Artemis
@artemis64talks.bsky.social
a 24 year old trans girl's yap account
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may include venting idk
may include being a slight degenerate idk
go to @artemis.sm64.live for tamer posts
may include venting idk
may include being a slight degenerate idk
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Artemis
@artemis64talks.bsky.social
· Jul 25
wish i got more pictures of me in this outfit, it was great at sgdq
and none of the pictures show the big ass black bow i have in my hair
and none of the pictures show the big ass black bow i have in my hair
i am a monster
i am a disgusting human being
i am not the person i thought i was
i don't know i'm so lost i don't know anything nothing makes sense i don't get it anymore
see you all whenever
i am a disgusting human being
i am not the person i thought i was
i don't know i'm so lost i don't know anything nothing makes sense i don't get it anymore
see you all whenever
November 13, 2025 at 3:51 PM
i am a monster
i am a disgusting human being
i am not the person i thought i was
i don't know i'm so lost i don't know anything nothing makes sense i don't get it anymore
see you all whenever
i am a disgusting human being
i am not the person i thought i was
i don't know i'm so lost i don't know anything nothing makes sense i don't get it anymore
see you all whenever
i am just going through the motions at this point. i'm not breaking down as often but i still don't feel any different
i wish i was normal
i wish i was normal
November 8, 2025 at 6:35 PM
i am just going through the motions at this point. i'm not breaking down as often but i still don't feel any different
i wish i was normal
i wish i was normal
i have insane thoughts
turning them to insane actions is risky
the forever struggle
turning them to insane actions is risky
the forever struggle
November 5, 2025 at 9:40 AM
i have insane thoughts
turning them to insane actions is risky
the forever struggle
turning them to insane actions is risky
the forever struggle
i want to scream but i must control myself
if i tell myself i am okay and that everything is okay over and over, surely one day i will believe it
right?
i have been so incredibly volatile and i just internalize it all. i'm tearing myself apart. i don't know what to do, i'm so exhausted, wanna kms
if i tell myself i am okay and that everything is okay over and over, surely one day i will believe it
right?
i have been so incredibly volatile and i just internalize it all. i'm tearing myself apart. i don't know what to do, i'm so exhausted, wanna kms
November 5, 2025 at 5:11 AM
i want to scream but i must control myself
if i tell myself i am okay and that everything is okay over and over, surely one day i will believe it
right?
i have been so incredibly volatile and i just internalize it all. i'm tearing myself apart. i don't know what to do, i'm so exhausted, wanna kms
if i tell myself i am okay and that everything is okay over and over, surely one day i will believe it
right?
i have been so incredibly volatile and i just internalize it all. i'm tearing myself apart. i don't know what to do, i'm so exhausted, wanna kms
yeah last nights dreams are just a today reminder that i am still in intense pain and i am just pretending i'm not
a reminder that there is no escape and that i am delusional
a reminder that the void has already swallowed me whole and i'm just coping that i still have time
i want to die so bad
a reminder that there is no escape and that i am delusional
a reminder that the void has already swallowed me whole and i'm just coping that i still have time
i want to die so bad
November 3, 2025 at 3:40 PM
yeah last nights dreams are just a today reminder that i am still in intense pain and i am just pretending i'm not
a reminder that there is no escape and that i am delusional
a reminder that the void has already swallowed me whole and i'm just coping that i still have time
i want to die so bad
a reminder that there is no escape and that i am delusional
a reminder that the void has already swallowed me whole and i'm just coping that i still have time
i want to die so bad
had a dream that was nice but effectively taunting me of things i cannot have
fuck you. already suffering enough let me at least pretend to recover
fuck you. already suffering enough let me at least pretend to recover
November 3, 2025 at 11:45 AM
had a dream that was nice but effectively taunting me of things i cannot have
fuck you. already suffering enough let me at least pretend to recover
fuck you. already suffering enough let me at least pretend to recover
i think i wanna explode
i don't like this
i both want to be normal and i also want to stop pretending to be normal
i want to stop the noise
i don't like this
i both want to be normal and i also want to stop pretending to be normal
i want to stop the noise
October 30, 2025 at 9:02 PM
i think i wanna explode
i don't like this
i both want to be normal and i also want to stop pretending to be normal
i want to stop the noise
i don't like this
i both want to be normal and i also want to stop pretending to be normal
i want to stop the noise
i am so incredibly frustrated and upset. nothing goes right ever and i can't stop thinking about the same bullshit over and over. i don't want to live in this timeline anymore
October 29, 2025 at 1:03 AM
i am so incredibly frustrated and upset. nothing goes right ever and i can't stop thinking about the same bullshit over and over. i don't want to live in this timeline anymore
i feel like a shell of myself
i feel like my soul was forcefully ripped out from my chest
it feels like no matter how i try to recover, there will be a constant stinging reminder of every mistake, every moment that led me to this point. a reminder that i do not deserve literally anything. kill me.
i feel like my soul was forcefully ripped out from my chest
it feels like no matter how i try to recover, there will be a constant stinging reminder of every mistake, every moment that led me to this point. a reminder that i do not deserve literally anything. kill me.
