Ayesha Mattu
@ayescha.bsky.social
Joy is an act of resilience. | My books: “Love, InshAllah” & “Salaam, Love” | 🍉🍉🍉
spill color
where the world only sees
black & white. 📚
where the world only sees
black & white. 📚
September 15, 2025 at 11:00 PM
spill color
where the world only sees
black & white. 📚
where the world only sees
black & white. 📚
The Gilded Age S3 is epic.
August 17, 2025 at 8:07 PM
The Gilded Age S3 is epic.
Today is your first death anniversary, janam. I have no words. Just a shattered heart, each piece throbbing love and duas for you.
May 16, 2025 at 5:01 PM
Today is your first death anniversary, janam. I have no words. Just a shattered heart, each piece throbbing love and duas for you.
I never know if Amo’s memory/photo/belonging is going to make me laugh or weep. Ambushed by memories & overcome by love — every day.
May Allah bless you w/a garden of Paradise, Amo. May Allah bless all who love you with sabr jamilah, in hopes of reunion in a place far, far better than this. Ameen.
May Allah bless you w/a garden of Paradise, Amo. May Allah bless all who love you with sabr jamilah, in hopes of reunion in a place far, far better than this. Ameen.
March 13, 2025 at 4:43 PM
I never know if Amo’s memory/photo/belonging is going to make me laugh or weep. Ambushed by memories & overcome by love — every day.
May Allah bless you w/a garden of Paradise, Amo. May Allah bless all who love you with sabr jamilah, in hopes of reunion in a place far, far better than this. Ameen.
May Allah bless you w/a garden of Paradise, Amo. May Allah bless all who love you with sabr jamilah, in hopes of reunion in a place far, far better than this. Ameen.
10 months today.
This is one of my favorite photos of my mom with my youngest sister Amo, who died in May. Coming up on her first death anniversary and a part of me still can’t comprehend it. Perhaps a part of me never will.
Grief is love, and it is permanent and it is so very hard.
This is one of my favorite photos of my mom with my youngest sister Amo, who died in May. Coming up on her first death anniversary and a part of me still can’t comprehend it. Perhaps a part of me never will.
Grief is love, and it is permanent and it is so very hard.
March 13, 2025 at 4:43 PM
10 months today.
This is one of my favorite photos of my mom with my youngest sister Amo, who died in May. Coming up on her first death anniversary and a part of me still can’t comprehend it. Perhaps a part of me never will.
Grief is love, and it is permanent and it is so very hard.
This is one of my favorite photos of my mom with my youngest sister Amo, who died in May. Coming up on her first death anniversary and a part of me still can’t comprehend it. Perhaps a part of me never will.
Grief is love, and it is permanent and it is so very hard.
Your love life is made up of all the constellations of people who love you & are loved by you.
Don’t ever let anyone make it small. #bloomscrolling
Don’t ever let anyone make it small. #bloomscrolling
March 13, 2025 at 4:24 AM
Your love life is made up of all the constellations of people who love you & are loved by you.
Don’t ever let anyone make it small. #bloomscrolling
Don’t ever let anyone make it small. #bloomscrolling
The longer I live, the more deeply I learn that love—whether we call it friendship or family or romance is the work of mirroring and magnifying each other's light.
— James Baldwin #bloomscrolling
— James Baldwin #bloomscrolling
March 12, 2025 at 10:19 PM
The longer I live, the more deeply I learn that love—whether we call it friendship or family or romance is the work of mirroring and magnifying each other's light.
— James Baldwin #bloomscrolling
— James Baldwin #bloomscrolling
Be soft with each other so we can be dangerous together. #bloomscrolling
March 12, 2025 at 4:35 AM
Be soft with each other so we can be dangerous together. #bloomscrolling
Everything is better with a friend.
March 12, 2025 at 4:33 AM
Everything is better with a friend.
Turn fear into connection & action, not isolation. #BloomScrolling
March 11, 2025 at 6:25 AM
Turn fear into connection & action, not isolation. #BloomScrolling
A photo you’d use as an album cover.
