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Amoridere Hall
@amoridere.bsky.social
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Well, I'm death obsessed poetess who lives in Ohio and I'm a woman with a lot of free time on my hands. I might not post here very often but when I do, I do.
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amoridere.bsky.social
"Yukimai"
#sylvanianfamilies #calicocritters #snow #fuijfilmfinepix #finepixjx520 #fujfiilm #melancholy #blackandwhitephotography #dance #bnw #toyagraphy
I don't know and, for reasons she won't explain, Sophie dances in the snow. The title of the pic comes from a song by Missa Johnouchi.
November 17, 2025 at 2:47 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
My birthday is coming and I hate it.
#offlinegoings #melancholy #tumblr #birthdayblues #death #abortion #stillbirth #ideations #depression #dementia #birthday
1996 She doesn't celebrate her natal day No, that's just a day A day of lamentation A begining to a white elephant (existence is not a gift) Supposedly, she was supposed to be rid of Was that true or was that Father's cruel diatribe? Truth is always somewhere in-betwixt (she wasn't wanted either way) She doesn't know if Mother fully understands Fully understands what she tells her Though, if she were to visit, She'd make a point of openly lamenting That she was not terminated Those years ago
November 2, 2025 at 10:15 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
"Govorya o nashikh roditelyakh"
#sylvanianfamilies #calicocritters #fujifilm #finepixjx520 #fujifilmfinepix #melancholy #blackandwhitephotography #outdoors #toyagraphy
Two husky children, talking about their parents, while they ride a bike.
October 15, 2025 at 6:00 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
"hummingbird"
#death #poetry #melancholy #yearning #tumblr #upset #musings
September 23, 2025 at 11:07 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
The beak suggests that it's a hummingbird. Regardless, from what I'm aware, dead birds foreshadow bad luck.

This is the second time I've found a dead bird.
#death #blackandwhitephotography #carcass #fujifilm #fujifilmfinepix #finepixjx520 #bird #musings #ᴅɪɢɪᴛᴀʟᴘʜᴏᴛᴏɢʀᴀᴘʜʏ
September 13, 2025 at 1:22 AM
amoridere.bsky.social
"alone in the rain"

This is a one-off.
#oneoff #digitalphotography #rain #depression #melancholy #nendography #signatured #ryukomatoi #killlakill #sukajanryuko #nendoroid #nendoroiddoll #juniorryuko #smolandsad #smol #blackandwhitephotography #fujifilm #fujifilmfinepix #finepixjx520 #signatured
August 2, 2025 at 3:52 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
"Lou Gehrig's"

A friend popped in my head at the moment.
#ALS #InMemoriam #grief #mourning #upset #musings #loss #illgirl #free-verse #tumblr #melancholy
Lou Gherig's It was sinking in The fact that her world was altered A blank patch where a loved one was suppoed to be She knew the disease was terminal And she hated that disease more For taking her friend away this disease came and stole like a thief in the night It felt so cruel Cruel beyond words neither time nor age slowed her friend down she was healthy did everything correctly but this illness stole her quickly She wondered if Her friend hated that disease Just as much But she knew her friend Likely accepted it with grace she didn't want this to be real but it was sinking in A blank patch Where a loved one belonged.
June 1, 2025 at 12:03 AM
amoridere.bsky.social
"Birds and Anemones"
#melancholy #illgirl #digitalphotography #fujifilmfinepix #finepixjx520 #nendography #blackandwhite #ryukomatoi #satsukikiryuuin #stasis #sylvanianfamilies #calicocritters #signatured #chibiryuko #ranoutofthingstopost #miniverse #monique
Taking some time to herself, Satsuki observes the birds on the bird bath. Behind her, is a jar of flowers A closeup on the EKG , IV drip, and the flowers from earlier. "Sister, I hope you like the flowers."
May 11, 2025 at 9:03 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
"Purple"
#inmemoriam #bittersweet #freeverse #poetry #purple #shortpoem #musings #illgirl #morningglories #tumblr
Purple She remembered That her friend Loved purple She wished that “loved” Wasn’t past tense Her friend’s favorite Color pallet being “Morning glory” (purple, green, and blue in-between) She didn’t want this to be real No, they had more adventures to go on More things to talk about Fleeting memories of Adventures long passed Words left unsaid Her friend loved purple Something that she remembered “Loved” shouldn’t be past tense At the moment, it wasn’t “Goodbye” Instead, it was “Thank you” Fleeting memories of Someone’s life well-lived Memories colored Purple, green, and blue In-between “Morning Glory”
May 5, 2025 at 7:07 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
The goldfish is there but, otherwise, hard to see.
#miniverse #figma #melancholy #blackandwhitephotography #fujifilm #finepixjx520 #fujifilmfinepix #killlakill #makomankanshoku #minibrands #gashapon #toyagraphy #dollhybrid #picconeemo #dollphotography #asahinashiho #colorfuldreamin #pureneemo
*poke* Shiho holding the goldfish bowl.
May 5, 2025 at 7:01 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
We went to go see "Colorful Stage: A Miku Who Can't Sing"

It'll still be a very long time before I take chibi pics again. 😞
#hatsunemiku #nendography #colorfulstage #fujifilmfinepix #finepixjx520 #fujifilm #blackandwhite #melancholy #motogstylus2022 #nendoroid
Here's Beauty with our ticket. She's never been to a movie theater before (taken with my camera). Moments before the movie started. (taken with my phone)
April 23, 2025 at 3:18 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
feeling even more utterly crushed.