October 28, 2025 at 4:34 PM
i feel like a shell of myself
i feel like my soul was forcefully ripped out from my chest
it feels like no matter how i try to recover, there will be a constant stinging reminder of every mistake, every moment that led me to this point. a reminder that i do not deserve literally anything. kill me.
i feel like my soul was forcefully ripped out from my chest
it feels like no matter how i try to recover, there will be a constant stinging reminder of every mistake, every moment that led me to this point. a reminder that i do not deserve literally anything. kill me.
why is emotional regulation so difficult i wanna be stable
October 28, 2025 at 2:49 AM
why is emotional regulation so difficult i wanna be stable
i know therapy doesn't magically fix things instantly, but i really hope we get through a lot tomorrow.
October 27, 2025 at 2:55 AM
i know therapy doesn't magically fix things instantly, but i really hope we get through a lot tomorrow.
i feel like i need to throw up
i feel so isolated and like i can't share my interests with basically anyone
it'll be fine i'm just complaining
i feel so isolated and like i can't share my interests with basically anyone
it'll be fine i'm just complaining
October 27, 2025 at 12:13 AM
i feel like i need to throw up
i feel so isolated and like i can't share my interests with basically anyone
it'll be fine i'm just complaining
i feel so isolated and like i can't share my interests with basically anyone
it'll be fine i'm just complaining
i made it through another day
i feel okay, too.
i fluctuated throughout the day but i didn't crash out at a single point.
i hope that one day again, this will be the norm, and that i never fall back to this point again. it's a hard ask, but i have hope.
i will do it for them, if not myself. gn
i feel okay, too.
i fluctuated throughout the day but i didn't crash out at a single point.
i hope that one day again, this will be the norm, and that i never fall back to this point again. it's a hard ask, but i have hope.
i will do it for them, if not myself. gn
October 26, 2025 at 6:20 AM
i made it through another day
i feel okay, too.
i fluctuated throughout the day but i didn't crash out at a single point.
i hope that one day again, this will be the norm, and that i never fall back to this point again. it's a hard ask, but i have hope.
i will do it for them, if not myself. gn
i feel okay, too.
i fluctuated throughout the day but i didn't crash out at a single point.
i hope that one day again, this will be the norm, and that i never fall back to this point again. it's a hard ask, but i have hope.
i will do it for them, if not myself. gn
i looked at myself in the mirror and thought i looked cute
i never think that
i lifted my own mood with that
i never think that
i lifted my own mood with that
October 26, 2025 at 1:43 AM
i looked at myself in the mirror and thought i looked cute
i never think that
i lifted my own mood with that
i never think that
i lifted my own mood with that
today is the day and nothing is different.
which is good.
why does my brain convince me the world is going to end all the time, it's not fair
i am fine, at least somewhat. it's just another day, i've lived many of these already. all i have to do is not shatter to the point where i lose the pieces
which is good.
why does my brain convince me the world is going to end all the time, it's not fair
i am fine, at least somewhat. it's just another day, i've lived many of these already. all i have to do is not shatter to the point where i lose the pieces
October 25, 2025 at 4:06 PM
today is the day and nothing is different.
which is good.
why does my brain convince me the world is going to end all the time, it's not fair
i am fine, at least somewhat. it's just another day, i've lived many of these already. all i have to do is not shatter to the point where i lose the pieces
which is good.
