i see myself in this post and 😭😂

my sex life is thriving. that’s basically my update

the fun thing about neurodivo sex is that baby sat on my face while we watched the og (like almost archival?) Sherlock, so

me: oh he’s big

also me: half size on his knees tho, has he considered-

and yeah, easiest solution?
go touch grass, manny.

but also i feel like i could set up my space more intentionally here

but prolly won’t b able to if i’m gonna keep overthinking this shit

because i definitely have days where i don’t want to have body much less engage with others’, but i wanted to still interact with the friends i found on the dumb bird app, but there were too many pics on main to scroll comfy

my weird relationship to my own body (it’s emotionally long distance) mixed with my odd little relationship with sex and desire (think flickering candle) had me feeling a bit trapped in my acct before, though.

still over thinking this, actually:

i enjoy seeing hot people enjoy being hot, so it’s not like i don’t like following SWs. i also enjoy supporting & showing appreciation for the work that people do (including, but not limited to, being hot on main).

sighs. im gonna have multiple accounts again. i always come to this conclusion, idk why i hemhaw about it everytime

BUT ideally, id also be able to interact with Cool Stuff™ I see on here, and chat about books n movies, and have space for weird brain things my brain does

BUT i feel less awkward talking abt railing and getting railed with an audience of folks who’s social media presence is geared towards that sort of stuff, feels less… intrusive? I guess?

and let’s be real, i don’t really get off to visual/audio content, so curating a sw following will lead to me being respectfully ambivalent on a good day, and mildly dysphoric on the bad ones