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✧ minors & non-edsky please dni!
jirai lesbian + vampire (㇏(•̀ᵥᵥ•́ )ノ)
✧ minors & non-edsky please dni!
i broke up w my partner of almost 2 years who i moved across the world for, and it was such a brutal experience i just lost my appetite completely which has never happened to me before. i just dont think of food and dont want to eat anything. well i lost 4kg in 2 weeks so swings n roundabouts ig
October 19, 2025 at 10:14 PM
i broke up w my partner of almost 2 years who i moved across the world for, and it was such a brutal experience i just lost my appetite completely which has never happened to me before. i just dont think of food and dont want to eat anything. well i lost 4kg in 2 weeks so swings n roundabouts ig
being an 1mmigrant when u have depression is so horrible because i just want to be home. my real home. i mean even when im at my best here it just never feels like a place that can really truly understand me. i have 4utism anyw so i always feel like a fuckin weirdo but this adds an extra layer :(
October 3, 2025 at 1:04 AM
being an 1mmigrant when u have depression is so horrible because i just want to be home. my real home. i mean even when im at my best here it just never feels like a place that can really truly understand me. i have 4utism anyw so i always feel like a fuckin weirdo but this adds an extra layer :(
shit man all i think about is food. i'm so tired tbh
October 3, 2025 at 12:50 AM
shit man all i think about is food. i'm so tired tbh
now october is here i feel so motivated to start goin to the gym again idk new months feel so nice like a clean start. which is very needed bc i flopped SO hard in sept i went literally Once in the whole month thats so embarrassing 😭 anyway..
October 2, 2025 at 1:56 PM
now october is here i feel so motivated to start goin to the gym again idk new months feel so nice like a clean start. which is very needed bc i flopped SO hard in sept i went literally Once in the whole month thats so embarrassing 😭 anyway..
my lil flex this week is that i got 98/100 on my japanese exam (the highest in my class by a whole lot) i'm so happy.. deserved tbh i studied an insane amount
October 2, 2025 at 1:53 PM
my lil flex this week is that i got 98/100 on my japanese exam (the highest in my class by a whole lot) i'm so happy.. deserved tbh i studied an insane amount
the second any anime character mentions dieting or weight insecurity i just know. THAT one that's my favourite right there. just like me.......
September 28, 2025 at 1:56 AM
the second any anime character mentions dieting or weight insecurity i just know. THAT one that's my favourite right there. just like me.......
also i found out my fav safe food (50cal ice lolly thats sooo sweet n delicious) is actually produced by n3stle and i'm unreasonably sad abt it ;; ofc i'll never buy it again but its quite hard to find a replacement here so i'm :(
September 28, 2025 at 1:49 AM
also i found out my fav safe food (50cal ice lolly thats sooo sweet n delicious) is actually produced by n3stle and i'm unreasonably sad abt it ;; ofc i'll never buy it again but its quite hard to find a replacement here so i'm :(
today i took lax for the first time and yea um. Do Not Recommend
September 28, 2025 at 1:45 AM
today i took lax for the first time and yea um. Do Not Recommend
not sure why but when im successfully losing im sm better at keeping up w my studies
September 14, 2025 at 5:35 AM
not sure why but when im successfully losing im sm better at keeping up w my studies
i am locked in af i lost 2.4kg this month so far hehehe
September 13, 2025 at 6:28 PM
i am locked in af i lost 2.4kg this month so far hehehe
just as i started feeling hungry i got the notif that my jírai coord will be here v soon sdlkjsdkjf best motivation
September 8, 2025 at 10:57 PM
just as i started feeling hungry i got the notif that my jírai coord will be here v soon sdlkjsdkjf best motivation
just had a big ass omad that was so filling and it was only 500cal !!! hashtag winning im jst gonna eat the same thing for the rest of the week i think lol (it was baked potatoes + a big salad + 2 hard boiled eggs)
September 8, 2025 at 7:40 PM
just had a big ass omad that was so filling and it was only 500cal !!! hashtag winning im jst gonna eat the same thing for the rest of the week i think lol (it was baked potatoes + a big salad + 2 hard boiled eggs)
im so sickkkk of waiting. why is wl so slow. always hungry and just waiting waiting waiting !!!!