March 11, 2025 at 1:13 AM
A photo you’d use as an album cover.
Fill your well with beauty, joy, & community as we walk & organize together through the tumult. ✨
February 24, 2025 at 1:45 AM
Fill your well with beauty, joy, & community as we walk & organize together through the tumult. ✨
Never believe the untruth that love is narrow & small, or confined to a romantic partner.
Your love life includes the constellations of people you love & are loved by. ✨
Your love life includes the constellations of people you love & are loved by. ✨
February 14, 2025 at 3:31 PM
Never believe the untruth that love is narrow & small, or confined to a romantic partner.
Your love life includes the constellations of people you love & are loved by. ✨
Your love life includes the constellations of people you love & are loved by. ✨
Miss you, Amo.
31 weeks without you.
The last two years, we watched the magnolias bloom, together.
This year, I am alone.
Everything beautiful reminds me to make dua for you.
31 weeks without you.
The last two years, we watched the magnolias bloom, together.
This year, I am alone.
Everything beautiful reminds me to make dua for you.
December 12, 2024 at 6:41 PM
Miss you, Amo.
31 weeks without you.
The last two years, we watched the magnolias bloom, together.
This year, I am alone.
Everything beautiful reminds me to make dua for you.
31 weeks without you.
The last two years, we watched the magnolias bloom, together.
This year, I am alone.
Everything beautiful reminds me to make dua for you.
“Learn to calm your own storm” is so key.
There is healing that happens within the individual, & healing that happens in relationship/community.
But to reach the latter, I had to learn to know & regulate myself.
To become tranquil, reflective water.
There is healing that happens within the individual, & healing that happens in relationship/community.
But to reach the latter, I had to learn to know & regulate myself.
To become tranquil, reflective water.
November 19, 2024 at 6:53 PM
“Learn to calm your own storm” is so key.
There is healing that happens within the individual, & healing that happens in relationship/community.
But to reach the latter, I had to learn to know & regulate myself.
To become tranquil, reflective water.
There is healing that happens within the individual, & healing that happens in relationship/community.
But to reach the latter, I had to learn to know & regulate myself.
To become tranquil, reflective water.
Rich convo between Ta-Nehisi Coates/Daniel Sokatch on book banning, emotional history, Palestine, & more.
Give it a listen & then get his book “The Message” or the audiobook (which Coates narrates). podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/c... 📚
Give it a listen & then get his book “The Message” or the audiobook (which Coates narrates). podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/c... 📚
November 1, 2024 at 8:17 PM
Rich convo between Ta-Nehisi Coates/Daniel Sokatch on book banning, emotional history, Palestine, & more.
Give it a listen & then get his book “The Message” or the audiobook (which Coates narrates). podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/c... 📚
Give it a listen & then get his book “The Message” or the audiobook (which Coates narrates). podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/c... 📚
Is a family that has lost a member to death like a river remembering its fullest point?
Longing for it, reaching for it, knowing it will never touch that place of completeness again.
Longing for it, reaching for it, knowing it will never touch that place of completeness again.
May 19, 2024 at 6:21 PM
Is a family that has lost a member to death like a river remembering its fullest point?
Longing for it, reaching for it, knowing it will never touch that place of completeness again.
Longing for it, reaching for it, knowing it will never touch that place of completeness again.
“That is how grief infects families and turns some of us into detectives.
The first grief was my mother's; I inherited it.”
- “Rules for Visiting” by Jessica Francis Kane 📚
The first grief was my mother's; I inherited it.”
- “Rules for Visiting” by Jessica Francis Kane 📚
April 9, 2024 at 12:30 AM
“That is how grief infects families and turns some of us into detectives.
The first grief was my mother's; I inherited it.”
- “Rules for Visiting” by Jessica Francis Kane 📚
The first grief was my mother's; I inherited it.”
