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Account for posting lewds and any shamelessly horny yearning stuff, the scraps from main basically. Main is @phobia.bsky.social
I think the scar was like just fading as ff8 came out and you can imagine how sad I was that is was disappearing while fucking Squall was the coolest motherfucker.
November 21, 2025 at 7:02 PM
I think the scar was like just fading as ff8 came out and you can imagine how sad I was that is was disappearing while fucking Squall was the coolest motherfucker.
fwiw I did have a big wound running through it as a kid from that injury but it healed away. A scarification person was telling me that is even a problem as an adult with facial scarification, they just disappear.
November 21, 2025 at 6:39 PM
fwiw I did have a big wound running through it as a kid from that injury but it healed away. A scarification person was telling me that is even a problem as an adult with facial scarification, they just disappear.
Every day I miss so many people. Reminded today that is not just because I moved. I can't go back and see them, or call them, or message. I can't draw them another doodle to try and make them smile.
November 20, 2025 at 8:39 PM
Every day I miss so many people. Reminded today that is not just because I moved. I can't go back and see them, or call them, or message. I can't draw them another doodle to try and make them smile.
Essentially you have to front this ideal constantly or face judgement for not fitting the new norm for whatever that thing is.
November 18, 2025 at 6:58 PM
Essentially you have to front this ideal constantly or face judgement for not fitting the new norm for whatever that thing is.
Really appreciate these thoughts on it. Projection is a weird that comes to mind often though I do always want to caveat that with the idea that we are almost always projecting to a degree until we find our footing or comfort. Problem is now I think there is less room to let the projection down.
November 18, 2025 at 6:57 PM
Really appreciate these thoughts on it. Projection is a weird that comes to mind often though I do always want to caveat that with the idea that we are almost always projecting to a degree until we find our footing or comfort. Problem is now I think there is less room to let the projection down.
There is something to be said for living in a time when being vulnerable is more dangerous than ever. Even if just because within our community everyone has so little that risking vulnerability with people less likely to have space for it is a huge gamble.
November 18, 2025 at 6:51 PM
There is something to be said for living in a time when being vulnerable is more dangerous than ever. Even if just because within our community everyone has so little that risking vulnerability with people less likely to have space for it is a huge gamble.
It's good and also sad to hear that
November 18, 2025 at 6:46 PM
It's good and also sad to hear that
Nothing in here I'm afraid of people knowing Ithink about, don't see why people can't discuss this openly. Point of the thread really
November 18, 2025 at 6:45 PM
Nothing in here I'm afraid of people knowing Ithink about, don't see why people can't discuss this openly. Point of the thread really
Thank you, def appreciate that
November 18, 2025 at 6:43 PM
Thank you, def appreciate that
Yeah I think the sad part is it feels like on some level the nebulous evil "THEM" is winning as we all shrink and warp our queer identity and passions to protect ourselves from what? Each other? It's just making us more distant.
November 18, 2025 at 5:06 PM
Yeah I think the sad part is it feels like on some level the nebulous evil "THEM" is winning as we all shrink and warp our queer identity and passions to protect ourselves from what? Each other? It's just making us more distant.
Though I guess that probably goes hand in hand, something trending but not actually engaged in. People COULD engage though.
November 18, 2025 at 5:03 PM
Though I guess that probably goes hand in hand, something trending but not actually engaged in. People COULD engage though.
Honestly I even like all of those, I don't so much mind a trend as mind actually engaging in whatever the thing is.
November 18, 2025 at 5:02 PM
Honestly I even like all of those, I don't so much mind a trend as mind actually engaging in whatever the thing is.
It maybe just bugs me so much because fuck if there was ever a time to live spontaneous and open and joyous and vulnerable this is it. One life, why waste a second. And fuck its felt like so many wasted moments. So many "damn I thought you were here to be alive too" moments.
November 18, 2025 at 5:01 PM
It maybe just bugs me so much because fuck if there was ever a time to live spontaneous and open and joyous and vulnerable this is it. One life, why waste a second. And fuck its felt like so many wasted moments. So many "damn I thought you were here to be alive too" moments.
Putting on this harness to engage in vulnerability vs putting on one to hide it
November 18, 2025 at 4:58 PM
Putting on this harness to engage in vulnerability vs putting on one to hide it
Okay one thought to summarize how I feel about kink lately. When I first got into kink it felt like such a wonderful way to explore sincere emotion and lately whenever I interact with it people seem to use kink as a safety wall between interaction and sincerity.
November 18, 2025 at 4:57 PM
Okay one thought to summarize how I feel about kink lately. When I first got into kink it felt like such a wonderful way to explore sincere emotion and lately whenever I interact with it people seem to use kink as a safety wall between interaction and sincerity.
Def not a judgment on any one individual but keep seeing posts or having interactions that feel so out of sync with any actual kink that is gonna happen or be fulfilling
November 18, 2025 at 4:53 PM
Def not a judgment on any one individual but keep seeing posts or having interactions that feel so out of sync with any actual kink that is gonna happen or be fulfilling
Also too much of it comes across with identical energy to a scared kid threatening you with things they don't even understand.
November 18, 2025 at 4:52 PM
Also too much of it comes across with identical energy to a scared kid threatening you with things they don't even understand.
It really used to be some of my favorite and then the more I would interact with people over the years the vibe and attitude seems so different anymore
November 18, 2025 at 4:50 PM
It really used to be some of my favorite and then the more I would interact with people over the years the vibe and attitude seems so different anymore
It always seems to be so detached and passionless and performative and often coming from entirely insincere places.
November 18, 2025 at 4:49 PM
It always seems to be so detached and passionless and performative and often coming from entirely insincere places.
Def working hard lol
November 15, 2025 at 8:51 AM
Def working hard lol