it is really quite insane that im having such a terrible time like truly indescribable anxiety constantly to the point where i'm physically sick but theres that lil part of me thinking Hell Yea Rapid Weight Loss !

there are so many tiny challenges every single day n they always pile up. ofc, being stared at for looking different. having to speak a different language and having an accent and making grammar mistakes (or secondguessing urself constantly) and not getting the references and not fitting the customs

but its ok because if i did have that food i wld still have this same awful feeling but i'd also have the added guilt so like this is the better of two evils i spose lolol

my partner said to me today that it seems like ive been on the verge of tears constantly for the past 3 weeks and its like yea. thats what havin an ed does. nothing happened im legit just thinking abt food i want but cant have. 24/7. n its so so draining

rosemary's baby it's such a fave it is just ugh. fantastic. very feminist also which is always nice to see for a film from the 60s. and omg i hadnt even heard of it somehow, but during oct i try to watch a horror film every other day so i will definitely check it out this week...... thank u sm !!!!!

also some of these r very well known bc im not sure how into horror u are, if u wanted more niche ones i can share those :D

i really like horror films lol if u enjoy these and want more i can give some :3 if u have any triggers u can lmk as many of these can, ofc, have some pretty disturbing themes !

fun/silly: ready or not, WWDITYS, evil dead 2, the fly, shawn of the dead, american psycho, the return of the living dead
classics that hold up: psycho, rosemary's baby, hellraiser, the exorcist, alien, halloween, carrie
not english-speaking: the wailing, ring (1988), perfect blue, suspiria, oldboy

it to ever use the bathroom as well.. tbh i just have a rly weird thing abt having a "true" starting weight for the first of every month so i thought this wld help but after this i think i'd rather just Not 😭 idk. also yea im trying to drink lots of water TY FOR REMINDER TO REHYDRATE!! <33

akghdk yeahh the same happened to me i was like omfg this is way worse than i expected but then once an hour passed i was like Hmm... idk once its properly over it doesnt feel that bad looking back? but yeah i dont wanna veer into using it much, i heard if u do it too much u basically need to take -

omg!!! it's SO good one of the best slice of life EVER imo... its v slow and character driven but if ur into that them im sure ur gonna love it it's so silly and funny and cute

aww thank u it's okay i'm sure i will find smth else soon enough :3

k4gami from lucky st4r!! she is an icon <3333

actually, 2 of my all-time favs are both constantly (like CONSTANTLY) fretting abt their weight AND constantly fighting a battle bc they love snacks and sweets adkghdf it's even in k4gami's main bio

i was fine all day until i wasn't and then i literallt felt like i was going to die LMAO those cramps cld rival my worst period EASILY. horrible horrible

which is really funny and ironic when u think abt it. local girl truly genuinely believes she's thriving when she's Actively Getting Worse

just an overall feeling of put-togetherness(?) that makes me feel like im thriving