- “Rules for Visiting” by Jessica Francis Kane 📚
Little hearts raining down on us today due to the partial eclipse in San Francisco, subhanAllah. 🤲🏾💛
April 8, 2024 at 9:06 PM
Little hearts raining down on us today due to the partial eclipse in San Francisco, subhanAllah. 🤲🏾💛
Keep your eyes where the Light pours through 💫
March 4, 2024 at 9:15 PM
Keep your eyes where the Light pours through 💫
“Spreading diseases is colonizer behavior.”
Love every slide on Covid & masking education, here: www.instagram.com/p/C3TVHEgvhD...
Love every slide on Covid & masking education, here: www.instagram.com/p/C3TVHEgvhD...
February 20, 2024 at 5:59 PM
“Spreading diseases is colonizer behavior.”
Love every slide on Covid & masking education, here: www.instagram.com/p/C3TVHEgvhD...
Love every slide on Covid & masking education, here: www.instagram.com/p/C3TVHEgvhD...
Laazim hai ki hum bhi dekhenge
Woh din jiskaa waada hai,
Jo lau-e-azl mein likha hai
Inevitably, we shall also see the day
that was promised to us, decreed
on the tablet of eternity.
Excerpt from “Hum Dekhenge” by Faiz Ahmad Faiz
faizahmedafaiznewtranslations.blogspot.com/2012/10/faiz...
Woh din jiskaa waada hai,
Jo lau-e-azl mein likha hai
Inevitably, we shall also see the day
that was promised to us, decreed
on the tablet of eternity.
Excerpt from “Hum Dekhenge” by Faiz Ahmad Faiz
faizahmedafaiznewtranslations.blogspot.com/2012/10/faiz...
January 26, 2024 at 2:11 PM
Laazim hai ki hum bhi dekhenge
Woh din jiskaa waada hai,
Jo lau-e-azl mein likha hai
Inevitably, we shall also see the day
that was promised to us, decreed
on the tablet of eternity.
Excerpt from “Hum Dekhenge” by Faiz Ahmad Faiz
faizahmedafaiznewtranslations.blogspot.com/2012/10/faiz...
Woh din jiskaa waada hai,
Jo lau-e-azl mein likha hai
Inevitably, we shall also see the day
that was promised to us, decreed
on the tablet of eternity.
Excerpt from “Hum Dekhenge” by Faiz Ahmad Faiz
faizahmedafaiznewtranslations.blogspot.com/2012/10/faiz...
Gorgeous NYT piece by Mira Jacob.
As I haven’t had Covid, I put down this transformation to stepping into my power and rage. www.nytimes.com/2023/12/28/o...
As I haven’t had Covid, I put down this transformation to stepping into my power and rage. www.nytimes.com/2023/12/28/o...
December 29, 2023 at 2:38 PM
Gorgeous NYT piece by Mira Jacob.
As I haven’t had Covid, I put down this transformation to stepping into my power and rage. www.nytimes.com/2023/12/28/o...
As I haven’t had Covid, I put down this transformation to stepping into my power and rage. www.nytimes.com/2023/12/28/o...
“For Americans to truly understand Israel's attack on Palestinians in Gaza, put their war crimes in proportion to our population:
2,404,168 Americans killed
6,326,758 Americans wounded
64,800,000 homes destroyed
284,704,123 Americans displaced”
- @rafaelshimunov.bsky.social
🧵 x.com/rafaelshimun...
2,404,168 Americans killed
6,326,758 Americans wounded
64,800,000 homes destroyed
284,704,123 Americans displaced”
- @rafaelshimunov.bsky.social
🧵 x.com/rafaelshimun...
December 5, 2023 at 5:55 PM
“For Americans to truly understand Israel's attack on Palestinians in Gaza, put their war crimes in proportion to our population:
2,404,168 Americans killed
6,326,758 Americans wounded
64,800,000 homes destroyed
284,704,123 Americans displaced”
- @rafaelshimunov.bsky.social
🧵 x.com/rafaelshimun...
2,404,168 Americans killed
6,326,758 Americans wounded
64,800,000 homes destroyed
284,704,123 Americans displaced”
- @rafaelshimunov.bsky.social
🧵 x.com/rafaelshimun...