Lyn/Au7umn 🍁
@autumns-solace.bsky.social
They/He, mentally unstable nonbinary catboy. Refer to me as Lyn on this account.
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The vent alt for @Wnterrkit.woke.cat and @milo-kit.isfluffy.fyi
[The nights of Autumn are the darkest ones.]
Banner made by me, pfp from a guy in r/oneshot
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The vent alt for @Wnterrkit.woke.cat and @milo-kit.isfluffy.fyi
[The nights of Autumn are the darkest ones.]
Banner made by me, pfp from a guy in r/oneshot
This is basically the entire backstory and series of events that led to me and Soph to be together.
She still teases about the coin flip to this day.
Sophie if you're reading this...
I love you, and I don't regret listening to your teasing <3
She still teases about the coin flip to this day.
Sophie if you're reading this...
I love you, and I don't regret listening to your teasing <3
January 22, 2026 at 3:09 AM
This is basically the entire backstory and series of events that led to me and Soph to be together.
She still teases about the coin flip to this day.
Sophie if you're reading this...
I love you, and I don't regret listening to your teasing <3
She still teases about the coin flip to this day.
Sophie if you're reading this...
I love you, and I don't regret listening to your teasing <3
I went to Lemon's DMs (only her knew about this at the time)
It was the first person I thought to reach out...
And I decided...
If i can't choose, I'll just let fate decide.
And i flipped a coin.
And i must say, if that coin landed on heads, things would be very different.
It was the first person I thought to reach out...
And I decided...
If i can't choose, I'll just let fate decide.
And i flipped a coin.
And i must say, if that coin landed on heads, things would be very different.
January 22, 2026 at 3:07 AM
I went to Lemon's DMs (only her knew about this at the time)
It was the first person I thought to reach out...
And I decided...
If i can't choose, I'll just let fate decide.
And i flipped a coin.
And i must say, if that coin landed on heads, things would be very different.
It was the first person I thought to reach out...
And I decided...
If i can't choose, I'll just let fate decide.
And i flipped a coin.
And i must say, if that coin landed on heads, things would be very different.
"There's no way she's actually into me, why would she like someone as pathetic as myself?"
But then on the next day of school she actually went up to me, handed me the 20 bill, kissed me in the cheek and left
And i did not know what to do.
But then on the next day of school she actually went up to me, handed me the 20 bill, kissed me in the cheek and left
And i did not know what to do.
January 22, 2026 at 3:05 AM
"There's no way she's actually into me, why would she like someone as pathetic as myself?"
But then on the next day of school she actually went up to me, handed me the 20 bill, kissed me in the cheek and left
And i did not know what to do.
But then on the next day of school she actually went up to me, handed me the 20 bill, kissed me in the cheek and left
And i did not know what to do.
And one day, before the July break of 2024, she offered 20 bucks to match pfps
I knew it was a bit, but there was, other things pointing at her actually having feelings for me.
I complied, for the 20, but i still kept thinking about it...
I knew it was a bit, but there was, other things pointing at her actually having feelings for me.
I complied, for the 20, but i still kept thinking about it...
January 22, 2026 at 3:02 AM
And one day, before the July break of 2024, she offered 20 bucks to match pfps
I knew it was a bit, but there was, other things pointing at her actually having feelings for me.
I complied, for the 20, but i still kept thinking about it...
I knew it was a bit, but there was, other things pointing at her actually having feelings for me.
I complied, for the 20, but i still kept thinking about it...
And let's just say...
I was pleasantly surprised.
She actually just wanted to talk, and we became closer, she kept teasing me always, and i... somehow didn't mind
And when I invited her to my friend group's server, they kept teasing us about how we should be together.
And she just fed the fire
I was pleasantly surprised.
She actually just wanted to talk, and we became closer, she kept teasing me always, and i... somehow didn't mind
And when I invited her to my friend group's server, they kept teasing us about how we should be together.
And she just fed the fire
January 22, 2026 at 3:00 AM
And let's just say...
I was pleasantly surprised.
She actually just wanted to talk, and we became closer, she kept teasing me always, and i... somehow didn't mind
And when I invited her to my friend group's server, they kept teasing us about how we should be together.
And she just fed the fire
I was pleasantly surprised.