existence sucks. 😞
#heartbroken
April 21, 2025 at 10:07 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
Utterly crushed.
#offlinegoings #heartbroken
April 20, 2025 at 3:41 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
"A very Mako morning"
#signatured #fujfiilmfinepix #toyagraphy #finepixjx520 #toyagraphy #dollhybrid #melancholy #blackandwhitephotography #makomanaknshoku #killlakill #baby #miniverse #calicocritters #gashapon #pikachu #minibrands #picconeemo #figma #fujfilm
Mako making the pancakes "Let's eat!"
April 13, 2025 at 2:41 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
"The River Beckons"

A(nother) candid poem.
#free-verse #poetry #melancholy #mentalillness #cincinnati #musings #shortpoem #ideations #temptation #ohio
She could feel the river calling Calling for her, again Before, she's resisted it However, at the moment, she wondered Wondered whether to resist Or to give in The urge to give in Is stronger than will to resist At the moment, she tends to avoid the river (and, relatedly, bridges, too) However, the river still calls And the matter might not be an "if" But a "when" Such is existence.
April 5, 2025 at 8:17 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
"Creamsicle"
#toyagraphy #killlakill #melancholy #makomankanshoku #baby #gashapon #figma #miniverse #picconeemo #melancholy #digitalphotography #fujifilmfinepix #finepixjx520 #fujifilm #blackandwhite #figma
I don't know where I got the idea but I do know that, with a popsicle mold for my Miniverse I opted for it, so here's Mako (with baby) enjoying a chocolate-choco chip creamsicle.
April 5, 2025 at 7:57 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
"absence deeply felt"
#melancholy #illgirl #digitalphotography #fujifilmfinepix #finepixjx520 #nendography #blackandwhite #ryukomatoi #satsukikiryuuin #chemotherapy #cancer #rement #sylvanianfamilies #calicocritters #signatured #chibiryuko #ranoutofthingstopost #minibrands
"I wish I could show you my hair, Imouto" Mako ironing Ryuuko's favorite flannel square. Satsuki crying into that flannel square. Mako comforting Satsuki. I think, within, Ryuuko's trying to stay strong as she's not shedding tears, though she misses them, too.
April 5, 2025 at 7:47 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
"Prognosis Inconclusive"
#melancholy #illgirl #digitalphotography #fujifilmfinepix #finepixjx520 #nendography #blackandwhite #ryukomatoi #satsukikiryuuin #chemotherapy #canva #reallittles #rement #sylvanianfamilies #calicocritters #signatured #chibiryuko #ranoutofthingstopost
Those are the words on Ryuuko's medical records. Relatedly, she's made no notable improvement health-wise. Still, she's asleep and in stasis, not really aware of her prognosis
March 23, 2025 at 12:13 AM
amoridere.bsky.social
I got pooped on by a bird. People say it's good luck but it definitely set a tone for the day. 😞
#upset #tiktok #poetry #freeverse #melancholy #shortpoem #musings #written2025 #realitysubtext
March 21, 2025 at 11:06 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
"By the Light of the Moon"
#signatured #moon #blackandwhitephotography #melancholy #fujifilm #finepixjx520 #bloodmoon #fujifilmfinepix
"By the Light of the Moon"
March 14, 2025 at 11:32 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
Ryuuko's still not awake, however, she did get some new medical equipment yesterday, so that's something, I guess. 😞
#illgirl #ryukomatoi #killlakill #nendography #chibiryuko #melancholy #nendoroid #nendooroiddoll #fujifilm #finepixjx520 #fujifilmfinepix #blackandwhite #signatured #stasis
As one can tell, Ryuuko's got a new feeding bag and doesn't need her trach anymore, as she's got a new oxygen apparatus. A closeup of Ryuuko's feeding bag. Ryuuko with her new medical equipment.
March 13, 2025 at 1:40 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
"Like Ryuuko's."
#signatured #satsukikiryuuin #killlakill #nendography #nendoroid #nendoroiddoll #melancholy #blackandwhite #finepixjx520 #fujifilm #fujifilmfinepix #brokenheart #wiltedflower #orchid
Taking a break from caregiving, Satsuki opted to do her hair. Remembering her sister's streaked hair, Satsuki opted to do her hair similarly. She wonders what Ryuuko would think. Her heart hurts.
March 6, 2025 at 9:03 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
"We miss you."

#signatured #nendography #melancholy #killlakill #ryukomatoi #blackandwhite #illgirl #satsukikiryuuin #MakoMankanshoku #fujifilmfinepix #finepixjx520 #fujifilm #ranoutofthingstopost
Mako comforting Satsuki, as the latter cries. Mako's own tears.
March 6, 2025 at 9:01 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
"Baby Blooms"
#myminibaby #baby #signatured #dollphotography #smol #melancholy #fujifilm #blackandwhite #finepixjx520 #fujifilmfinepix #digitalphotography #houseplants #saintpaulia
A sleeping baby on an saintpaulia ionantha
February 26, 2025 at 9:59 PM
amoridere.bsky.social
"Still Monochrome"

#tokidoki #figurephotography #fujifilm #finepixjx520 #fujifilmfinepix #suburbanohio #melancholy #signatured #blackandwhite
A unicorno sitting on a wall.
February 26, 2025 at 9:57 PM