s coworkers.
which also means batch making some content for tiktok bc i both left the house and did my makeup and the last time both those things happened is unknown to me.
which also means batch making some content for tiktok bc i both left the house and did my makeup and the last time both those things happened is unknown to me.
November 3, 2025 at 7:44 PM
taking headshots for my mom’s coworkers.
which also means batch making some content for tiktok bc i both left the house and did my makeup and the last time both those things happened is unknown to me.
which also means batch making some content for tiktok bc i both left the house and did my makeup and the last time both those things happened is unknown to me.
exvangelical girlhood is blasting “the black dog” and screaming “i hope it’s shitty in the black dog” as you drive by the church that tore your heart out when you were at your most earnest and sure.
October 29, 2025 at 7:24 PM
exvangelical girlhood is blasting “the black dog” and screaming “i hope it’s shitty in the black dog” as you drive by the church that tore your heart out when you were at your most earnest and sure.
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notice the general mood of the timeline? how everyone is in a good mood and there’s a lot less misery and dooming? how there’s a lot of “we’re going to beat these assholes”?
anyway that’s why these events are important
anyway that’s why these events are important
October 18, 2025 at 6:54 PM
notice the general mood of the timeline? how everyone is in a good mood and there’s a lot less misery and dooming? how there’s a lot of “we’re going to beat these assholes”?
anyway that’s why these events are important
anyway that’s why these events are important
i think that one of the reasons why taylor’s newest album was so hotly contested is bc no one knows how to chill out anymore.
i implied that part of all too well could also describe john mayer in a tiktok and i am being vilified in the town square.
i implied that part of all too well could also describe john mayer in a tiktok and i am being vilified in the town square.
October 15, 2025 at 5:13 PM
i think that one of the reasons why taylor’s newest album was so hotly contested is bc no one knows how to chill out anymore.
i implied that part of all too well could also describe john mayer in a tiktok and i am being vilified in the town square.
i implied that part of all too well could also describe john mayer in a tiktok and i am being vilified in the town square.
this is an article i wrote that i’m really proud of and i put a lot of work into it and careful thought and i have nowhere with an audience to share it.
so it would be cool if you read it!
so it would be cool if you read it!
when white allyship goes to far
on the performative moralization of whiteness in digital activism
open.substack.com
October 10, 2025 at 1:47 AM
this is an article i wrote that i’m really proud of and i put a lot of work into it and careful thought and i have nowhere with an audience to share it.
so it would be cool if you read it!
so it would be cool if you read it!
it took christians two years and an authoritarian president to finally admit we shouldn’t unilaterally back israel.
it wasn’t the genocide we’ve watched live or the belief in the basic humanity of all people - they just finally realized this israel and biblical israel are different.
it wasn’t the genocide we’ve watched live or the belief in the basic humanity of all people - they just finally realized this israel and biblical israel are different.
October 8, 2025 at 5:52 PM
it took christians two years and an authoritarian president to finally admit we shouldn’t unilaterally back israel.
it wasn’t the genocide we’ve watched live or the belief in the basic humanity of all people - they just finally realized this israel and biblical israel are different.
it wasn’t the genocide we’ve watched live or the belief in the basic humanity of all people - they just finally realized this israel and biblical israel are different.
listen. i just need taylor to not tour this album, ok? bc from when she was an opener act singing “tim mcgraw” & “picture to burn” to the Eras Tour - my tradition has been to go with my dad
i already had to endure “vigilante shit” live with him. i cannot do “wood”. i just can’t
i already had to endure “vigilante shit” live with him. i cannot do “wood”. i just can’t
October 4, 2025 at 12:06 AM
listen. i just need taylor to not tour this album, ok? bc from when she was an opener act singing “tim mcgraw” & “picture to burn” to the Eras Tour - my tradition has been to go with my dad
i already had to endure “vigilante shit” live with him. i cannot do “wood”. i just can’t
i already had to endure “vigilante shit” live with him. i cannot do “wood”. i just can’t
some quotes (mild spoilers) from the book i’m being attacked for reading by keyboard warriors on tiktok. like. PLEASE. be fucking serious.