She actually just wanted to talk, and we became closer, she kept teasing me always, and i... somehow didn't mind
And when I invited her to my friend group's server, they kept teasing us about how we should be together.
And she just fed the fire
She did some digging, and since she's one of the few people i know IRL to know english, she found me.
When I saw her friend request on discord, i legitimately panicked, like a full panic attack.
I was going "should I block her? Will she laugh at me? How did she find me? How did she find Wnterr?"
When I saw her friend request on discord, i legitimately panicked, like a full panic attack.
I was going "should I block her? Will she laugh at me? How did she find me? How did she find Wnterr?"
January 22, 2026 at 2:58 AM
She did some digging, and since she's one of the few people i know IRL to know english, she found me.
When I saw her friend request on discord, i legitimately panicked, like a full panic attack.
I was going "should I block her? Will she laugh at me? How did she find me? How did she find Wnterr?"
When I saw her friend request on discord, i legitimately panicked, like a full panic attack.
I was going "should I block her? Will she laugh at me? How did she find me? How did she find Wnterr?"
In fact, i was so sure that I would be ridiculed by my behavior online, that i would get incredibly paranoid of people finding out about it.
And Sophie, we were friends IRL for about a year back then, and she managed to get in my school.
She found out.
And Sophie, we were friends IRL for about a year back then, and she managed to get in my school.
She found out.
January 22, 2026 at 2:55 AM
In fact, i was so sure that I would be ridiculed by my behavior online, that i would get incredibly paranoid of people finding out about it.
And Sophie, we were friends IRL for about a year back then, and she managed to get in my school.
She found out.
And Sophie, we were friends IRL for about a year back then, and she managed to get in my school.
She found out.
I don't want to deal with all that stress
I like being 16, can't i just, never leave this phase of life? it's good already there is no need to change anything.
Why change??
It's nice as it is, why leave????
I like being 16, can't i just, never leave this phase of life? it's good already there is no need to change anything.
Why change??
It's nice as it is, why leave????
January 11, 2026 at 2:09 AM
I don't want to deal with all that stress
I like being 16, can't i just, never leave this phase of life? it's good already there is no need to change anything.
Why change??
It's nice as it is, why leave????
I like being 16, can't i just, never leave this phase of life? it's good already there is no need to change anything.
Why change??
It's nice as it is, why leave????
And I guess this is everything I've been going through behind the scenes.
I hope someone actually bothered to read through my nonsense, but i doubt that's the case considering how long it is.
Send hugs if you want. That would help.
If I'm not a system, this will surely make me one.
I hope someone actually bothered to read through my nonsense, but i doubt that's the case considering how long it is.
Send hugs if you want. That would help.
If I'm not a system, this will surely make me one.
December 16, 2025 at 3:12 AM
And I guess this is everything I've been going through behind the scenes.
I hope someone actually bothered to read through my nonsense, but i doubt that's the case considering how long it is.
Send hugs if you want. That would help.
If I'm not a system, this will surely make me one.
I hope someone actually bothered to read through my nonsense, but i doubt that's the case considering how long it is.
Send hugs if you want. That would help.
If I'm not a system, this will surely make me one.
Things are doing somewhat better between dad and mom, he seemed to find someone else and she didn't seem to care.
The house situation ended with the house being put in me and my sister's name, so I guess that means we own it now.
Hopefully things get better here. God knows i need it.
The house situation ended with the house being put in me and my sister's name, so I guess that means we own it now.
Hopefully things get better here. God knows i need it.
December 16, 2025 at 3:10 AM
Things are doing somewhat better between dad and mom, he seemed to find someone else and she didn't seem to care.
The house situation ended with the house being put in me and my sister's name, so I guess that means we own it now.
Hopefully things get better here. God knows i need it.
The house situation ended with the house being put in me and my sister's name, so I guess that means we own it now.
Hopefully things get better here. God knows i need it.
And since my main account happens to be shared with him, I SAW HIS SEARCH HISTORY!
HE LITERALLY TRIED TO STEAL AND SELL OUR HOUSE. DESPITE WHAT WE'RE GOING THROUGH.
And now, things are going worse on my mom's health, she'll probably need a blood donation. hopefully she'll be fine.
HE LITERALLY TRIED TO STEAL AND SELL OUR HOUSE. DESPITE WHAT WE'RE GOING THROUGH.