why does my brain convince me the world is going to end all the time, it's not fair
i am fine, at least somewhat. it's just another day, i've lived many of these already. all i have to do is not shatter to the point where i lose the pieces
I went and played games and blasted music and everything calmed down. I once again felt like things were okay
i hate this so much. i wish i could control these emotions better. that burden is entirely on me but i am lacking the tools for it right now. i hope therapy kicks into gear cuz i need it to
i hate this so much. i wish i could control these emotions better. that burden is entirely on me but i am lacking the tools for it right now. i hope therapy kicks into gear cuz i need it to
October 25, 2025 at 7:35 AM
I went and played games and blasted music and everything calmed down. I once again felt like things were okay
i hate this so much. i wish i could control these emotions better. that burden is entirely on me but i am lacking the tools for it right now. i hope therapy kicks into gear cuz i need it to
i hate this so much. i wish i could control these emotions better. that burden is entirely on me but i am lacking the tools for it right now. i hope therapy kicks into gear cuz i need it to
its gonna be alright, even if i check constantly hoping for a different result, i will survive
October 24, 2025 at 8:33 PM
its gonna be alright, even if i check constantly hoping for a different result, i will survive
the mood songs today:
Pain Killer - Grabbitz
Dead Man Walking - Grant & Ellis
Die Hard - Stela Cole
I Feel Like I'm Drowning - Two Feet
Die For You - Mori Calliope
Now or Nevermind - Stela Cole
STREET GARDEN - Skybreak
Willow Tree - Cadmium
How to Get What You Want - Elise Trouw
Pain Killer - Grabbitz
Dead Man Walking - Grant & Ellis
Die Hard - Stela Cole
I Feel Like I'm Drowning - Two Feet
Die For You - Mori Calliope
Now or Nevermind - Stela Cole
STREET GARDEN - Skybreak
Willow Tree - Cadmium
How to Get What You Want - Elise Trouw
October 24, 2025 at 6:35 PM
the mood songs today:
Pain Killer - Grabbitz
Dead Man Walking - Grant & Ellis
Die Hard - Stela Cole
I Feel Like I'm Drowning - Two Feet
Die For You - Mori Calliope
Now or Nevermind - Stela Cole
STREET GARDEN - Skybreak
Willow Tree - Cadmium
How to Get What You Want - Elise Trouw
Pain Killer - Grabbitz
Dead Man Walking - Grant & Ellis
Die Hard - Stela Cole
I Feel Like I'm Drowning - Two Feet
Die For You - Mori Calliope
Now or Nevermind - Stela Cole
STREET GARDEN - Skybreak
Willow Tree - Cadmium
How to Get What You Want - Elise Trouw
i've been in and out of conciousness and it is genuinely fascinating the things my brain can just make up and have me believe. especially in such a short timeframe, it took four minutes for the most insane scenario to play out and for me to open my eyes and check something lmao
anyway time for work
anyway time for work
October 24, 2025 at 4:18 PM
i've been in and out of conciousness and it is genuinely fascinating the things my brain can just make up and have me believe. especially in such a short timeframe, it took four minutes for the most insane scenario to play out and for me to open my eyes and check something lmao
anyway time for work
anyway time for work
I am not always the best with words and expressing my emotions in ways that are the best (to put it lightly). but I can't express how much it really does matter to me that people care. even if i don't respond. even if i don't seem to ever notice. i promise that i have seen it and i cannot express
October 24, 2025 at 6:21 AM
I am not always the best with words and expressing my emotions in ways that are the best (to put it lightly). but I can't express how much it really does matter to me that people care. even if i don't respond. even if i don't seem to ever notice. i promise that i have seen it and i cannot express
i am spectacular aren't i
hyperventilating and crying while still forcing myself to work
forever shower soon i need to be okay again
hyperventilating and crying while still forcing myself to work
forever shower soon i need to be okay again
October 23, 2025 at 9:37 PM
i am spectacular aren't i
hyperventilating and crying while still forcing myself to work
forever shower soon i need to be okay again
hyperventilating and crying while still forcing myself to work
forever shower soon i need to be okay again
i truly can't believe how fragile i am
i'm throwing rocks at my own glass house
need to relax
i'm throwing rocks at my own glass house
need to relax
October 23, 2025 at 5:00 AM
i truly can't believe how fragile i am
i'm throwing rocks at my own glass house
need to relax
i'm throwing rocks at my own glass house
need to relax
"I didn't get better for me. I didn't fight for me. I fought because love like that is worth fighting for"
it's near impossible for me to care enough about myself individually to get better. but i will spend the rest of my life getting better so i can feel that love again
it's near impossible for me to care enough about myself individually to get better. but i will spend the rest of my life getting better so i can feel that love again
October 22, 2025 at 5:53 PM
"I didn't get better for me. I didn't fight for me. I fought because love like that is worth fighting for"
it's near impossible for me to care enough about myself individually to get better. but i will spend the rest of my life getting better so i can feel that love again
it's near impossible for me to care enough about myself individually to get better. but i will spend the rest of my life getting better so i can feel that love again