October 2, 2025 at 6:45 PM
some quotes (mild spoilers) from the book i’m being attacked for reading by keyboard warriors on tiktok. like. PLEASE. be fucking serious.
being canceled on tiktok for saying supporting a queer author of color is not transphobic simply bc her newly published book was harry potter fanfic once upon a time.
i am not long for social media i fear…bc WHAT.
i am not long for social media i fear…bc WHAT.
October 1, 2025 at 11:16 PM
being canceled on tiktok for saying supporting a queer author of color is not transphobic simply bc her newly published book was harry potter fanfic once upon a time.
i am not long for social media i fear…bc WHAT.
i am not long for social media i fear…bc WHAT.
it is october 1st which means i will once again be going through this immaculate list of horror films provided by @masmus.bsky.social
i asked him last year what he would recommend for someone who grew up without being allowed horror flicks.
as this is the 2nd year, it is now established tradition
i asked him last year what he would recommend for someone who grew up without being allowed horror flicks.
as this is the 2nd year, it is now established tradition
October 1, 2025 at 10:25 PM
it is october 1st which means i will once again be going through this immaculate list of horror films provided by @masmus.bsky.social
i asked him last year what he would recommend for someone who grew up without being allowed horror flicks.
as this is the 2nd year, it is now established tradition
i asked him last year what he would recommend for someone who grew up without being allowed horror flicks.
as this is the 2nd year, it is now established tradition
something no one talks about is the crippling anxiety of relying on your parents as an adult and listening to them plan retirement and knowing that they won’t be around forever and also they can’t retire as soon as they want because of you.
i should be prepping an in-law suit. not extending work
i should be prepping an in-law suit. not extending work
September 26, 2025 at 1:35 AM
something no one talks about is the crippling anxiety of relying on your parents as an adult and listening to them plan retirement and knowing that they won’t be around forever and also they can’t retire as soon as they want because of you.
i should be prepping an in-law suit. not extending work
i should be prepping an in-law suit. not extending work
my brother didn’t even wish me a happy birthday as he left for work this evening and i spent all day alone and my mom came home and told me not to be a bitch 😇
what a great day !!!!
what a great day !!!!
September 25, 2025 at 10:18 PM
my brother didn’t even wish me a happy birthday as he left for work this evening and i spent all day alone and my mom came home and told me not to be a bitch 😇
what a great day !!!!
what a great day !!!!
i hate how cruel the people who abused me were on my birthday. the intentional torture they’d inflict by telling my friends they had plans with me for my birthday. but not making plans. so that i was left alone.
my birthday is one of my least favorite days bc i am on edge so much.
my birthday is one of my least favorite days bc i am on edge so much.
September 24, 2025 at 7:39 PM
i hate how cruel the people who abused me were on my birthday. the intentional torture they’d inflict by telling my friends they had plans with me for my birthday. but not making plans. so that i was left alone.
my birthday is one of my least favorite days bc i am on edge so much.
my birthday is one of my least favorite days bc i am on edge so much.
my birthday is tomorrow and i am cripplingly depressed at the state of my life and my health.
what a time to be alive.
what a time to be alive.
September 24, 2025 at 3:20 PM
my birthday is tomorrow and i am cripplingly depressed at the state of my life and my health.
what a time to be alive.
what a time to be alive.
my birthday is tomorrow. after going on a cruise i did not expect my parents to do anything extra. i know that was expensive and im grateful i got to go.
but i figured we’d still go out to dinner - me and them. and then have cake this weekend with my siblings. but it’s “not a good week”
but i figured we’d still go out to dinner - me and them. and then have cake this weekend with my siblings. but it’s “not a good week”
September 24, 2025 at 12:31 PM
my birthday is tomorrow. after going on a cruise i did not expect my parents to do anything extra. i know that was expensive and im grateful i got to go.
but i figured we’d still go out to dinner - me and them. and then have cake this weekend with my siblings. but it’s “not a good week”
but i figured we’d still go out to dinner - me and them. and then have cake this weekend with my siblings. but it’s “not a good week”