And now, things are going worse on my mom's health, she'll probably need a blood donation. hopefully she'll be fine.
December 16, 2025 at 3:07 AM
And since my main account happens to be shared with him, I SAW HIS SEARCH HISTORY!
HE LITERALLY TRIED TO STEAL AND SELL OUR HOUSE. DESPITE WHAT WE'RE GOING THROUGH.
And now, things are going worse on my mom's health, she'll probably need a blood donation. hopefully she'll be fine.
HE LITERALLY TRIED TO STEAL AND SELL OUR HOUSE. DESPITE WHAT WE'RE GOING THROUGH.
And now, things are going worse on my mom's health, she'll probably need a blood donation. hopefully she'll be fine.
We moved to a foster home for two weeks, which was hell, the heat of having to walk by foot on the Brazilian heat, i don't want to do that again.
We moved back, my dad went away.
Until a few weeks after, on early December, he decided to go home while i was in school, trying to get the house docs
We moved back, my dad went away.
Until a few weeks after, on early December, he decided to go home while i was in school, trying to get the house docs
December 16, 2025 at 3:05 AM
We moved to a foster home for two weeks, which was hell, the heat of having to walk by foot on the Brazilian heat, i don't want to do that again.
We moved back, my dad went away.
Until a few weeks after, on early December, he decided to go home while i was in school, trying to get the house docs
We moved back, my dad went away.
Until a few weeks after, on early December, he decided to go home while i was in school, trying to get the house docs
Last month, my mom went up to me and my sister, saying that she and my dad are going to separate. Because my dad was addicted and stuff.
That caused a horrible argument between her and my grandmother (dad's side), and she wished the worst to my mom, who wasn't doing well on health terms.
That caused a horrible argument between her and my grandmother (dad's side), and she wished the worst to my mom, who wasn't doing well on health terms.
December 16, 2025 at 3:03 AM
Last month, my mom went up to me and my sister, saying that she and my dad are going to separate. Because my dad was addicted and stuff.
That caused a horrible argument between her and my grandmother (dad's side), and she wished the worst to my mom, who wasn't doing well on health terms.
That caused a horrible argument between her and my grandmother (dad's side), and she wished the worst to my mom, who wasn't doing well on health terms.
But now? The library is closed until the books that are overdue for returning are returned, so i can't get them
So i went back to my phone, i used it in secret so that the teachers don't catch it.
And it's working well so far.
And now for the part that I've been stopping myself from telling.
So i went back to my phone, i used it in secret so that the teachers don't catch it.
And it's working well so far.
And now for the part that I've been stopping myself from telling.
December 16, 2025 at 3:01 AM
But now? The library is closed until the books that are overdue for returning are returned, so i can't get them
So i went back to my phone, i used it in secret so that the teachers don't catch it.
And it's working well so far.
And now for the part that I've been stopping myself from telling.
So i went back to my phone, i used it in secret so that the teachers don't catch it.
And it's working well so far.
And now for the part that I've been stopping myself from telling.
They banned phones, so I could go on discord or bsky or anything to distract myself.
So most of the year, i had used the only other option, reading. My school's library has a pretty good collection of books so i distracted myself on the breaks by reading.
So most of the year, i had used the only other option, reading. My school's library has a pretty good collection of books so i distracted myself on the breaks by reading.
December 16, 2025 at 2:59 AM
They banned phones, so I could go on discord or bsky or anything to distract myself.
So most of the year, i had used the only other option, reading. My school's library has a pretty good collection of books so i distracted myself on the breaks by reading.
So most of the year, i had used the only other option, reading. My school's library has a pretty good collection of books so i distracted myself on the breaks by reading.
Everything that made me feel anything that i don't like, i brushed off and avoided. Taking solace on social media and video games. I don't like having to worry about anything other than having to finish something soon. Or studying.
And it only got worse on 2025.
And it only got worse on 2025.
December 16, 2025 at 2:57 AM
Everything that made me feel anything that i don't like, i brushed off and avoided. Taking solace on social media and video games. I don't like having to worry about anything other than having to finish something soon. Or studying.
And it only got worse on 2025.
And it only got worse on 2025.