September 8, 2025 at 5:31 PM
im so sickkkk of waiting. why is wl so slow. always hungry and just waiting waiting waiting !!!!
i told my partner i lost 2kg this week and they literally dgaf and it motivates me sm to get worse. to be VISIBLY sick. then they will care <3
September 7, 2025 at 6:23 PM
i told my partner i lost 2kg this week and they literally dgaf and it motivates me sm to get worse. to be VISIBLY sick. then they will care <3
even tho its just a 24h fast today i feel so rough like im weak n hollow i dont wanna move at all. but im pushing thru bc i just know the number on the scale tmrw is gonna give me the craziest eúphoria :3 probs my lw i will have seen in the past 2 years heheheheehe
September 7, 2025 at 6:21 PM
even tho its just a 24h fast today i feel so rough like im weak n hollow i dont wanna move at all. but im pushing thru bc i just know the number on the scale tmrw is gonna give me the craziest eúphoria :3 probs my lw i will have seen in the past 2 years heheheheehe
ln i was happily sipping on some red wíne n then i googled the cals and........ Oh ☹️
September 7, 2025 at 4:38 PM
ln i was happily sipping on some red wíne n then i googled the cals and........ Oh ☹️
fasting today so tmrw morning my results for this week will be as accurate as possible <3
September 7, 2025 at 4:36 PM
fasting today so tmrw morning my results for this week will be as accurate as possible <3
ive flopped in sm aspects of my life since september started but yk what..... i didnt flop w restricting n thats the most important thing
September 7, 2025 at 2:37 PM
ive flopped in sm aspects of my life since september started but yk what..... i didnt flop w restricting n thats the most important thing
the euphoria i just felt by actually going thru and meticulously calculating my cals for the day when ive just been guessing and realising that ive overestimated by 200
September 6, 2025 at 3:11 AM
the euphoria i just felt by actually going thru and meticulously calculating my cals for the day when ive just been guessing and realising that ive overestimated by 200
ednós is so fucked bc in restrict cycles i am so in love w my ed and i wouldnt get rid of it for the world, it makes me whole, i feel successful and capable and even almost angelic. and then the bínge cycle begins and i feel like i dont deserve even the space i take up. repugnant and terrible
September 5, 2025 at 9:59 PM
ednós is so fucked bc in restrict cycles i am so in love w my ed and i wouldnt get rid of it for the world, it makes me whole, i feel successful and capable and even almost angelic. and then the bínge cycle begins and i feel like i dont deserve even the space i take up. repugnant and terrible
i feel like i shld prob mention my ed to my therapist bc i am Consumed by it rn and its dictating my life but at the same time i do NOT want to hear abt recovery or really anything abt lessening the disordered thoughts. i love those thoughts vry much they might even be my best friends actually
September 5, 2025 at 9:49 PM
i feel like i shld prob mention my ed to my therapist bc i am Consumed by it rn and its dictating my life but at the same time i do NOT want to hear abt recovery or really anything abt lessening the disordered thoughts. i love those thoughts vry much they might even be my best friends actually
idc im putting on my kúromi headband and doing a facemask while reading my book n then gna paint my nails and sleep early ^__^
August 29, 2025 at 1:35 AM
idc im putting on my kúromi headband and doing a facemask while reading my book n then gna paint my nails and sleep early ^__^
my partner kinda squicked me today i showed them my new jírai coord and they said that it was "really hot" and other séxual stuff like idk even if i wasnt aspec it just feels disgusting to me to séxualise my self expression.. i even told them the history of the subculture so.. idk
August 29, 2025 at 1:32 AM
my partner kinda squicked me today i showed them my new jírai coord and they said that it was "really hot" and other séxual stuff like idk even if i wasnt aspec it just feels disgusting to me to séxualise my self expression.. i even told them the history of the subculture so.. idk
i hate that ive broken my own trust so many times bc now i constantly second guess myself. "this time i'm fr, i'm not gonna fail again, this is it!!!" over and over and over so now whenever i get motivated and say the same thing i just think mmm u've said this and flopped so many times before. lol
August 28, 2025 at 8:05 PM
i hate that ive broken my own trust so many times bc now i constantly second guess myself. "this time i'm fr, i'm not gonna fail again, this is it!!!" over and over and over so now whenever i get motivated and say the same thing i just think mmm u've said this and flopped so many times before. lol
giggles n twirls my hair i started restricting heavily this week n im already down 2kg (mostly water weight but idgaf)
August 28, 2025 at 8:03 PM
giggles n twirls my hair i started restricting heavily this week n im already down 2kg (mostly water weight but idgaf)