i made this account a while back to be able to say the things i cant say on my other account, that being said, despite saying that i like being independent and not wanting a relationship, i so badly want to know what it feels like to be yearned for

i have this thing where i dont enjoy leaving people lonely.. especially in social places even digitally, like on twitter when an oomf asks for an opinion and no one answers but its been like an hour+,, i just hAVE to reply then 😭

i sometimes wonder if people have ever had a crush on me or if i was ever someones totga but at the same time, thinking this was possible would also make me in over my head honestly

birthday blues happens when my closest friends havent even greeted me, not even a single interaction or hello, and it’s already lunch time🥲 (theyre currently active on social media too🤠)

i literally feel stuck in between my mom and my siblings when theyre in an argument because i love all of them but they cant seem to see eye to eye🥲 like both sides mean well but they also have a horrible way of expressing it

my mom telling me that she notices how my older siblings treat me like a maid and get mad at me when i dont act immediately is why she “spoils” me more (siblings’ words not hers) makes me feel so seen

sometimes i wonder if i hide my sadness well

imma be waiting like 5 business days for their reply😭

i know for a fact that i am completely unready for a relationship, solely for the reason that i crave for one so badly

not to be dramatic or parasocial,, but my sobs will be heard on the other side of the world the day they inevitably announce that they’re married or something

im still alive i swear, i just forgot this account existed

ako ay nangungulila kay jeonghan

have an exam tomorrow morning and im actually so stressed out

do yall ever forget people exist after not seeing them for a while..?

i understand that i’m delusional, but can it end now? i’m already self aware, i just need to stop😭

sometimes i want to hide from people when i feel like they get annoyed with my tendencies. i understand i can be much sometimes and i’m sorry for being overwhelming.