I was also getting into GD Creating, my first actual art form that i wasn't bad at, but i guess being an artist has it's downsides
Self esteem issues, self hatred mixed with school stress
I considered self harm so many times you all have NO idea.
How I coped? Escapism. I avoid thinking about it.
Self esteem issues, self hatred mixed with school stress
I considered self harm so many times you all have NO idea.
How I coped? Escapism. I avoid thinking about it.
December 16, 2025 at 2:54 AM
I was also getting into GD Creating, my first actual art form that i wasn't bad at, but i guess being an artist has it's downsides
Self esteem issues, self hatred mixed with school stress
I considered self harm so many times you all have NO idea.
How I coped? Escapism. I avoid thinking about it.
Self esteem issues, self hatred mixed with school stress
I considered self harm so many times you all have NO idea.
How I coped? Escapism. I avoid thinking about it.
2024 was when things started to go south.
barely getting any sleep due to the new schedule, stressful projects, burnout, and having to pretty much live a double life of the silly catboy/enby on the internet and the serious guy on school.
It was stressful...
barely getting any sleep due to the new schedule, stressful projects, burnout, and having to pretty much live a double life of the silly catboy/enby on the internet and the serious guy on school.
It was stressful...
December 16, 2025 at 2:52 AM
2024 was when things started to go south.
barely getting any sleep due to the new schedule, stressful projects, burnout, and having to pretty much live a double life of the silly catboy/enby on the internet and the serious guy on school.
It was stressful...
barely getting any sleep due to the new schedule, stressful projects, burnout, and having to pretty much live a double life of the silly catboy/enby on the internet and the serious guy on school.
It was stressful...
I left, and others left the server, and me and Aggy created a new one to reunite the group during early 2025.
Going back to my IRL life, 2023 before, i thought that everything was fine, that my plans are set and I knew what i would do once high school started
Boy was I wrong.
Going back to my IRL life, 2023 before, i thought that everything was fine, that my plans are set and I knew what i would do once high school started
Boy was I wrong.
December 16, 2025 at 2:50 AM
I left, and others left the server, and me and Aggy created a new one to reunite the group during early 2025.
Going back to my IRL life, 2023 before, i thought that everything was fine, that my plans are set and I knew what i would do once high school started
Boy was I wrong.
Going back to my IRL life, 2023 before, i thought that everything was fine, that my plans are set and I knew what i would do once high school started
Boy was I wrong.
I became nonbinary at that year, found a girlfriend that i still love to this day, and only she knows what I am actually dealing with on the inside.
Of course, nothing that is good for me lasts, so someone joined the server that was my shelter, and they made it impossible for me to enjoy it.
Of course, nothing that is good for me lasts, so someone joined the server that was my shelter, and they made it impossible for me to enjoy it.
December 16, 2025 at 2:47 AM
I became nonbinary at that year, found a girlfriend that i still love to this day, and only she knows what I am actually dealing with on the inside.
Of course, nothing that is good for me lasts, so someone joined the server that was my shelter, and they made it impossible for me to enjoy it.
Of course, nothing that is good for me lasts, so someone joined the server that was my shelter, and they made it impossible for me to enjoy it.
2024 was my first year on high school, things were difficult, i was expecting to barely know anyone for most of the time, but my classmates were making me come out of my shell.
I still had that same 'mask', but unlike 2023, where I thought that was the genuine me...
2024 was when i saw the contrast.
I still had that same 'mask', but unlike 2023, where I thought that was the genuine me...
2024 was when i saw the contrast.
December 16, 2025 at 2:45 AM
2024 was my first year on high school, things were difficult, i was expecting to barely know anyone for most of the time, but my classmates were making me come out of my shell.
I still had that same 'mask', but unlike 2023, where I thought that was the genuine me...
2024 was when i saw the contrast.
I still had that same 'mask', but unlike 2023, where I thought that was the genuine me...
2024 was when i saw the contrast.
at the end of 2023, i met a new friend group, it had some of the people who i am still friends with to this day, Lemon, Aggy and others. That server was my main safe space for the most time, my solace during 2024.
December 16, 2025 at 2:43 AM
at the end of 2023, i met a new friend group, it had some of the people who i am still friends with to this day, Lemon, Aggy and others. That server was my main safe space for the most time, my solace during 2024.